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godessalthena (profile) wrote,
on 2-23-2009 at 8:54pm
i hate this roller coaster i seem to be permanently stuck on.

and medicine and alcohol don't mix.
they definately don't mix with that hamburger...

today.. was ok at the beginning..
and on the way home..
and the first part of being home..
..

but this stupid back problem is making my life so wretched.
i can't do anything i love.
i'm insanely out of shape..
and i'm getting fatter and fatter.
chronic pain is the worst kind..
and it's helping me step into a depressive pit..
that has no way out..

it rained today, which reminded me of seattle..
and made me miss it even more.
i miss it every day.. like crazy..
like to the point of tears..

i hate this place..
and what it's done to my relationship.
and to me.
i just want to run away.
and pretend that people didn't share my secrets with eachother.
and pretend that i didn't have to fight to keep my privacy.
and pretend i never did any of the things that make me throw up a little every time i think about them.

i hate my life.
(well.. most of it at least)
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lillypad

02-24-09 12:19am

I love you!
You're the best!


I'm not just saying that. I wish I could jump up right now and go give you a gigantic hug and a super gross kiss on the cheek! (but that's just way too out of character!)

I hope you feel better soon sweetheart. I care about your well being.

(I hope you know you don't have to fight to keep your privacy with me...I understand what you mean/need now...I know you probably will still feel that way, but I just want you to know I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!andikeepmymouthshutnow :)

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godessalthena

Re:, 02-24-09 2:39am

i don't anymore.. i used to, but now i don't feel bad about asking you to go so i can be private.

I love you too!!
<3<3
<3
ily! bff-f-f-fff!

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lillypad

Re: Re:, 02-24-09 8:24pm

fffff-f

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