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| godessalthena (profile) wrote, on 1-15-2024 at 7:08am | |
| I broke my right foot a couple years ago, it's healed up fine ... but now my left foot causes me excruciating pain after walking even short distances. I'm seeing the doctor this week but it's made exercising nearly impossible and it's extremely depressing. this winter has also just been giving horrible so far. it's been in the negatives all week. now we are finally maybe getting our first real snow, followed by shitty rain. it's always dark. I might take some classes at the community college in the spring just to give me something to do. my joints hurts so much anymore I don't crochet or do any crafts, I just sit on the couch and watch YouTube obsessively. it's fucking sad. maybe I just want to love it my last few months kids free doing stupidly mindless shit? I'm in my second trimester and haven't gained any weight, which I am very proud of. the first Dr I saw said I should gain 30lbs, which would essentially be undoing all my hard work over the past year. that really fucking brings me down too. this journey i thought would be fun and exciting but it's mostly just been painful and sad. hopefully I don't have ridiculous post partum depression once the nugget arrives, but I'm deeply concerned... why am I just such a pile of trash? my body hates me, my mind hates me... am I even worth anything? |
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losrnancr | 01-18-24 2:50pm as someone who has worked in OB at the hospital... pretty normal thoughts right now.
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godessalthena | Re: , 01-19-24 3:32pm yeah? I'm glad I'm not way off base haha... we did have a completely ridiculous could snap for a week maybe less?? did you like the area? I used to work in Kirkland for a bit, it's a nice place. idk if I could live in the Seattle area again tho, it's so busy and expensive! and it never snows. the only part of winter that makes winter bearable haha
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