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| godessalthena (profile) wrote, on 9-12-2006 at 8:31pm | |
| Current mood: crushed Music: last days of april |
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| i feel horrible... i miss my mommy so much... i saw my aunt today and she reminded me so much of my mom... i want my mom... i want to be home where i feel safe and happy and everything is wonderful... i wish my life was wonderful like it used to be... i miss my old life... i miss my old friends and old house and old room and old everything... i miss the walks in the park with kirk and the late nights in my living room and the puppies and giraffie and the telephone... i miss the green couches and my brother... i miss my sister and my dad... i miss my kitchen and the ugly wall paper in the front hall... i miss my front yard and the trees and the fires... i miss the neighbor's houses and i miss the air... i miss the bus stop... i miss the bathrooms... i miss my window and my night stand... i wish i felt good about myself again... i wish i could be confident with myself and find everything about my beautiful again... i wish i was strong. i wish i didn't get homesick... i wish i had never fixed my problems and i still pushed what i love away so it wouldn't hurt to have it gone. i want someone here to understand me like my friends did... i want a friend here who cares about me... i want someone to know me and make me feel better... i don't want to be lost here by myself... i hate being surrounded by strangers and fickle people... i want to be understood and i want to be happy. why is this so hard for me? why do i have to sit here in the dark and cry about stupid shit? why can't i just be happy because i'm starting again and i get to make new friends and find new opportunities? why is this so hard? i don't want to feel alone anymore. i don't want to feel fat and outcasted and lonely and misunderstood and alone... i need a hug....... a reallyreallyreally big hug. 'don't cry for me...' love, amelia |
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aerii | 09-14-06 11:32am just two more years baby and i might go to school with you.
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godessalthena | Re:, 09-14-06 5:27pm do you want to come here? it would be so cool to go to school with such an amazing sister
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