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| jedibumblebee (profile) wrote, on 5-19-2002 at 11:34pm | |
| Current mood: crazy Music: Tori Amos- Caught A Lite Sneeze Subject: Caught a lite sneeze. Dreamed a little dream. Made my own pretty hate machine. |
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| I don't really remember what started it. I know that I'm still caught up in this infatuation. I don't know what it is that I find so attractive, or why I can't get away, or why I can't get too close. All I know is that for at least six months my thoughts have been tied up in a dream, one that keeps waking me. I can't give it up, it keeps resurfacing as soon as I think it might be drifting away. I wish I could tell him what my thoughts are, how I can't get through a day without him crossing my mind even if he doesn't cross my path, and how he makes me jump every time I see him but then I turn away in fear that he might find out. And at the very same time, I want him to know! I want him to find out! For half of a year I've been dwelling on a deadened dream, and I'm simply allowing it to die under my feet. I can get the perfect chance to tell him how I feel, to drop my hints, or to at least speak to him, one more time before its too late, before I never see him again, but I can't. I CANT. I don't understand how anything can control me like the emotions you bring. Do you remember what we almost had? I want to ask. I remember putting my hand on your knee. I remember the shake with the cherry. And I remember how you brought me my ink pen. But thats where it ends. It's so easy for the conversations to drop and have nothing every become of it. I kick myself almost every day that I see you and don't even have the courage to speak. |
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| Anonymous | 05-20-02 10:01am Your dreams are where you want to go...make this your final act of your highschool career. Approach him and tell him how you feel. End these 4 years on a high note. See you in a few. |
jennapie | 05-20-02 3:44pm go for it, there is nothing you can lose and all that you can gain. You don't want to walk away from high school, possibly the greatest time of your life, with any regrets. Tell him how you feel, and even if he doesn't share those feelings you will feel better knowing that you gave it your best. You never know, maybe you are missing the greatest person that will ever walk into your life, you can't give up without a fight. See what could really happen. Good Luck. Congratulations on graduating too!! I hope we can become better friends, and I hope to see you in the future. Dani talks about you all the time and you sound like a person that I would really like to get to know. See ya later. and GOOD LUCK again. Go for your dreams. |
Tigerbothesh | Metaphorically speaking...., 05-20-02 10:31pm Dreams are a glimpse of reality. It's up to you to decide whether or not you saw it right or if your finger was in your eye when you were looking. My suggestion; find out if this dream can be reality. |
| shortwave | pfft, 05-22-02 2:27pm yeah, very upfront. |
wafflehouse | Re: pfft, 05-29-02 11:26pm shut up, bitch!
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