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sugarmouse0587 (profile) wrote,
on 3-21-2003 at 10:42pm
Current mood: contrary and spoiled
Music: edwin mcain
So "they" say that we're lucky and we should enjoy what we have because noteveryoneintheworldhasallthewonderfulthingswehave.

"They" also say that we're selfish and we don't deserve all the things we have.

So what do "they" want from me?

Be thankful or feel guilty?


So going shopping for me is this big moral debate. I hate spending money because you're supposed to be thrifty, but I want new things. But then I don't end up enjoying the new things because I feel guilty about spending money. Or I don't buy anything and feel bad because I:
A). wasted my time
B). don't have anything new

And being Miss Picky Fickle, I can't find anything I like. Clothes are too tacky, too ugly, too tight, too lose, too plain, too showy, ect. And being picky is a bad thing, I guess. Other people don't have this problem finding something. I have this awful ideal of how clothes should look on me. It rarely happens.

And then I feel ugly and act like a complete brat in a public place. And then I pout. Mom gets mad and calls me selfish, but in reality I just don't want to waste her money on something I don't deserve and won't enjoy anyway.

And then! She offers to buy me something anyway, but I'm too stubborn and refuse to pick anything out. So I sit and brood and really want what she offered, but it's too late. Then there's this horrible compusive feeling that I've missed out on something.


!!!!!!!
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WindedHero

ehh,, 03-22-03 3:27am

I do the same things. I feel guilty when dad spends money on something I won't enjoy, and I become difficult when trying to find clothes to buy.

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sugarmouse0587

Re: ehh,, 03-22-03 11:33pm

I guess it happens to everyone.

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southern_gurl

03-22-03 3:51pm

I think it an aquarias thing, because I have the same problem.

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sugarmouse0587

Re:, 03-22-03 11:34pm

maybe it's a people problem

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Atman

03-23-03 1:10am

do you see what I wear? Jeans and something. Never anything else, other than shorts.
Clothes are just a minor thing that doesn't really make a difference for anything. It can't be helped.
I hate shopping, so maybe the brood and pout and be a brat thing IS the people problem.

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sugarmouse0587

Re:, 03-23-03 1:34pm

You're right.

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