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| godessalthena (profile) wrote, on 2-25-2006 at 7:13am | |
| puppies, kittens, sunshine, spring time ice cream, cake, candy, cookies potatoes, macaroni and cheese, pockey, grill cheese sun dogs, starry nights, friends, sleeping in drawing, painting, performing, writing dreaming, laughing, thinking, talking i'm going insane... when i have time to myself... time to think... when i could think of all those things that make me happy, instead i think of what's wrong with me, why people don't like me, how i don't fit in and i can always be replaced. i know it's wrong to think like that, but it's so overwhelming that i can't not think of it... i'm just a game to all of them, and not very fun at that. i'm not important to them and i'll never be very important. i'm only important to a few people and that kills me... i'm selfish, i want to be important to the whole world. i wish i wasn't such a baby. i wish i could just pick it up and move on. i've smiled a lot in the past few days... it feels like more than normal... and i don't know if it's forced or if it's an subconsicous reaction... i don't know... so yeah... me and paul, we both have an overwhelming desire to die sometimes. but paul doesn't like me that much so we don't talk about it. 'one day... we have to let it go...' love.amelia |
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lillypad | 02-25-06 12:49pm you'll be okay, sweetheart.
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godessalthena | Re:, 02-25-06 1:35pm thanks, brooke... i love you too. |
rorin | 02-25-06 1:09pm Amelia,
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godessalthena | Re:, 02-25-06 1:35pm <3 thanks, guys! I love you too..
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hwnchick | 02-25-06 4:29pm your icons are always so beautiful <3 |
oceanchild | 02-25-06 5:29pm I know I'm hardly the whole world, but I love you, and that makes you one step closer. |
independenttruckergrl | 02-25-06 9:01pm paul doesnt like anybody.
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| independenttruckergrl | Re:, 02-25-06 9:02pm haha. opps. wrong paul.
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