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:: 2005 10 December :: 6.20 am

so...
i'm supposed to take the act's today and i can hardly keep my eyes open. they are so puffy. i haven't had this in like ... well like all school year at least. oh well . I'll do great!!

hahahahahahahahhahahahahhahaha;sldfja;lkahahah

see, it's better if you just keep an insane attitude towards everything. happy, happy, happy! right?

driving downtown i bet i will die. Eeeckckck. eek
elk
b ye
wish me luck.

3 ::..So what?..:: | ::Yessa..::


:: 2005 8 December :: 10.38 pm

god fucking dammit stop this fucking sht i'm so fucking sick of it!

::Yessa..::


:: 2005 7 December :: 2.25 pm

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:: 2005 6 December :: 10.42 am

so...what was that all about?

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:: 2005 5 December :: 11.05 am

honestly i'm starting to care f ucking less and less and less.

f uck you and your lies.

oh my god and f uck this stupid school!!!

::Yessa..::


:: 2005 3 December :: 11.49 pm

I swear I'm like forbidden to have even totally harmless fun in this house/family. DUMB ugh i swear. so effing boring.

we went to kareoke at Rosie's tonight because they're having it every saturday now and it was a lot of fun. woo

and yeah i need to go do some ACT shit and find a new job also. fuck that bs.

ughhhhh i hate act's wooo

1 ::..So what? | ::Yessa..::


:: 2005 1 December :: 10.46 pm

math
act
calculator-roman
work
saturday-11
chemistry-quiz monday
cc
online stuff
piano


k.

::Yessa..::


:: 2005 1 December :: 8.15 pm
:: Music: dezi arnazzzzzzzzz

OH MY GAWWWWWDY GAWD GAWD!

you bug the effing crap out of me!! you are horrible! stop it! seriously. i mean it. you better stop.

and in other news: Excuse me, Mr. Pete. Have the Cubans a different beat? If they have, will you teach me to chick. chick chicky boom chick chicky boom

lolhahahahahaha
that's for justine.

eyah

1 ::..So what? | ::Yessa..::


:: 2005 1 December :: 12.08 pm

roman is back and safe and in one piece. i didn't feel good and didn't go to school today. i have to babysit today. i love him . i can't wait to be out of here

<3 it's good.

4 ::..So what?..:: | ::Yessa..::


:: 2005 29 November :: 8.26 pm

m,moooooooo


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absoulteuley pootly tooteley totally wotally mottally taotoatlay woototoawojw;lkajs giddy with excitement for tomrorow
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ha!
pathetico.
it's be a week and two days, that's all.
who cares!

tomroow!
aroamwo!
moo!

::Yessa..::


:: 2005 29 November :: 8.08 pm

HERE IS A TRANSLATION FOR BEANSY:

Thank you for making me almost want to cry. Cannot one just be left alone? : A Freshman boy asks if i mind if he sits with me at lunch, i say sure. He asks "Are you a senior?" I reply, "Yes" He goes on to ask, "Do you really not have anyone you can sit with at lunch?" I stare at him as calmly as possible and slowly say "No. I dont. Because I don't have any friends. Thank you kindly for pointing that out."
"You really have no friends you can sit with?" He asks as he continues to prod at my heart with a fire poker, .. not literally but you get it.
"I have a few but my boyfriend's sister sits with them and she hates me so no I dont sit with them." I say while staring at him in awe of how obliviously rude he is being to a stranger.
"Why doesn't he come sit with you?"
"Because. My boyfriend is in college. He graduated last year."
And with that , it has all magically come together for him.
"Ahh" he says as a lightbulb turned on above his head. "I thought he was here and just didn't sit with you."
"Right." I say, dying to get out of the room.


I spoke my mind. If you're pissed, deal with it. I am counting down the days and I can't wait until I am done with this forever.
I said something during a discussion in Psychology that I believe most teenagers disagree with. Basically, I told them that I think teenagers are stupid, annoying, and irresponsible unlike what they believe... that they are the leaders of tomorrow and highly important.

Why are people so obliviously cruel? Oh, like you weren't aware of what you were saying? Okay. That's odd. see above, Freshman boy.

I can't take preschoolers today. I t.a. for pre-schoolers and I didn't want to see them today. But turns out, they were okay. I kind of love them alot, really.

Well, one things for sure. Children are disgustingly sick and also... A boy next to me in the computer lab was picking at a scab on his arm. Gag me with a spoon x2.

Young is vair vair hot. Yum. Ew, I'm sick. Mr. Young is yummy and quite attractive. Oh my, I think a teacher is handsome. Shame on me

oh but it's so true. Come back to me, Roman. "Tomorrow, tomorrow... I'll love you up tomorrow. It's only a day awayyy." It's true that Mr. Young is v. v. good looking. But I want Roman. Tomorrow, I will erm... love him up.

He is so cute! His hair is a tad bit droopy, though. Yuck I'm gross. Sadly, Mr. Young is still appealing to me. His hair is kind of soggy looking though.

Love me please. I don't need no haters. I can't believe I called them. Loser extraordinaire. Canadian, eh? It'd be cool if people would love me. I dont want anyone to hate me. I called... um... well I'll tell you later who I called but I'm not saying it on here.

Regards, in the better category, Best Regards...ish
- Jessica Michele W. me.

7 ::..So what?..:: | ::Yessa..::


:: 2005 29 November :: 11.01 am

Thank you for making me almost want to cry. Cannot one just be left alone?

I spoke my mind. If you're pissed, deal with it. I am counting down the days and I can't wait until I am done with this forever.

Why are people so obliviously cruel? Oh, like you weren't aware of what you were saying? Okay. That's odd.

I can't take preschoolers today.

Well, one things for sure. Children are disgustingly sick and also...

Young is vair vair hot. Yum. Ew, I'm sick.

oh but it's so true. Come back to me, Roman. "Tomorrow, tomorrow... I'll love you up tomorrow. It's only a day awayyy."

He is so cute! His hair is a tad bit droopy, though. Yuck I'm gross.

Love me please. I don't need no haters. I can't believe I called them. Loser extraordinaire. Canadian, eh?

Regards, in the better category,
- Jessica Michele W.

2 ::..So what?..:: | ::Yessa..::


:: 2005 28 November :: 10.06 pm

kay just a few things. i was gonna go to bed but then people kept calling me and stupid sprint and blah blah and i am hungry all of a sudden so of course i eat.

i am le fatte'

come over on home.

::Yessa..::


:: 2005 28 November :: 8.04 pm

<------------------------------- HAWT

i'd like to stare at him for just a tiny little while.

k.....

yeah....

<---- hot. Ryan Reynolds.


.....mmmm still good.

(Roman's always better in my book but this is my one celeb crush. muahahhahaha)

3 ::..So what?..:: | ::Yessa..::


:: 2005 28 November :: 3.01 pm

miss you
come home
love you lots

Jess*

::Yessa..::


:: 2005 27 November :: 12.29 am


I made this survey a long time ago. it's dumb lol.

[here]

Created by jess and taken 2911 times on Bzoink

What time do you get up?6:45
How do you get to school?drive
If you knew you were dying tomorrow, who would you say your goodbyes to 1stroman
Easiest class?band
What month is your birthday?march
How old were you when you got your first kiss?14
How old were you when you started high school?14
Are you hooked on the internet?yes
Do you like going to school?no i hate it
Are you a morning person?no not at all
When's the last time you had a b/f or g/f?currently
Do you play any instruments?piano clarinet mallets
If so, what?yeah
What's your favorite season?summer
What's the name of your best friend?jess
Rather be too hot or too cold?too hot
Cats or dogs?cats
How many blankets do you sleep with?tons
What are your parents' names?stacey and michael
Do you have a crush?roman
How long have you had a crush on this person?foreva
Do you practice a religion?not really i guess. but i'm a christian
If you saw Brittney Spears somewhere, what would you do?say can i have your autograph and can i hold your baby lol
If you saw Pres. Bush somewhere, what would you do?i'd tell him to stop the damn war because it's ridiculous
Do you have a secret you've never told anyone?nope i guess
Do you have a secret you've only told one or two people?yes
Who do you trust to keep your most important secrets?roman and jess
Do you tell your parents everything?no
Do you think your parents are nice people at heart?yeah i guess
Do you have a relative that you really do not get along with?yeah Aunt THELLLLLMA

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1 ::..So what? | ::Yessa..::


:: 2005 25 November :: 10.06 pm

what the fuck. i am so fucking upset and mad right now. leave me alone for one, you. god. i'm not doing that

i'm not fucking going. how can you fuck up a family that bad. we are nothing fucking stupidj a;sdfkjasdfiojasdpfoij opifucking so fucking dumb.

that's not christmas or the fucking holidays. that's fucking BUSINESS . so damn fucking stupid. i'm not wasting my fucking life with that shit.

i can't wait to make my own and it will be a billion times better and we will never see you people ever again.

i feel like going and fucking offing myself.
fuck this stupid fucking shit.

1 ::..So what? | ::Yessa..::


:: 2005 25 November :: 6.18 pm

..The Basics..
Gender?:female
Sexual Orientation?:straight
Single?:no sir
Would you like to be?:no
Birthday?:march 8 88
Age you act?:17 ish lol
Age you wish you were?:18 or 21
Height?:5-1
Eye color?:blue
Happy with it?:yeah i wish i was taller though well just so my legs weren't fat and short
Hair color?:brown
Happy with it?:sure
Left/right/ambidextrous?:lefty
Your living arrangement?:parents
Family?:dumb mostly
Job?:rosie's and lazer skate
Piercings?:ears
Tattoos?:not yet anyway
Obsessions?:love. eating :0(
Can you speak another language?:no
Favorite quote?:
Any webpages?:woohu
..Deep Thoughts..
Do you live in the moment?:not really kinda maybe
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?:yeah
Do you have any secrets?:not that i can think of . or not that at least one person doesn't know
Do you hate yourself?:not really hate. just dislike sometimes
Do you like your handwriting?:it's okay
Do you have any bad habits?:eating and being a baby
What is the compliment you get most from people?:eyes, smile
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?:One Fucked Up Little Girl
What's your biggest fear?:roman or jess or friend or family dying
Can you sing?:anyone can sing. question is can you sing good.
Do you ever pretned to be someone else just to look cool?:Yeah i pretend to be eminem all the time. People think it's really him.
Are you a loner?:psh
If you were another person, would you want to be friends with you?:probably not for the most part.
Are you a daredevil?:not usually
Is there anything you fear/hate about yourself?:yeah just how i am. and my weight and fat content and my face sometimes
Are you passive or agressive?:passive mostly agressive sometimes! lol
What is your greatest strength and weakness?:compassion and weakness would be staying strong lol
If you could change one thing about yourself?:thinner and prettier
There are three wells, love, beauty & creativity, which one do you choose?:i already have love so i'd go with beauty
How do you vent?:to roman or cry or other people
Do you think you are emotionally strong?:no
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing?:probably
Do you think life has been good so far?:neh
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?:al;lk
What do you like most about your body?:i'm not hideous
and least?:weight and fat
Do you find yourself attractive?:bleh
Are you confident?:no
What fictional character are you most like?:donald duck lol no
Do people know how you feel?:i dont know
Are you perceived wrongly?:yes
..Do you?..
Smoke?:no
Do drugs?:no
Read the newspaper?:sometimes
Pray?:yeah
Go to church?:not often or regularly
Talk to strangers who IM you?:yeah just to findo ut who they are
Sleep with stuffed animals?:roman's bear, Bryan
Take walks in the rain?:no not really
Talk to people even though you hate them?:no
Drive?:yes
Like to drive fast?:yes
..Have you ever?..
Hurt yourself?:whatd you say
Been out of the country?:no
Eaten something that made others sick?:um no i duno
Been unfaithful?:no
Been in love?:yes
Done drugs?:no
Gone skinny dipping?:no
Had surgery?:no
Ran away from home?:yes
Played strip poker?:no
Got beaten up?:lol no
Been picked on?:yeah
Been on stage?:yaeh
Slept outdoors?:yeah
Pulled an all-nighter?:yuea
What's your record?:i dont know
Talked on the phone all night?:yeah
Slept together with someone of the opposite sex but didn't have sex?:yes
Slept all day?:not realy
Killed someone?:yeah like 12
Made out with a stranger?:no
Had sex with a stranger?:no
Had sex at all?:a;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;
Thought you were going crazy?:;aaaaaaaaaaaaaa yup
Kissed the same sex?:no
Anything sexual with the same sex?:no
Been betrayed?:pretty much
Had a dream that came true?:yeah
Broken the law?:yeah
Met someone famous?:no
Killed an animal by accident?:yeah POOR POSSUM!! :0( i cried forever!
Stolen anything?:yeah
Been on the radio/TV?:yeah
Been in a mosh-pit?:no
Had a nervous breakdown?:yeah
Considered a religious vocation?:no
Been criticized about your sexual performance?:no
Bungee jumped?:no
Had a reoccuring dream?:eyah
..Clothing..
Shoe brand?:steve madden lol o whatwever
Clothing brand?:forever 21 or whatever*cries
Scent?:britney spears lol or aura or mary kate and ashley LA
Normal attire?:whatever
Do you wear hats?:no
Do you wear make-up?:yeah
Favorite place to shop?:forever 21
Favorite article of clothing?:hoodies
Are you trendy?:TRENYLICIOUS babe
Would you rather wear a uniform to school?:no
..Beliefs..
Life on other planets?:prob not
Miracles?:yeah
Astrology?:no
Magic?:maybe
God?:yeah
Satan?:yeah
Santa?:no
Ghosts?:duno
Luck?:yeah
Love?:yeah
Love at first sight?:no
Yin & Yang?:yeah
Witches?:no
Easter bunny?:no
Is it possible to be faithful forever?:deffinetly
Is there a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?:only in michael jackson's backyard
Do you wish on stars?:yeah
..Love..
Do you remember your first love?:yes
Still love him/her?:yes
Do you consider love a mistake?:not at all
What do you find romantic?:the beach, him singing to me, him playing guitar for me, telling me wonderful things
Turn-on?:strong back and arms, make me laugh, showers, being responsible
Turn-off?:smoking, irresponsibleness, stupidity
Do you go more by looks or personality?:a mix of course
Do you think the opposite sex finds you attractive?:well one does at least
What is best about the opposite sex?:getting love
and worst?:they dont realize mistakes sometimes
What's the last present someone gave you?:i dont remember
Are you in love?:yes
Is you signifcant other hot?:lol yeah
..The last person who..
Haunted you?:duno
You wanted to kill?:no one really
You laughed at?:jess g
Turned you on?:roman
You went shopping with?:jess g and jess h
Broke your heart?:roman
Disappointed you?:myself
Made you cry?:when i couldn't get into the college class at first
Brightened your day?:roman
You thought about?:well, roman
You saw a movie with?:jess g
You talked to on the phone?:roman
You talked to on IM:adam and dylan
You saw?:my mom
You lost?:hmm... duno?
You thought was insane?:myself pretty much
You told off?:duno
You trusted?:um.?
You turned down?:i dont wanna say!
..When was the last time you?..
Smiled?:like 2 secs
Laughed?:a while ago
Cried?:yesterday morning a little
Bought something?:movie ticket today
Danced?:a whiel
Were sarcastic?:every day
Hugged someone?:last nigth
Talked to an ex?:right now
Watched your favorite movie?:duno
Had a nightmare?:a few weeks ago
Talked on the phone?:today
Listened to the radio?:today
Watched TV?:today
Went out?:today
Helped someone?:today
Were mean?:today
Sang?:today
Saw a movie in a theater?:today
Said "I love you"?:today lol
Missed somone:today
Fought with a family member?:yesterday kinda
Fought with a friend?:a while ago
Had a serious conversation?:today
Got drunk?:;;;;;;;;;;;
Had sex?:;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;
Ten Song You Love
[x]:sprung
[x]:my humps
[x]:because of you
[x]:anytime
[x]:fur elise
[x]:jesu joy of man's desiering
[x]:christmas time is here
[x]:nutcracker shit
[x]:
[x]:
Nine Things That Make You Smile
[x]:roman
[x]:jess
[x]:jess g
[x]:hearing my humps come on the radio
[x]:dancing
[x]:laughing
[x]:roman's kiss
[x]:roman's laugh and smile
[x]:being tickled
Eight Things You Wear Daily?
[x]:underwear
[x]:mascara
[x]:bra
[x]:shirt
[x]:pants
[x]:perfume
[x]:a smile bitch
[x]:socks
Seven Things That Annoy You?
[x]:mean people
[x]:dumb people
[x]:college
[x]:future
[x]:parents
[x]:living here
[x]:not seeing roman
Six Things You're Looking Forward To?
[x]:living with roman
[x]:having a family
[x]:having kids
[x]:moving out
[x]:college (kind of)
[x]:being done wth high school foerever
Five Things You're Afraid Of
[x]:well there are only 3 spaces but okay
[x]:someoen i love dying
[x]:snakes

A decent but LONG survey brought to you by Bzoink

::Yessa..::


:: 2005 25 November :: 5.32 pm
:: Music: heard em say

come back, lovey. :0(

PS: NEVER see the movie Rent!! It is... just ridiculous!! and i swear, i tried in every way to give it a chance!! I gave it numerous chances! but to no avail. it was just stupid and crazy!
"MOO WITH ME"

fuck that shit.

lol.

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:: 2005 25 November :: 6.10 am

brrrr bitches! it's fucking freezing. my parents are crazy. it's 68 degrees.

i have to go babysit. i hope this day FLIES BY!!!!!!!!!!!!!


ugh !

::Yessa..::


:: 2005 24 November :: 11.12 pm

be easy! don't make decisions when you're mad!
I miss that beautiful man of mine. He is having fun though and I'm happy for him. I think he needs a break from college stress.

Hey, I am officially a college student now. I am enrolled in Comparitive Governments at GRCC. Cool huh? Scoooore. I was supposed to be in Psychology 201 but then found out today that it was full. I was so mad and spent THREE HOURS finding a class that was available, that transfered into something for my ferris nursing degree and something that was relavent! or something.. yeah. cooliessssss

jess you a weird mothafucker.

I seriously am getting fat and i'm going to take pe next semester cuz i really UGH. And jess i'm trying those things again. Maybe they wont give me a heart attack this time. they'll just eat it away slowly. Whatever, I always wanted to be the first to die in a marriage anyway.

What am iI talking about? HA

I can't wait until things are just STRAIGHT.
I have to babysit at 6:30 AM tomorrow. It was supposed to be 4:45 am, but Jim will be home so i get to arrive a bit later.

i like stuffing and chocolate chip pumpkin bread.
*Sigh*.

goodnight,
jess.

1 ::..So what? | ::Yessa..::


:: 2005 23 November :: 10.07 pm

ugh people annoy me. i had fun with jess last night though

k i've had enough. come home. now.

::Yessa..::


:: 2005 22 November :: 2.44 pm

UGHGGHGHGHGHGH
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well since my page is already big, i decided i'd make yours big too.

sometimes i just want nothing more than to leave school WAIT a second. what did i just say? oh wait. i always want to leave school. i absolutely hate it. i'm thankful for a few things this year. Roman, friends, and having this be my last year of high school.

anyway. me and jess are going shopping and i am getting really excited. i have no money to spend but a few gift certificates and i dont really care because i just think it will be fun because me and jess dont spend enough time together anymore.

i must just have serious jealousy issues. i'm just not good enough. whatever.

wait one more thing, am i seirously like HIDEOUSLY UGLY or what? why does everyone do that to me??! i hate people! especially mean ones!

2 ::..So what?..:: | ::Yessa..::


:: 2005 21 November :: 11.01 pm

ugh seriously that's all


\and freakin hypnotism is weird shit. "DO YOU KNOW WHO I AM????? SHUT THE HELL UP. SHUT THE HELL UP!!!! I AM YOUR MOMMA!!"

hhahaa . it was fun but i'm sad. like x124125123512351235 million.

::Yessa..::


:: 2005 18 November :: 11.45 am

where did i go wrong? i lost a friend

I really want to do something. I want to go on a missions trip or something. Feel worthy and maybe useful. I've been thinking about going out of state but you know. Things hold me back of course even though we have the resources so it's completely stupid, really. I could do it I guess just as easily as I'm doing what I plan to be doing... if that makes sense. But... there would be too many complications. Where would it leave us? I don't know, and so I will probably never do it.

Is that holding me back? I don't know. Not really I guess. Because it's also my door to absolutely everything. I wouldn't even be if it weren't for it. So I guess I can't say it's holding me back . That wouldn't make any sense.

How many times are you going to redo it? Kind of ridiculous.
I never knew people who had babies could afford such expensive clothing for themselves. Is that how you do it? Gawd.

I miss Roman like, really really badly. I haven't seen him for too long. Like a week. Almost. Really you're my strength babe. I'm going to see him early tomorrow. And then of course the day has to be brought down by work at 5. That's so stupid. I've worked every single day this week. Tired. Is what I am. Just tired. And then I have to work tonight of course at 5. We probably won't be busy at all and when you're a waitress, that really sucks. Getting paid $2.65.... come on. That's so stupid. I think I'll just leave if it's dead because it just is so pointless. And oh, I work Sunday as well. At 4. So I have worked every day for a week. What a glorious week.

When will something new come? I need.. not change but solutions. I hate this situation. I hate it.

I'm glad I'm fast typer. HA.

No love,
jess.

1 ::..So what? | ::Yessa..::


:: 2005 18 November :: 11.22 am

jess dont block your comments please cuz then i can't say anythinggggg :0(

1 ::..So what? | ::Yessa..::


:: 2005 17 November :: 9.40 pm

we bit our lips, she looked out the window...
fuck this stupid so-called "family" what the fuck am i doing concerning myself with other peoples' happenings? i need to get my own life outside of SCHOOL??? and work. Rosie's babysititng and lazer skate and roman. that's my life.

then again, what is life when you're seventeen years old. It doesn't begin until you move out of your house. So when is life going to start for me. Hopefully sooner than we all think.

::Yessa..::


:: 2005 17 November :: 9.07 pm

what the hell. i hate food and it needs to stay away from me. dammit i just got a papercut. fer real.

::Yessa..::


:: 2005 17 November :: 8.56 pm

i really want to and i know it will decide absolutely everything.

i miss you

::Yessa..::


:: 2005 17 November :: 4.55 pm
:: Music: Ben Folds - Emaline

"sometimes I dont know what she's saying. but i know what she wants to believe"
Ugh what a long, stupid and pointless day... And now I have to work in an hour.

I wish we could go to that one place jess tonight. Don't you? Jess? Don't you?
Sometimes, when you have a headache especially, pre-schoolers just AREN'T the cure for anything. But other times they just make you feel so good. They are so cute and innocent.

i'm glad i will never have to go through all those things again. ha.


"oh i wish I was a pretty girl why can't i be a pretty girl like her?"



you drive me nuts baby but i absolutely love you . What would I do without you? i'm sorry.

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