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| oceanchild (profile) wrote, on 1-18-2009 at 11:28pm | |
| Last weekend I finally confessed to Nathan how upset I was about his mixed messages on whether we'd be living together after graduation. On the one hand, he kept saying things like 'I hope someday we can make this permanent' and 'maybe it would be fun to move to Oregon with you after all,' but on the other, he would always speak hypothetically ('if we're still together, maybe if we're living together again later,' etc. etc.). It was driving me crazy. It was getting to the point where I felt like maybe I ought to just break up with him because we wanted different things -- and since I didn't want marriage, I felt like it was wrong of me to demand any other kind of serious commitment. Still, the thought that maybe our relationship was based on convenience rather than a real desire to be together ate at me. He heard me out and then he apologized, and he explained that he was shy about commitment because he had been confusing 'long-term' with 'permanent,' and not thinking about them as separate things. He said that his opinion had changed since our original conversation, where he'd flat-out refused to go with me somewhere simply for the sake of staying together, and said that now, if I'd have him, he wanted to follow me if I left. I was so relieved I cried. So it looks like we'll be moving to Oregon at the end of the summer. We're not sure where, yet. I wanted Eugene, but he's hesitant because it's apparently hard to find work there. He said Portland, but I'm not convinced there because I might be forced to socialize with the awkward family I have there. I'm thinking maybe Corvallis or Albany, now. We'll just have to see what happens. Maybe over the summer we can drive up and visit a bunch of cities to see where we think we'd fit best. I'm just so excited that this is happening. |
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electrofucker | 01-19-09 1:57pm congratulations! i can imagine how relieved and ecstatic you must be. =) i was going through something similar about a year ago and i'm happy to say we're now living together and contentedly, at that. |
godessalthena | 01-19-09 2:47pm i hear portland is full of crazies. be careful...
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hakumei | Hey., 02-04-09 3:32pm So. you might not even remember me very clearly. but it's good to see you're finally posting again. I'm going to comment after I have more time to read it. I'm afraid I'm actually sitting at school maybe thinking about preparing for an exam.
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oceanchild | Re: Hey., 02-04-09 9:35pm You're back!! =D I'd wondered what had happened to you and missed you too. I'm glad you're still around on the interwebs. Looking forward to further comments. =) |