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| sendmemoney (profile) wrote, on 5-23-2002 at 11:05pm | |
| *~laughter echoes around me and i stare down at my star rings and twirl them around and around. i am just so sick of everything lately ... i can’t even bother to pretend anymore. don’t tell me what to do. maybe if i had somebody to talk to, i would be doing that. you don’t know what it is like ... just let me sit silently sipping my water and smoothing my hair back, while everybody moves around me with the sole purpose of insignificant conversation. i don’t even care anymore how insignificant it is, i just want to be a part of it. of something. you know how everybody has those times where they just feel like they belong ? does everybody have it ? because i am still waiting for mine. except i don’t know if it is worth waiting for. why should i waste my time on something that is coming sixteen years too late ? on a lighter note, i love how everybody around me is crying their hollow tears at all the pictures and songs that come on. it means my tears will go unnoticed. though i do not know why i waste my time trying to hide them. they always go unnoticed. just somebody tell me what to do. i will sit and listen and find out what it is that you’re looking for and that is what i will become. epitomize myself into your perfect vision and then maybe i will have a chance with you. or anyone. and stop talking to me only when i have something you want. no wonder you were so eager to say hi when i walked through the door. and stop talking to me only when you are bored. all i want is for you to talk to me ... don’t you get it ?? can’t you understand that i am not going to pursue you if i see you backing off but you are all i think of and all i want ? maybe somewhere else i would be better off. anywhere but here. so just stop. just everybody stop.~* sorry this journal sucks. i entered random words into my computer because i was tired of seeing the same fucking entry with no comments. bye. * |
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| Anonymous | .wow im tired., 05-25-02 12:04am i know how you feel, i try and belong, i try so hard and no one notices or even trys to make me feel welcome. im sure ive felt belonged before but then i realized it was fake and it was really nothing and i am back here at nothing <3 |
sendmemoney | Re: .wow im tired., 05-25-02 7:34pm amy ? |
sendmemoney | Re: .wow im tired., 05-25-02 7:34pm amy ? |
| lastangelspoken | Re: Re: .wow im tired., 05-26-02 1:29am no no, not amy.. if i give you a hint, everyone will know, but here goes... my twin.. <3 |
| lastangelspoken | Re: Re: Re: .wow im tired., 05-26-02 1:30am haha i blew it myself.. dammit |