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.j.e.s.s. (profile) wrote,
on 11-18-2006 at 6:25pm
Current mood: confused
Subject: help


okay seriously. why cant i do my homework. i just wont allow myself to do it. i seriously wont. what is wrong with me?

and it's not just this.

i can't

do



anything.








ugh. but hey i already knew that so whatevv. ............................ i knew i'd be like this. i knew it. is it wrong that i just want to get married and have kids. it's not that i dont ever want to get an education or have a job. i'm smart. and i like feeling like i'm good at a job or whatever but i just dont .............want that...?? i just want to be a mom. that's so bad! no it's not. it's not bad. it's not bad that i want a family and that i want to be a great mom and have a great family why is that wrong? that's not wrong? but yet i dont want all that SO YOUNG. i dont want all that right now . but i just dont enjoy .................. i dont enjoy like ...working for this undefinable goal that i'm supposed to have since i have a scholarship and blah blah blah but every one says that medical assisting is not enough. well i'm sorry, i'm not striving for this goal to become a doctor or pharmacist or biochemical engineer or whatev. i just dont ... want that


so is something wrong with me because i feel like that? explain it to me.
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spud

11-18-06 10:36pm

i'm not majoring in "what i want to be".

i'm majoring in what interests me.

and as far as the family thing goes, i can relate. but i know that without a job, i can't start a family. and without a diploma, it'll be much harder for me to get a job that pays well enough to support my family well and affords me the free time to spend with them as well.

that's why i'm sticking with it.

but every time shannon sees a baby, she flips out and says "i want one of those!" so i know what you're saying.

and i don't think there's anything wrong with that.

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tare

11-19-06 11:20am

i couldn't have said it any better myself. granted, i'm going into something that i've always loved... but i would honestly love nothing more than to fast forward to where i can just be a good mom and wife... that's what i've always wanted.

so in otherwords, i see absolutely nothing wrong with that. :)

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jes

11-19-06 8:33pm

jess, that's not a bad thing at all.

Seriously, more woman should be that way. wanting to be great mommy's and wifes to their husbands, and kids. God loves when we just commit ourselves entirley to our family, and it's a beautiful thing. Kids can never *ever* get enough love. So don't let anyone let you think that's a bad thing.

I love you jess, you'll find something you enjoy until that time comes. just don't settle, and don't rush it while you're young, or you'll regret not taking advantage of that time. and you know you will.

lylas-jess

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