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| godessalthena (profile) wrote, on 12-21-2016 at 10:36pm | |
| i don't know if i have had someone feel this strongly about me since jeremiah. mexicans are very passionate people. sometimes i feel like i'm too cynical to fully enjoy how wonderful love can really be. i'm not afraid to get hurt, i think it's more my ability to feel deeply has been somewhat diminished. i've missed my passion for a long time. i've always wanted to find it again. i used to think that maybe having kids would fill that, but now that having kids is more of a real possibility than ever before, i feel myself getting cold feet. the whole idea terrifies me. it changes things in a very real way and once you have them you can't unhave them. is that really what i want? what do i even want. i haven't really given it much thought. i mean definitely a house, a car, a career, but never more than that. and now i find myself even questioning if these are things i want or just what i feel i should want. but now i'm almost out of my 20's and things are speeding up. my life is 100% controlled by my work schedule. would having kids be a welcome change of pace? i already just stay at home all the time anyway. what would it really make worse? what would it really make better? bjorne is snoring. he's so adorable. i love him so much, even if he's a wretched pizza junkie. fatty mcfatteraon. takes after his ma. hahaha but seriously my look was on point today. i am in love with my urban decay naked basics 2 palette. the matte neutrals just make such a soft and elegant look. understated glamour. i've been wearing this really cool lipstick from portland black lipstick company that i didn't really like at first, but with this palette i feel like i really get this sweet look going. kinda edgy at work but not too in your face. i've really toned down my whole look. i'm not sure how i feel about it. is it because i'm getting older and feel compelled to "act my age" or is it because my tastes are changing. hard to tell anymore. fuck it. i don't even fuckin care. |
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andy | 12-22-16 3:17am Wish in my 31 years that I had ever had anyone love me.. but this is not the case. |
andy | 12-22-16 3:17am No one has ever felt strongly for me.. and the women that I have had relations with.. I was just one guy in a pool of many. And one of the lowest. |
godessalthena | Re: , 12-28-16 11:32pm to quote an overrated book
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losrnancr | 12-24-16 2:25am for what it's worth, i'm 31 and started feeling like i should maybe dress my age recently as well. also ended up at "fuck it." spent way too much money on multiple pairs of leather shoes to add something fresh to my normal wardrobe though. buy yourself something nice and expensive. it's christmas time.
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