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imnotokay (profile) wrote,
on 1-24-2007 at 3:27pm
Current mood: astounded
Music: Ryan Cabrera-"Exit To Exit"
Subject: When the world stops spinning....do we fall off?
Has anyone besides me ever had one of the hardest relationships ever?! I feel like Samantha could care less about me. It's like she got what she wanted and now that she has it, she's done[makes me want to blow my head off] Especially now that this is the 8th time that we've gone back out. This ON AND OFF dating thing has got to stop. I want to be in serious relationship and she only wants to mess around with my heart[maybe take it in her hands and smash it]. But anyways, dating sucks, and i'm trying to get used to this so called normal life i don't have. Today i decided that sitting on the computer all hours would be fun, well........it's not. I'm now as bored as ever and don't see why the net interests me. Maybe because it's the only place i can actually let loose and tell ppl how i feel without really being judged. But sometimes, that even defeats it's own purpose. Eventually there is one person on the earth that will decide to want to bitch you out on your own journal, and i'm yet to meet mine. I'm amazed at how extremely bored i get to the point that i talk about the most boring things; there was a point there.(i make myself bored.) Tommorrow's plans are as follows:

1) Probably sit at home and watch tv.
2) Think about how stupid i am to fall in these hopeless relationships.
3) Tell myself how stupid i am that i forgot my Science book, and will be failing my test.
4) Wonder why i do what i do
5) Wait for the arrival of money so i can go shopping for some new clothes that i NEED.(thought i'd put a happy one in there.)

-ttyl
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acidtears

02-24-07 6:10pm

I always promised myself if I ever broke up with someone, that'd be it. My mum always said, 'if it's over, then it's over.' I firmly believe that.

If there's something about you that a particular person doesn't like, and they break up with you, they still dislike that quality when they decide to date you again. It's always there, and it's always going to eventually resurface. Sad but true. People don't change easily.
Especially when they don't have to.

I didn't think I had plans for today, but lo-and-behold, I just got home. I spent hours out with my family getting some pointless things. A new sketchbook for my sister and I each, new graphite bars for me, fabric for my other sister, and more knitting supplies.

I have no idea why I all of a sudden am infatuated with knitting, but at least it gets me off of the computer. :]

Love.

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loserof1

03-10-07 9:08am

why thank you.

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rive

03-16-07 11:31pm

Take me off your friends list.

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lisa3019

04-14-07 10:35am

yuck.
you sit at home all day, too?!

hope things look better for you after that shopping trip. =D

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