Im-Sorry
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2006 22 January :: 1.18am
i'm just sorry.
for whatever i did to push you all away.
i don't know what it is.
i just seem to fuck up anything that makes me happy.
every time.
and i'm sorry,
to every one of you...
to myself.
this is it.
it's all over.
the end.
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im-sorry
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2006 2 January :: 4.09am
I'm sorry that I mess everything up, and that I ruin everything. I am sorry that I try to think of everyone else but in the end I end up only thinking about myself, I'm sorry that I strive so hard to be a good person but I end up being horrible.
I'm just, sorry....
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2005 22 November :: 9.14pm
yo
I have't posted on this thing in a while, so, just saying, yo. Hi kalie!
ihihihihihi
1)Rap is shit
2)country is shit
3)all other music is fine by me
4)Harry potter is gay
5)garth nix is magnificent
6)only real men wear kilts
7)the music on this page is groovey
8)Barenaked Ladies is the greatest band of all time
9) Shool sucks, but it is depressingly necessary
8)ignorance is bliss
8)the only way to tame a wildebeast is to offer it havarti cheese
8)I rape chipmunks
8)If you just laughed, you're cool
8)If you just said "ewww" then get the hell out of my journal
8) if you've noticed the problem with the numbering i give you kudos and nothing else
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2005 8 November :: 4.53pm
:: Mood: calmer...but still hurt
:: Music: I never told you what I did for a living
Old friends...
So deep and down we go
down
and down we go
and down we go
and down we go
And we fall down right here
i tried
And we'll all disown to the sound of your death
We'll love again, hold hands again
and its better off this way
and never again
and never again
they gave us two shots to the back of the head
and we're all dead now
well never again
and never againt
they gave us two shots to the back of the head and we're all dead, now
I tried
one more night
one more night
laugh out cry out laugh out cry out laugh out loud
cause its dry for life
I tried
I tried
I tried
and we'll love again
we'll laugh again
we'll cry again
and we'll dance again
and its better off this way
so much better off this way
and never again
we'll never again
they gave us two shots to the back of the head and we're all dead now
fitting...there were days when all of [them] would have come running...and I don't see one of them...not one. Proof, I guess, that there really wasn't a place for me anyway.
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Aaron
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2005 6 November :: 9.56pm
:: Mood: Excited
:: Music: This bizarre piano my dad has playing.
I have a MySpace!
http://www.MySpace.com/prince_of_heaven
Come check it out!
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Im-Sorry
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2005 19 October :: 7.17pm
i'm sorry that i just fail. at everything.
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Aaron
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2005 18 October :: 9.20pm
:: Mood: Thoughtful
:: Music: Here Without You, Three Doors Down
Memoir...
A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that i saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And i don't think i can look at this the same
But all these miles that seperate
Disappear now when i'm dreaming of your face
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And i dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me
The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life was overrated
But i hope that it gets better as we go
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And i dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me
Everything i know,and anywhere i go
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
And when the last one falls
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And i dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me
I heard this today in biology...Lots of memories...I first heard it on holloween. Oh well, what's dead and gone is dead...but I can't help but feel a part of me died with it. I tried today, with Laura, and there was a spark. That same spark of life...but yet it was so infintismal compared to the blazing fire that engulfed every fiber of my being back then. This whole closure thing may be more difficult than I had originally thought. Well, wish me luck.
Later.
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2005 18 October :: 9.15pm
:: Mood: Loving
:: Music: In Your Honor, Foo Fighters
Can you hear me
Hear me screamin'
Breaking in the muted sky
This thunder heart
Like bombs beating
Echoing a thousand miles
Mine is yours and yours is mine
There is no divide
In your honor
I would die tonight
Mine is yours and yours is mine
I will sacrifice
In your honor
I would die tonight
For you to feel alive
Can you feel me
Feel me breathing
One last breath before I close my eyes
This offering
For receiving
Deliver me into the other side
Mine is yours and yours is mine
There is no divide
In your honor
I would die tonight
Mine is yours and yours is mine
I will sacrifice
In your honor
I would die tonight
For you to feel alive
For you to feel alive
For you to feel alive
For you to feel alive
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Aaron
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2005 18 October :: 9.13pm
:: Mood: Apathetic
:: Music: The Best of You, Foo Fighters
Guardian Demon
A demon watches over you. You may find yourself at
times wishing those you dislike dead.
Sometimes, you may find yourself being jealous.
Anger can often get the best of you. You are a
unique individual. Overall though, you are a
kind person with a big heart. Your demon is
always watching over you. Though a demon may
seem like evil is watching you, it is not true.
Your demon is on neither side; good nor evil.
Your demon is on your side. Your demon is
constantly protecting and guiding you down the
right path for you in life.
Who is your soul guardian?
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Irony is my guardian.
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Aaron
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2005 16 October :: 1.07pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: In your honor, Foo Fighters
"Waky, waky, waffles and baky!"
I love my sister.
Later.
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2005 16 October :: 1.07am
:: Mood: Apathetic (always am afterwards)
:: Music: Bach. a concerito.
The last fifteen minutes.
Your a vampire congrats! YOu live for the darkness
because you can't go in the light.you live of
blood but you don't kill when feeding(only if
your evil you will)Being immortal is a a very
lonely road,but somehow you deal.YOur rich and
money is not an object since if you wanted to
you could rob a bank!(that would be so cool!)
Your saying:Bite me and I'll bite back.
What creature of darkness or you?(COOL PICS)CHANGED
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The irony of this result in reference to the last fifteen minutes of my life is so great it almost stings as bad as my freshly-inflicted wound...beautiful. I am now officially gushing blood. It'll clot though. God, I'm sore...and tired. Okay. I'm off to clean (sword, wound, etc.) and then to bed.
Later.
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2005 15 October :: 9.27pm
:: Mood: Peaceful
:: Music: Tears in Heaven, Eric Clapton.
Sabbiticle
"...time can bring you down, time can bend your knees. Time can break your heart, if you beg it please, beg it please. Beyond the door, there's peace I'm sure. And I know, there'll be no more tears in Heaven. Would you know my name, if I saw you in heaven? Would you be the same, if I saw you in heaven? I must be strong, and carry on, 'cause I know I don't belong here in Heaven." -Eric Clapton, Tears in Heaven
Yes, I am on a sabbiticle. I can say with sincerity my sword has remained sheathed for one week as of four thirty tomorrow morning. It is an exercise in discipline for me. My tendancy is fight, not flight, and all too often I almost get myself killed this way. Don't get me wrong, I want to die by the sword, but as the colored man in gladiator said, "Not yet, not yet..."
Later.
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2005 13 October :: 9.33pm
:: Mood: Cynical
:: Music: All the Love in the World, NIN
Love
You have DIVINE love, and it shows in every fiber
of you. If you havent yet graced someone with
your love, dont rush. Not everyone deserves
someone as wonderful as you are because they
dont understand your rarity, but when you find
someone who does you will lead a very full and
wonderful life.
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I am beset by the ironies of my life. Time and time again, I am told I am a rarity. a diamond amongst mere stone. And yet, the truth presents itself in the actions of women I encounter; I am simply not worthy of requited love. Indeed I do desire it, and indeed I do search for it, but only to meet rejection after rejection. This is not overly encouraging, but I have a whole world to travel.
"Those of you who suffer because of love, love still more; For to die of love is to live by it."
Later.
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Im-Sorry
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2005 13 October :: 10.27pm
I'm so sorry
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2005 11 October :: 12.08am
:: Mood: Alive
:: Music: One day Remains, Alter Bridge
I know this is what you've been singing to me, sorry I ignored it for so long...
As your will is bent and broken
and every vision has been cast into the wind
as your courage crashes down before your eyes
don't lay down and die
'Cause I see in you
More than you'll ever know
And I ask you, "Why
You question the strength inside?"
And you need to know
How it feels to be alive
When every wound has been re-opened
And in this world of give and take, you must have faith
And the distance to your dreams stretch beyond reach
Don't lay down and die
No
Cause I see in you
More than you'll ever know
And I ask you, "Would
You question the strength inside?"
And you need to know
How it feels to be alive...
How it feels
How it feels to be alive...
How it feels
How it feels to be alive...
How it feels
How it feels to be alive...
Cause I see in you
More than you'll ever know
And I ask you, "Would
You question the strength inside?"
And you need to know
How it feels to be alive...
How it feels to be alive...
Later.
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