04-13-06 9:53pm

What are 5 things you would want me to know before I died? It can be anything.

1] you are of great consequence
2] i admire you
3] i would rather die instead
4] if everyone were like you, the world would be beautiful
5] you're my BEST bes friend


What would 5 questions be that you have been wanting to ask me? They can be anything.

1] do you dream in color?
2] did you feel 'fuzzy warm' when you got into bed when you were little?
3] when did you lose your first tooth?
4] what did we laugh the hardest at? (i'm so NOT cheating....yes i am)
5] what is our best memory together?


If I died, would you come to my funeral?
yes

If I died, would you cry?
yes

If I died, would you forget me eventually?
no

If I died, what would be going through your head?
how do i live? where are you? mostly i'd be panicking because you'd be alone and i'd be alone and i wouldn't be able to protect you. i'd be wondering how i'll ever see you again. whether you're okay? when do i die? stuff like that.

If I died, would you tell me you loved me before I died?
yes

Would you mean it?
yes

If I died, would you regret anything you said to me?
yes

If I died, would you regret anything you said about me?
yes

If I died, would you regret anything you did to me, including breaking up with me?
yes

If I died, would you be wishing you told me something that you haven't already told me?
no

If I died, what would be your last memory of me?
uh, whatever we did last, duh. so, for example, if you die before i see you tomorrow, my last memory wouold be a hug and a "see you tomorrow".

If I died, what would you remember me by?
every single thing. we have SO much together.

If I died tomorrow, I would want to know your true feelings about me. What are your complete feelings about me, up to this day?
that's too complex. i love you. i need you. i appreciate you. i feel calm with you. i feel safe with you. i feel silly with you. i feel a ton of complex emotions and a ton of simple emotions with you.

What is are best memory together?
that would be "our"...ummm. i don't know. do you? no. i do know. when i told you my secret about T because you actually cared enough to ask. That's our best memory if you ask me. That's when i chose you to be my best friend without even realizing it. That's when i found someone to trust and talk to and open my heart to.

What did we laugh the hardest at?
something extemely perverted, undoubtedly, i just don't remember what. do you?

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Re:, 04-14-06 9:11am

1] do you dream in color? sometimes, usually
2] did you feel 'fuzzy warm' when you got into bed when you were little? sometimes, mostly in the winter
3] when did you lose your first tooth? in the car on a trip, mym mommeh lost it in her pants pocket.
4] what did we laugh the hardest at? i can remember doing it, but i don't know at what...
5] what is our best memory together? sitting in my room reading my journals.

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04-14-06 2:05am

What are 5 things you would want me to know before I died? It can be anything.

1] That I still love you
2] I want everything to be absolutely perfect
3] I'm still a little boy
4] I brush my teeth like you now( I figured it out a few days ago)
5] I would still come find you and give you the spankings due


What would 5 questions be that you have been wanting to ask me? They can be anything.

1] How are you really doing?
2] Do you really hate me?
3] If it could work out, would you want it to?
4] Would you kiss me again?
5] Can we see eachother again soon?


If I died, would you come to my funeral?
Yeah, but I'd go find you after

If I died, would you cry?
Yes

If I died, would you forget me eventually?
Nope

If I died, what would be going through your head?
"Why did you die? Is this even real? How do I go find you again?"

If I died, would you tell me you loved me before I died?
I will always tell you that

Would you mean it?
Yes

If I died, would you regret anything you said to me?
No

If I died, would you regret anything you said about me?
No

If I died, would you regret anything you did to me, including breaking up with me?
No

If I died, would you be wishing you told me something that you haven't already told me?
Maybe...

If I died, what would be your last memory of me?
.....you and me at the greyhound bus stop, me crying about being scared and you comforting me

If I died, what would you remember me by?
The moon and the stars in the sky at night

If I died tomorrow, I would want to know your true feelings about me. What are your complete feelings about me, up to this day?
I still love you. Part of me wants this to honestly work out. It's hard being without you. I want to hold you and be held again.

What is are best memory together?
Hmm....so many. I would say the day I came back from idaho the first time, and we were both so happy to see eachother. I just wanted to cry I was so happy.

What did we laugh the hardest at?
Tickling eachother I would imagine

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Re:, 04-14-06 9:13am

1] How are you really doing? Honestly I'm bouncing around in how I am... When I wish people I'm fine, when I'm without I could be better...
2] Do you really hate me? Like I said, I could never really hate you.
3] If it could work out, would you want it to? Yes.
4] Would you kiss me again? I don't know, you're a little tainted. :P Yes.
5] Can we see eachother again soon? I don't know if that's a good idea since we still both have feelings for eachother... But I really do want to see you again.

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04-14-06 8:44pm

What are 5 things you would want me to know before I died? It can be anything.

1] I wish I could have met you for real
2] I've always held your opinions in very high regard...what you think matters a lot to me
3] U2 (the song "Bad" in particular) always reminds me of you
4] I think it's a funny coincidence that you live in the city where my dad was born (though I think I've mentioned that to you before)
5] You are very loved


What would 5 questions be that you have been wanting to ask me? They can be anything.

1] How are you doing?
2] What do you honestly think of me?
3] If you could be a portal to some other place (real or imagined) what would you be, and where would you go?
4] What's your biggest goal in life?
5] Do you think that someone can ever really understand someone else?


If I died, would you come to my funeral?
If I could, but chances are I wouldn't be privy to location or time announcements, since I'm just an online friend

If I died, would you cry?
I'd like to think I would, and I do think it's very probable, but it's so hard to predict a reaction to death. I thought I knew exactly how I would act if my father were ever to die and I couldn't have been more wrong. It's such an unknowable. And crying doesn't necessarily prove caring or sincerity...in all honesty I might be too shocked to cry which I think is in itself a declaration of esteem

If I died, would you forget me eventually?
I do know with certainty that the answer to this one is no

If I died, what would be going through your head?
Fuck not again

If I died, would you tell me you loved me before I died?
If I got the chance

Would you mean it?
100%

If I died, would you regret anything you said to me?
I don't think so

If I died, would you regret anything you said about me?
I've never said anything about you that I think needs regretting, so no

If I died, would you regret anything you did to me, including breaking up with me?
I might

If I died, would you be wishing you told me something that you haven't already told me?
No, no secrets

If I died, what would be your last memory of me?
Whatever it was you wrote last in your journal

If I died, what would you remember me by?
Your journal, the sky, Chobits, the icon you made me a long time ago, Japanese, U2, the word cute, and yourself

If I died tomorrow, I would want to know your true feelings about me. What are your complete feelings about me, up to this day?
That's a really hard question. I've always thought you intelligent, imaginative, and artistic. Sometimes your honesty shocks me but I respect you so much for it because it's a personality trait I really wish I could emulate. I think you've got some really great friends, and they in turn have a really great friend in you. I wish that you liked yourself better and even though sometimes changes make me sad, I've enjoyed watching you become more self-confident and proud. I worry sometimes that we're drifting apart, especially when I don't hear from you for long periods of time (or conversely when I don't comment for you) but I know it's just because we're separate people and we both have lives outside of the computer that we lead. I think it's awesome that you know Japanese and in every picture I've seen if you I've thought you attractive. You remind me of beautiful things and innocence and opened doors in dark rooms and pink hearts with black backgrounds. I like the icons you make and I'm excited about college for you because college rocks hardcore. I'm still grateful for that first comment you left in my journal, years ago now. I love you.

What is are best memory together?
We've never really shared any memories together

What did we laugh the hardest at?
We've never laughed at anything together either


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