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| butterfly (profile) wrote, on 6-22-2007 at 5:37pm | |
| Current mood: confused Music: I wish I felt nothing - Wallflowers |
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| I want to talk to Kelly... he's set to away. He wasn't there when I attempted to talk to him last night either, so... ugh. Kandace, Tessi, and I are having a girls night thing tonight, and I'm leaving around 7:30 so I kind of wanted to talk to him before I left to let him know what was going on, but then obviously that isn't happening. So I'm pretty nervous. I'm leaving in four days, something that doesn't even seem possible. I know I won't be what he expects, and I doubt he'll be exactly what I expect, and that's quite terrifying. What if we don't hit it off, don't have the chemistry that's needed in order to pull off a relationship? Do we just break up and will I still plan on going up there, only to possibly sit and be alone in my dorm in a state where I don't know anyone? Surely we'd still be friends. And then I guess that's a little obsurd, I've talked to a few people, and I'll be living on campus for Pete's sake, it's inevitable that I meet a few people. I guess it's just really starting to dawn on me that I'm making a huge decision moving across the world to be with him. Pretty late in the game for that thought, though. I'm not having doubts by any mean, I love Kelly to death, and I don't even want to fathom not being with him, but things do happen. Just over a year ago I was planning a summer wedding with Karl. Now he's not even really in my life. We talk occasionally, but it pretty much consists of "hey" "hey" "what's up?" "nothing. u?" "eh, nothin really either" And then that's that. Granted, there are like NO resemblences between Kelly and Karl, so it so wouldn't even be the same story. Ugh, I just need to stop thinking maybe. I worry way too much, and these random thoughts that I'm sproutin out makes me feel like my mother. Talk about creepy... |
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pjlmaster | 06-22-07 11:00pm you have more friends in MI then just kelly lol, just do yourself a favor and dont rush things :P |