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butterfly (profile) wrote, on 3-28-2008 at 3:35pm | |
Current mood: depressed Music: Bottle It Up - Sara Bareilles |
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Not that I want Jacob to leave, but I'm ready for my life to go back to normal. There is a certain novelesque appeal to staying out late and singing along with Cher, Celine Dion, HIM and Rent songs at three in the morning, but after awhile I start to miss normal things like Kelly and having my homework done and of course sleep. If Jacob was here all the time it wouldn't be so bad, I wouldn't feel as though Okay, he's here for a limited amount of time, I have to spend every last second with him until he's gone again. Also, this time is rather bittersweet since I do believe I'll be gone before he returns, and then upon my arrival back for school he may be gone back to Columbia. So there's definitely a more urgent need to hang out with each other at all points in time, thus making a mess of my life. I haven't talked to Kelly in a long time, and there's no one to blame but myself. Hopefully he understands and doesn't hate me and want to rip my throat out. Fingers crossed on that one. Anyway, Trevor has a basketball game tonight, and he's outside shooting around by himself and so I'm going to go out there and play with him. I need to be a better sister to him and Taylor. I need to be a better girlfriend as well. My life sucks right now because I'm realizing that I'm a horrible person and that's certainly not the most delightful thing to come to the realization of. |
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valoth | 03-29-08 12:37am I dont approve of this self doubting! Thats my job. Gah!
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butterfly | Re:, 03-29-08 10:47am Thanks for understanding.
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pjlmaster | 03-29-08 11:10am horrible person? wtf is this emo bullshit!?
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butterfly | Re:, 03-29-08 11:14am I work hard at being a happy person, so I am credited my occasional emo days >.<
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Anonymous | 03-29-08 2:27pm i <3 you and stuff. keep your chin up! =] |