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butterfly (profile) wrote,
on 3-28-2008 at 3:35pm
Current mood: depressed
Music: Bottle It Up - Sara Bareilles
Not that I want Jacob to leave, but I'm ready for my life to go back to normal. There is a certain novelesque appeal to staying out late and singing along with Cher, Celine Dion, HIM and Rent songs at three in the morning, but after awhile I start to miss normal things like Kelly and having my homework done and of course sleep. If Jacob was here all the time it wouldn't be so bad, I wouldn't feel as though Okay, he's here for a limited amount of time, I have to spend every last second with him until he's gone again.
Also, this time is rather bittersweet since I do believe I'll be gone before he returns, and then upon my arrival back for school he may be gone back to Columbia. So there's definitely a more urgent need to hang out with each other at all points in time, thus making a mess of my life.

I haven't talked to Kelly in a long time, and there's no one to blame but myself. Hopefully he understands and doesn't hate me and want to rip my throat out.
Fingers crossed on that one.

Anyway, Trevor has a basketball game tonight, and he's outside shooting around by himself and so I'm going to go out there and play with him. I need to be a better sister to him and Taylor. I need to be a better girlfriend as well.
My life sucks right now because I'm realizing that I'm a horrible person and that's certainly not the most delightful thing to come to the realization of.
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valoth

03-29-08 12:37am

I dont approve of this self doubting! Thats my job. Gah!

I understand very well. Im ok with hanging out with friends, its allowable damnit! =D
No I dont hate you, ya maybe you can be better with the sister and brother, but you cant say youre a terrible sister to them.
You are a super girlfriend, for said conditions.

You aint no horibble person! >.>

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butterfly

Re:, 03-29-08 10:47am

Thanks for understanding.
I love you like uber amounts :)
<3

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pjlmaster

03-29-08 11:10am

horrible person? wtf is this emo bullshit!?

lmao! less then 3 ma'am

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butterfly

Re:, 03-29-08 11:14am

I work hard at being a happy person, so I am credited my occasional emo days >.<

... that's a lie. I do NOT work hard at being a happy person. I just fed you lies from the tablecloth.

*<3 SoaD*

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Anonymous

03-29-08 2:27pm

i <3 you and stuff. keep your chin up! =]

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