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:: Mood: well just kinda thinking about anythig but homewor
:: Music: Foo Fighters, I'll stick around
conversation with rachel
Stiny: Defender of the Earth from the lawn gnome threat says:
whaddup doooog?
Shark bait ohh ha ha....from Mt.wanna hock a lugi says:
Stiny: Defender of the Earth from the lawn gnome threat says:
Stiny: Defender of the Earth from the lawn gnome threat says:
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^0)
Stiny: Defender of the Earth from the lawn gnome threat says:
Stiny: Defender of the Earth from the lawn gnome threat says:
HA!!!
Stiny: Defender of the Earth from the lawn gnome threat says:
Stiny: Defender of the Earth from the lawn gnome threat says:
Stiny: Defender of the Earth from the lawn gnome threat says:
Stiny: Defender of the Earth from the lawn gnome threat says:
:B
Shark bait ohh ha ha....from Mt.wanna hock a lugi says:
ur really stupid!
Stiny: Defender of the Earth from the lawn gnome threat says:
and?
Shark bait ohh ha ha....from Mt.wanna hock a lugi says:
u r, its true, u know it, and u dont want 2 admit it
Stiny: Defender of the Earth from the lawn gnome threat says:
anything new
Stiny: Defender of the Earth from the lawn gnome threat says:
and im not stupid
Stiny: Defender of the Earth from the lawn gnome threat says:
i just dont give a shit if anyone thinks i am
Shark bait ohh ha ha....from Mt.wanna hock a lugi says:
well u should cuz it ruins ur reputation, not saying htat u hav 1 or anything but still!!!
Stiny: Defender of the Earth from the lawn gnome threat says:
hey my reputation is weird and i plan to keep it that way.
Stiny: Defender of the Earth from the lawn gnome threat says:
oohh pearl jam on the radio
Stiny: Defender of the Earth from the lawn gnome threat says:
one sec
Stiny: Defender of the Earth from the lawn gnome threat says:
ok
Shark bait ohh ha ha....from Mt.wanna hock a lugi says:
brb
Shark bait ohh ha ha....from Mt.wanna hock a lugi says:
g2g bye i will be on in about 15 mins
Stiny: Defender of the Earth from the lawn gnome threat says:
ok
The following message could not be delivered to all recipients:
ok
Well this was on messenger so theres a bunch of blanks where the emotes were. . .
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2003 7 December :: 1.14pm
:: Mood: Tired, and hungry. (got to bed at 6:30 am and now
:: Music: Music on the main menue on the first Matrix DVD
Last entry for a while
Well, this will be my last entry for while. Leaving pat's house soon...i miss you all, especially you, Tori. I'll see you tomorrow...I might call later tonight...like sixish...i don't know. I love you.
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2003 7 December :: 7.07am
:: Mood: tired, gitty, a little deprived (of someone i'm su
:: Music: Old Aprtment, Me and Mike-e-o!!!!
First entry
Patrick has a journal! ok people, intersted in what this crazy loon has to say? go to http://www.woohu.com/~shroudofrain/...m'kay? jesus, i sounded like a hucster. oh shit, my cane has fallen. look, patrick so kindly retreived it for me! good sausage, good girl. -pats on head-
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2003 7 December :: 6.29am
I took the "what kind of goth are you quiz" i couldn't figure out how to copy paste my results, but i got romantic goth. but whatever, i think (and he's reading this) that me and pat need to go play some good ol' Torok. I'll set him up with a woohu account later...so youknow, he can really be "one of the group"... Later people.
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2003 7 December :: 6.00am
:: Mood: tired...i miss Tori...my wings.
New layout
look people, i know it's hideous, but it's also 2:46 A.M. on sunday morning, i didn't sleep the night before, I am male, thus have trouble with these things, and i picked one of the hardest pictures to do, though i love this pic...that is Ramza...kinda like Cloud's Multiple personality...but not, but it's confusing...he's the main character of Final Fantasy Tactics...a game that i can place th e glory upon of having a part in saving my life...long story. i love the pic, and i'm still working on the settings...gimme a minute.
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2003 3 December :: 7.01pm
:: Mood: well. . . hmmmm
:: Music: Nirvana, In bloom
dream
well, i remembered my dream. it happens every month or so. its happening less and less often though. so heres how much of it i remember: i was sitting with this girl in the seats of like the collesum.this is the same girl that shows up in all my dreams i remember when i wake up. but the thing is, i can never describe how she looks, its like my memory is too vague. so then i turn to the right and see lindsay. nothing special, just lindsay, the girl who sits next to me in band. i seem to recall a rumor about me "liking" her though. oh well. so i get up, walk away from the girl and sit directly below lindsay. she said hi and i said hi. which is odd because for the most part i get the impression she thinks im a son of a gay whore bitch in real life. but then i look down in the center of the colesuum, and theres suddenly just this movie playing. well ok a movie. it mostly blue black and white with a fuzzy look to it. like. . . like the case of the evanesance cd. then she said something about it being raed R and i said "oh, well i hope not cause ill be in alot of trouble if it is." then i had to leave for some reason and somehow she comes with me (getting vague i know) but the next thing i know were on this yellowish cloud fling away from the colleseum and, the colleseum is evidently floating in mid air as i turn back to look. so now lindsay and i are just flying along wth no sight of ground at all when. . . well the next thing i can remember is being in a treehouse in fancy mel land with a plate of pizza rolls with a dragon or something of it looking for me. i was still with lindsay but i think now we had a dog. . . and thats all i remember. well. . . bye folks!
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2003 2 December :: 7.40pm
:: Mood: irwe5-71dty
:: Music: 7fpuwo;asdfb3ui
ojmrkehg9u43n2093r
BLLLAAAHHYHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dljg;ldjgdngnerjgnqeaofjnerfkmergojrhttnorljgh wjrfenrjfiehruhnfuhguejfgyuh kflsj;lkaHALJK JFD HAKJGHAKJjkfdskdjf;kd HOLY SHIT ATTACKING GNOMES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh, and along that note,
OOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
There's a hole in the bottom of the sea
Theres a hole in the bottom of the sea
Theres a hole, theres a hole theres a hole in the botttom of the sea<(chours)
Theres a log in the hole in the bottom of the sea
theres a log in the hole in the bottom of the sea(repeat chorus)
Theres a lump on the log in the hole in the bottom of the sea
Theres a lump on the log in the hole in the bottom of the sea (repeat chorus)
Theres a frog on the lump on the log in the hole in the bottom of the sea
Theres a frog on the lump on the log in the hole in the bottom of the sea(repeat chorus)
Theres a wart on the frog on the lump on the log in the hole in the bottom of the sea
Theres a wart on the frog on the lump on the log in the hole in the bottom of the sea(repeat chorus)
Theres a hair on the wart on the frog on the lump on the log in the hole in the bottom of the sea
Theres a hair on the wart on the frog on the lump on the log in the hole in the bottom of the sea(repeat chorus)
Theres a fly on the hair on the wart on the frog on the lump on the log in the hole in the bottom of the sea.
Theres a fly on the hair on the wart on the frog on the lump on the log in the hole in the bottom of the sea
Theres a hole Theres a hole theres a hole in the bottom of the sssssssssseeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaa!!
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2003 28 November :: 7.32pm
-skins own face- "I WANT TO DIE!!!"-evanescence
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2003 28 November :: 7.09pm
i'm going to schweitzer...i won't be back until sunday...g'bye.
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2003 28 November :: 7.06pm
so you understand what this is...i just wrote a five page private entry...this is the last paragraph in it.
in that moment in time i fell back into that coma type existance i had been in for so long...and i don't want to come out...ever....i want to hide for eternity....every time i come out of my trance i get fucked over...fucked because i am too gentle...i care too much, i bring too much down on those around me...good bye.....good bye...good bye until i can crawl out of this hole again and brave the tortures of my hell...this doesn't mean i don't love you. this doesn't mean i won't be back for years like the last time. it doesn't mean i won't be back by tomorrow, or in just a few hours...it just means until the one i love...the one i depend on allows me to lean on them again i'll hide...hide like a cowardly little boy...goodbye now....i'd tell you i love you but i know you'd rather not hear it...that you really don't care...
i think i'll be okay...i just need to think...some time to think...i feel like i'm going to break down and cry....just give me a minute.
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2003 27 November :: 8.22pm
"Fascination Street" by "The Cure"...i have to remember that...
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2003 27 November :: 8.12pm
:: Mood: releived
:: Music: rolling by soul couphing
i swear i saw him!
Ok, so i saw him in a dream once, and when i saw that plastic jack-o-lantern it for a moment looked just like the one in my dream. so i placed the copper-plated shot into the pistol, closed the hatch, pumped it TWENTY ONE times, cocked it, put the barrel in it's mouth and turned off the safety, and leaned my face close to it and cursed him for all it had done to her, spat on it...and pulled the trigger. it wasn't until the junk of pink plastic the size of a cherry flew out of the back of it's head that i realized it was not him. maybe i am going insane...i think pumpkins look like him...pink pumpkins...and i seriously thought it was him...he didn't help! maybe it was his fault i though it was him.....well, almost time for dinner...
i miss you tori...we'll talk tomorrow, won't we? i love you...more than i think you know.
later,
Paul
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2003 27 November :: 5.16pm
:: Music: smells like teen spirit, Nirvana
i miss my girl...
one person does know me...and she's currently 120 miles away and can't even get on IM because of this whole "big dead bird day" tradition. man, i miss her already. jesus...lol, alex and maddy are playing video games and alex is attacking a the invinsable and extremely explosive objects causing him to be blown to hell and back. god, this kid is insane (song switches to rooster by alice in chains) yeah, well...life is okay for the moment. it is a battle, a long bloody battle, full of these cycles. but i swear, i'll break 'em, every last shitty-ass cycle is going to get a nice big fuck up the ass. i'm so sick of them, so sick of what they do to people. i can't take it much longer...but if i have her, i can hang in as long as i need to. see, that's what being dependant on someone who actually loves you can do for you. you have this unlimited power source. when i'm around her i get totally rejuvinated. i feel so free and powerful and limitless...the feeling i get in my gut when i can't tell which pulse is mine and which is hers. the feeling i get every time i replay the sound of "yes" falling from her sweet voice. she's the only girl i've ever met that i think looks just as good with her hair up as she does with it down. (song switches to freedom by rage against the machine, i'm listening to accuradio) so here i am, recording my thoughts of her...chewing on the end of the stick of a tootsie pop (i already ate all the candy off of it) and slumping in this chair wearing my preppy quick silver sweater that none of you have ever seen me wear and those light brown pants i have...hey tori, remember when you cut the zipper thingy? well on one side all the strings seperated and are SO bushy right now. well, yeah...you guys saw my gap boxers and teased me about my "preppy cloths"...well, this pair of pants, which i was wearing that day, and the pair identical only darker to thhem are from old navy. all of my boxers are either from nordstrom's, the gap, or old navy. my solid black belt? j. crew. so...any one in the least bit surprised about this? (song switches too basket case by green day...more accuradio) well guys, i should hang out with maddy alex...you guys are awesome. i love you tori. -big huggs-
later,
Paul
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2003 27 November :: 5.07pm
:: Mood: high..irritated by phillip and fiona and this godd
:: Music: sweet dreams, marilyn manson
waterity water water water
"What's your element" - Results:
Your element is Water. You are a deep person and a good communicator. Incredibably loving and loyal when your trust is gained and you are fairly mature.Myterious to the utmost water is in everything. One can be an Ocean or a river but nobody truly knows you.
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wow...well, the description is fitting.
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2003 27 November :: 1.31pm
:: Mood: hopeful
:: Music: ...what do you think? so far away, staind
"So Far Away"
this is my life
its not what it was before
all these feelings i've shared
and these are my dreams
that i'd never lived before
somebody shake me
cuz i
i must be sleeping
now that we're here,
it's so far away
all the struggle we thought was in vain
in all the mistakes,
one life contained
they all finally start to go away
now that we're here its so far away
and i feel like i can face the day i can forgive
and i'm not ashamed to be the person that i am today
these are my words
that i've never said before
i think i'm doing okay
and this is the smile
that i've never shown before
somebody shake me cuz i
i must be sleeping
now that we're here,
it's so far away
all the struggle we thought was in vain
in all the mistakes,
one life contained
they all finally start to go away
now that we're here its so far away
and i feel like i can face the day i can forgive
and i'm not ashamed to be the person that i am today
i'm so afraid of waking
please don't shake me
afraid of waking
please don't shake me
now that we're here,
it's so far away
all the struggle we thought was in vain
in all the mistakes,
one life contained
they all finally start to go away
now that we're here its so far away
and i feel like i can face the day i can forgive
and i'm not ashamed to be the person that i am today
so far away...maybe the world is going to leave. i'll save her from it...i'll break these cycles...but i can't do that if she doesn't trust me. difference between me and those two. we can start with the fact that i love her. yay. now what else...well, i have both the maturity and strength to handle the shit given to me by the world. something they both lacked. i care more about her than anything else. my grades, my music, my horses, even my goddamn life, pathetic as it is, falls so far below her, and her interests, and her needs, and all of her dreams and hopes, that it would seem that i live for her. which, infact, is entirly correct. i do live for her. something they both lacked. now all these comparison's really aren't going to get me anywhere. i am not them, in any way shape or form. i love tori, and i'll keep her forever. no one can convince me other wise. :P!!! so there. now that we have this settled, why don't we move to the events of last night? well...it started with me talking to tori and then my brother wanting to check his email which he done not ten minutes earlier and was perfectly capable of doing elsewhere, he just never did. well, my parents got really pissed at me when i told him to just get off his lazy ass and walk upstairs and check it himself and they unplugged the computer in the middle of our conversation. i got pissed and yelled at them for being unresonable and unfair and pretanding that they were the supreme rulers of my life and they took my crutches and left me standing there and went into their room to talk. well they forgot, obviously, that the only thing between me and walking is a whole lot of pain. so i walked outside of their door and heard them talk about how they thought they should send me to the hospital. well, at that point i barged in and from 9:30 to 11:30 we combated each other verbally, and though they denied it all three of us knew i had kicked their asses (go debaters!) so they didn't take me to the hospital though i think they still beleive i am insane, and maybe i am. but whatever, it doesn't matter. they are not putting me in a fucking straight jacket. in fact, my winning argument was that throwing me into an insane asylim because i have the idea that my parents shouldn't have 100% control over me would be kinda like how they locked up divinci for beleiveing that the world was round. there were two similarities.
1: he got locked up
2: he was right
so there you have it folks, i kicked the asses of my parents. though they refused to admit it, i did. well, i have to go now, but i'll be online at my cousin's house. i love you tori, XO.
later people,
Paul
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