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:: 2004 6 November :: 9.37pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: taking back sunday-decade under the influence

1. orange
2. hot pink
3. black
Your name is: corinne/wonder
You love: nick
You want: nick
You wish: nick <3ed me
You have: dr pepper
You need: advil

pfth. sorry. :D that was more of a joke. umm. but my name's corinne, people call me wonder...to find out more read my journal, obviously, or read my profile.

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Aaron

:: 2004 4 November :: 11.11pm
:: Mood: Argumentative
:: Music: Lateralus, tool.

Theism or evolutionism?
The question of god? What is there to question? It's a matter of intuition and heart. I hate it when people believe they can scientifically prove a belief of origins. It's impossible. It can't be scientifically proven unless it's observable repeatable or measurable. The origin of life is non of those things. sorry evolutionists. your theory of "if science can't prove it, it isn't true" doesn't work. if that were the case, then there would be no origin in which case we do not exist in which case all this world is in our non-existent heads. So.

I embrace my desire to feel the rythmn, to feel connected enough to step aside and weep like a widow. To feel inspired to fathom the power to witness the beauty to bathe in the fountain to swing on the spiral of our divinity and still be a human

Spiral out keep going
spiral out keep going
spiral out keep going
spiral out keep going.

Later.

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-nightsloth-

:: 2004 2 November :: 9.06pm

HAH! I was playing doom anline and i tripled this guys score!

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-nightsloth-

:: 2004 26 October :: 10.42pm

What would we be doing if we were alone in my room right now?

Post this in your journal to see what people want to do with you

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Aaron

:: 2004 19 October :: 11.38pm
:: Mood: P-I-S-S-E-D O-F-F
:: Music: Please, NIN

A prison for my mind
It's official now. she hates me. She fucking hates me. Isn't that just peachy? I'm stuck in this god damn prison of a school, I'm restrained by my parents in every way, and what does she do? She turns her back on me. lovely. fucking lovely tori. I really appreciate it. I appreciate the way you call me a stalker. I appreciate the way you ditch me every chance you get. I appreciate the hateful hurtful things you say. Because they all bring me a little closer to breaking that promise I made a year and nine days ago, to myself, to you, to the whole fucking world. a promise to love you for ever. anyway, what's it matter? Because I sure don't. not to you. not to me. not to anyone. good riddance.

In loving memory,
Paul.

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Im-Sorry
[ Insanepenjuin ]

:: 2004 16 October :: 8.45am
:: Mood: tired

1. black
2. red
3. grey
Your name is: Als-chan
You love: silence
You want: a life
You wish: for a reason to be
You have: nothing
You need: a life

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Aaron

:: 2004 13 October :: 4.09pm
:: Music: Parabol, Tool

Chain mail
I was reading this chain mail (they amuse me) and I got to the part where it said Reasons guys like girls, and I started to bawl. Hell, I'm still bawling! Okay, here it is.

WELL here's a few reasons why guys like girls...
1. They will always smell good even if its just shampoo
2. The way their heads always find the right spot on our shoulder
3. How cute they look when they sleep
4. the ease in which they fit into our arms
5. the way they kiss you and all of a sudden everything is right in the world
6. How cute they are when they eat
7. The way they take hours to get dressed but in the end makes it all worth while
8. because they are always warm even when its minus 30 out side
9. the way they look good no matter what they wear
10. the way they fish for compliments even though you both know that you think she's the most beautiful thing on this earth
11. How cute they are when they argue
12. the way her hand always finds yours
13. the way they smile
14. the way you feel when you see their name on the call ID after you just had a big fight
15. The way she says "lets not fight anymore" even though you know that an hour later you will be arguing about something
16. the way they kiss when you do something nice for them
17. The way they kiss you when you say "I love you'
18. Actually ... ! ! ju! ! st the way they kiss you...
19. the way they fall into your arms when they cry
20. then the way they apologize for crying over something that silly
21. The way they hit you and expect it to hurt
22. Then the way they apologize when it does hurt . (even though we don't admit it)!
23. the way they say "I miss you"
24. the way you miss them
25. the way their tears make you want to change the world so that it doesn't hurt her anymore.....Yet regardless if you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die without them ... it matters not. Because once in your life, whatever they were to the world they become everything to you. When you look them in the eyes, traveling to the depths of their souls and you say a million things without trace of a sound,you know that your own life is inevitable consumed within the rhythmic beatings of her very heart. We love them for a million reasons, No paper would do it justice. It is a thing not of the mind but of the heart.

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Aaron

:: 2004 30 September :: 4.23pm
:: Mood: Euphoric
:: Music: Parabola, Tool

Waking the Dead
I'm reading waking the dead and he just said something that makes perfect sense. The heart is made perfect. It is the mind that is corrupt. logic, science, all of it is corrupt. The heart, that is the source of all that is good and pure in this world.

We barely remember who or what came before this precious moment,
We are choosing to be here right now. hold on, stay inside...
This holy reality, this holy experience. choosing to be here in...

This body. this body holding me. be my reminder here that I am not alone in
This body, this body holding me, feeling eternal all this pain is an illusion.

Alive

This holy reality, in this holy experience. choosing to be here in...

This body. this body holding me. be my reminder here that I am not alone in
This body, this body holding me, feeling eternal all this pain is an illusion...
Of what it means to be alive

Swirling round with this familiar parable.
Spinning, weaving round each new experience.
Recognize this as a holy gift and celebrate this
Chance to be alive and breathing
Chance to be alive and breathing.

This body holding me reminds me of my own mortality.
Embrace this moment. remember. we are eternal.
All this pain is an illusion.

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im-sorry
[ 0x-FwAh-Em-ChAn-x0 ]

:: 2004 29 September :: 2.09pm
:: Mood: Iffy
:: Music: Bicyle -- Queen

Stress
Give me three random colors
1. White
2. Blue
3. Red

Your name is: Akuma-chan

You love: Mon, the lovely hippie Bonsai plant

You want: to quit toying with his heart.

You wish: that I wasn't such a whore ><

You have: a rather clean room, a project, some more homework, and a few comics to trace over in pen and scan

You need: time to stop, so I may complete tasks as I feel needed..

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Im-Sorry
[ godessalthena ]

:: 2004 25 September :: 10.24pm
:: Mood: apathetic

I'm sorry that I can't be a human.

I'm sorry I can't make you happy.

I'm sorry I'm selfish.

I'm sorry I'm stupid.

I'm sorry I exist.

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-nightsloth-

:: 2004 20 September :: 10.15pm

wierdness
1. Ambition is the poor excuse people use for not having enough sense to be lazy.

2. I feel a whole lot more like i do right now then i did when i first got here.

3. God made the chicken and it laid an egg. End of story. What a dumb trick question.

4. Wow, it sure is dark in here when there's no lights on.

5. Nursery rhymes are stoned. Cows don't jump over the moon, the dish can't run and the spoons high, and if a cat could play the fiddle, it'd be in a circus, not on a farm. And how can a weasle go pop? And wtf is a mullberry bush? And if the monkey was chasing the weasel, why wouldn't he just throw his feces at it because thats what monkey do.

6. Country music is dumb. Thats all I have to say.

7. The only reason i can imagine somone would listen to rap is because they think its popular.

8. well, im out of ideas. I thought id post to confirm im alive. Over 'n out.

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Aaron

:: 2004 19 September :: 1.07pm

playing FFII...playing FFII...Went to the fair yesterday and got sick...it sucked. I was with ryan greg james and daniel. Ryan is a bad boy...or wants desperatly to be. Daniel is the sweety paint-baller chic. Greg is well...greg...that's all I have to say about that. And James...well, I won't even go there...BUT HE GETS SLAPPED....alot. Kinda wish juliya and eric and victoriya and some of them were there.especially april and jen. They're fricken cool. and they've seen "they" and "Ecuilibrium", which I so kindly descovered. (well, pat found they, but equilibrium is MINE!!!) thankyou madeline. God...I want to go back to school...this weekend has been damn boring.

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Aaron

:: 2004 14 September :: 2.02pm
:: Mood: like puking
:: Music: Disorder...Tool.

I'm sick today. I wanted to post a comment in her journal but what good would it do? No one talks to me anymore. even my newest friends think I'm a fuck....god this is hopeless. Madeline...I liked her better when she was COOL! now she's like a clone of mom. it sucks. it sucks so bad and so big it's gotta be...(drumrole)...A WALRUS COCK!!!

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Aaron

:: 2004 12 September :: 11.33am
:: Mood: torn apart
:: Music: Otherworld FFX

Julia
God I wish she just talk to me... I gave her my phone number...she says she's grounded from the phone...Why don't I believe that? Oh, I forgot, I don't trust people any more...that would do it, wouldn't it?

Why does she think I'm such a goody-goody. She's not. why should I be? Hell, she has fun there...I would rather be elsewhere...like L.C....or would I? There potential for love and serenity there... Why would I be anywhere else?

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Aaron

:: 2004 12 September :: 11.25am
:: Mood: angered

Tori
She never calls me. never. not once. and she complains that I'm not in her life. Hell, she never responds to my journal... I'M SORRY!!! WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO!!!

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