:: 2005 4 August :: 7.32 am

ugh stupid fucking asshole i can't WAIT to move out of this stupid ass house. i can't fucking wait. you're such a dickface.

oh so you wanna go to this dinner so you can act like a grade-a big fake ass liar. go right ahead. i'm not fucking going. i'm not going to pretend we're this wonderful christian family. FUCK you. i'm not going to fucking pretend. i am waiting out this last year and then i'm GONE. i dont hate everyone in this family, no way. but there's one i strongly fucking dislike. you fucking asshole. i can't wait ttill i'm gone.

i think going for a nice drive int o a tree would be good and relaxing for me right now.

you're such an ass.

::Yessa..::

:: 2005 3 August :: 7.20 pm

i am so MAD

WHAT does he have that i dont?!?! Greasy hair?! a penis?- if he even has one! >:0( UGH!

UGH!!!

WEll other than that... today was band camp and a certain SOMEONE really really pissed me off like the whole day. He is honestly so UGH rude and just mean. He just should think about what he says. Gawd.

AND after break i was running around the auditorium trying to just blow off some steam and i went to run down the stairs and i put my hand on the banister and my hand ran into the wall and the bricks that are all choppy and not smooth and i broke two of my acryllic nails off. AHHHHHHHHh it hurt so bad! I was really close to crying. Ah it hurt. So during lunch i made an appt. to get them fixed and now they are all better but my nails hurt still but oh well at least they are pretty again.

ANd

i want to be done with band camp.

and i love roman and i love my friends

and i am a fatty. oh well.

1 ::..So what? | ::Yessa..::

:: 2005 2 August :: 10.30 am

so what do i have to do today. i'm gonna write it and just get it organized in my mind.... UGH

i need to keep going tanning because it's slowly making me feel better about myself when i'm tan. i need to go to the bank

i need to go to rosies and try to get that job

rrrrrrrrrrweeeeeeeeeeeeeerweraweaadgadfghdfghdhh

i wanna just go back to sleep.

::Yessa..::

:: 2005 1 August :: 9.44 pm

wow you guys look at my new journal thingy i did.

does anyone know how to make those smaller? just a tad? heh.

and also, jenna, dani, beans... a few other of you.. you're on there if you just wait and watch.

6 ::..So what?..:: | ::Yessa..::

:: 2005 1 August :: 10.39 am

WOW

i am

SO
horrible. right?

2 ::..So what?..:: | ::Yessa..::

:: 2005 31 July :: 8.57 am

uggggggggggh.

::Yessa..::

:: 2005 30 July :: 10.54 pm

oh , and just a little PS.

i HATE this house. i hate living here. so so so so so so fucking much . SO MUCH.

i'm seventeen and above that... LAY OFF and stop freaking out about things that don't even matter. gawdddddddddddddddddddddddd.

i'm so stressed and i dont even think i'll be able to sleep tonight becfause of how much i'll be worrying about tomorrow.

great.

1 ::..So what? | ::Yessa..::

:: 2005 30 July :: 9.59 pm

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GAWD FUCKING DUMB

Romans car is broken and HEY GUESS WHAT

my brakes are totally FUCKED UP they dont work at all they sound like grinding fucking metal

great and now romans leaving and i havent even said two words to him because my al;ksdjfl;asdkjfl;askdjgl;skdjgsl;adkgjasdkl
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fuck you and the horse4 you rode in on.

2 ::..So what?..:: | ::Yessa..::

:: 2005 30 July :: 3.22 pm

HOW COME EVERY FUCKING TIME THINGS SEEM TO BE GOING ALRIGHT AND WE SEEM TO BE ABLE TO HANDLE THE LITTLE PROBLEMS OURSELVES, SOMETHING REALLY BAD HAS TO HAPPEN EVEN WHEN WE JUST PRAYED LAST NIGHT THAT IT WOULDN'T

HOW COME?

HOW COME THIS SHIT NEVER STOPS?!?!

AND HOW COME I STILL FUCKING WORK AT ARBYS . WILL I EVER GET A DIFFERENT FUCKING JOB?

I HATE THIS. GAWDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.

1 ::..So what? | ::Yessa..::

:: 2005 30 July :: 8.31 am

ugh people are so stupid and mean when will anyone realize ANYTHING.

i have to go to arby's today i kind of am hoping i got fired and i can just go home.

i feel like shit shit shit and i just want to go back to bed.

well .

here comes the...............fun.

::Yessa..::

:: 2005 29 July :: 11.22 pm

There's an ambulance outside. I think I hate that noise more than anything in the world. Everytime I see or hear one I pray that no one is hurt.

I'm trying to avoid it, but I just have to write in here.

I've realized more and more how bad my self-esteem is getitng again. I put on these jeans today and they used to be loose on me. Now they are fitting and I hate it. I wanted to cry and cut off 10 lbs of fat from my legs. I always feel so fat but I don't work out or eat good. I don't have enough self-discipline and I always am working so I don't want to work out when I have the time. I want to spend that time with Roman or friends.

I cry about everything about myself. I 'm really hating my looks again like I used to. Because of my stupid face. This was supposed to be done with 2 years ago but no, of course not. It will probably haunt me the rest of my life. I cry if someone I've never met before doesn't say hi to me when I'm introduced to them. That one makes more sense to me... but when I cry because people don't say bye to me when I'm leaving their house I just want to drive off and run into a truck. It makes me feel so extremely horrible.

I'm sorry to anyone i've EVER made fun of or thought bad of ever. I'm so sorry. I dont want to hurt anyone's feelings. I always feel that way but now more and more I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings even if I don't know them and even if they don't hear me. It's just so wrong because what if they did hear what I said? What if they are feeling like me what if they are on the verge and ready to go for it and that last comment they hear from a complete stranger just pushes them over the edge?

I just want all this to go away. For a while it was. Roman makes me feel great about myself so it all went away. Maybe i've been around myself to much and everything's coming back. WEll hey jess G if this makes you feel good... I wanted to let you know, my boyfriend thinks you're skinnier than me. Great huh? You are, and I know that but for him to even say it . I just wanted to go make myself puke until I was satisfying enough for the world. UGH.

I feel so bad about everything. I feel bad that I let down my parents I feel bad I let down roman. My friends. Everyone. I feel bad that I don't think I have what it takes (or even CLOSE to what it takes) to be a neonatel nurse. I feel bad that I dont think I can do college. I feel bad that I didn't get the cashiering job at white creek lumber and i was oh-so-positive i would. I feel bad that no one cares. I feel bad that I probably will be stuck at arby's for another year.

That is if they haven't fired me yet for not calling or showing up.
fuck them.

I feel bad that everyone is or seems more successful and more pretty than me. more outgoing, comfortable, together.a asssssssssssssssssssssssssdfffffffffffffff i dont like me. i think the only time i really like me is when i'm with one of my best friends or definetely when i'm with roman. but i always wish i could be more like him. confident. yeah that's right roman i think i'm jealous of you. hm. i love you and i want to be more like you but you know that already.

s;dlfkajdl;fkjasd;fkljas;dlfkjasl;dfjkasl;djkf gross.

And you know, I'll eat somethign before bed. Probably ice cream. Most likely. God i'm so dumb

Praying makes me feel so much better. but i still feel gross. Roman makes me feel great too but when i'm alone i still feel ugly.

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:: 2005 28 July :: 10.58 pm

today was by far one of the best days i've had this summer.

roman came and picked me up this afternoon and we went all the way to silver... (or is it spring.. it's by pentwater like an hour and a half away in Mear, MI)lake. it was SO beautiful. so entirely gorgeous. i decided i want to get married there. the dunes are just so beautiful.

we climbed up those humongous dunes and then ran down the other side. then we layed out for a while and went swimming and then when we left we climbed this HUGE dune. ahh it was so beautiful when we got to the top. so gorgeous.

after the beach we went to the band picnic and it was nice to see everyone and then we stopped at big boy and saw jess and got something to eat. MM MM big boy!! Jess was a wonderful waitress!! Thanks Jess!! <3!!

i took tons and tons of pictures today at the beach. here are some on the way to the beach and at the beach.... look at them!!

1 ::..So what? | ::Yessa..::

:: 2005 28 July :: 1.27 pm

i'm going to the beeeeeaaaccchhhhh..

i'm so excited i'm just waiting for roman to get here and i can hardly wait so um that's why i'm updating about it because i'm just so excited!Q!!!@#!$@#!@#

hooray i love the beach!

::Yessa..::

:: 2005 27 July :: 10.41 pm

so im just waiting for my baby to get home from work so i can talk to him and other than that... i've decided i'm not going to work tomorrow because I didn't think we had to and me and roman haven't seen each other this week and we made all these plans to go to the beach. i just pray that tomorrow is as beautiful a day as today was. it was so gorgeous and perfect outside.

i babysat for james and jenna today and we had fun and i love them . they didn't even fight today so that was super nice. this nice lady at a scrapbooking store made me feel a thousand times better. why can't more people on earth be more compassionate like her. she really made me feel better. i was just freaking out. i was lost and i couldn't stop bawling my eyes out. this trucker guy pulled up in the lane next to me waiting at the light was just like staring at me because i was bawling and i just wanted to hop out of my car and climb up his semi truck door and punch him in the nose.

then i went to pit. bleh. um. yeah. and tomorrow is a picnic ish thingy.

BUT TOMORROW IS THE BEACH FOR ME BITCHES!!

i love jess and jess. what else?

i dont really know. i'm just tired. goodnight.

3 ::..So what?..:: | ::Yessa..::

:: 2005 24 July :: 9.13 am

i hate this place so so sos sos so so so sso so so much.

i can't decide if i want to just go back to sleep or attempt to do something today.

i have to stop spending money. UGH.

::Yessa..::

:: 2005 23 July :: 11.05 pm

today was just all-around too much. ugh.

::Yessa..::

:: 2005 21 July :: 9.50 pm

sometimes it's better to just be completely carefree. hahahaaaaaaaaa

go dance in the rain, i did.

i love roman and i love the rain when it pours.

love it.

::Yessa..::

:: 2005 20 July :: 4.21 pm
:: Music: coldplay

1 ::..So what? | ::Yessa..::

:: 2005 19 July :: 10.49 pm

complaints

wow i am so tired.

today I got up at 6:45 and got ready and went to the farm. Stayed there until 2:15 and then drove to arby's, got dressed. and then worked at arbys until 9:45.

i'm not looking for pity but i'm just complaining. I'm looking forward to the money but my feet hurt soooo bad.

and i got really really sunburnt. I hate that.

tomorrow i go to the farm again unforunately and yeah.

ugh. whatever. and i'm getting really fat. oh well.

::Yessa..::

:: 2005 15 July :: 11.30 pm

ugh. i am bored................
bleh.

::Yessa..::

:: 2005 12 July :: 10.17 pm

HEY BEANSY

if you have the new georgia books, can you let me know. ALSO i would love to hang out with you soon. So give me a ring-a-ding 696-2269 if you have forgotten.

I love Roman. Definetely. Today ........well. today was fucked up and then we went to youth group and went tubing it was a blast.

i want this next year to fly by.

3 ::..So what?..:: | ::Yessa..::

:: 2005 11 July :: 11.57 pm

so hello everyone this is what i did today:
I got up at 11. yeah i know, sad huh? But i was up crying all night and blah blah blah. Then I called roman and woke him up haha and then i went tanning and then to the library. I ended up spending like 45 minutes at the library and then heading home and calling roman and guess what! We decided to go to Mich. Adventure . Yay so he came and picked me up and we went there and it was really fun. I realized I haven't been there since 7th grade and it seemed a lot smaller this time!! I went on shivering timbers for the first time though and that thing rocks your shit up.!!! UGH! i felt like i was gonna break into pieces ugh i didn't like it. Well i think it would have been really fun if it wasn't wooden and so rocky but other than that it was good i guess. and then we pretty much rode all the rides so at 7 we left and went to russ's to eat and i got this wrap thing and it was so good and then my baby took me to the beach and it was the most fun all day.

i love the beach so fucking much. it's so beautiful. we climbed on the little dunes and took tons of pictures of us and the sunset and all the pretty stuff. It was so fun. We didn't get home until 11:20. We were supposed to be home at 11 but we walked so far down the beach that by the time we got back to the car, it was passed 10 and dark! but it was so beautiful out and so much fun. The tide started coming in and it scared the shit out of us beccause all of a sudden this huge wave came crashing in at us. haha it was funny.

i love my baby and i wish i could just fucking move in with him. i dont care. i'll say it right there plain and simple that's what i wish.

i hope this next year flies by because i am ready for eternal happiness every single effing day of my life.

goodnight. oh also today is roman and i's year and four months hooray hooray.

love,
jess

2 ::..So what?..:: | ::Yessa..::

:: 2005 9 July :: 11.11 pm
:: Mood: igjasklgjugh

bleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

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i dont care if you think it's too big. you're too big, bitch.

4 ::..So what?..:: | ::Yessa..::

:: 2005 5 July :: 9.52 pm

wow i am a loser. This is all i can do to occupy myself.
finish the sentance survey...

I'm always... thinking
I love saying.. roman's my baby and only mine!
I think flowers are...beautiful
My fav Beatles song is...here come sthe sun
I was born...March 8th 88
I hate to say it but I’m not too keen on...roman being so far away from me at college
I work well on things...when I'm alone.
I’m going to college but...I probably will have a lot of trouble.
I have this thing about wearing... lots of matching accessories
I love to read books about.. dirty stuff. but only if its funny
I say... what i think if i'm mad
I’m addicted to...love man.
I drink too much...pop when i'm at work.
Class is...stupid
My earliest memory is...the three legged race at that one place with stef..
The last place I went on vacation was...florida
I think living far away from...roman sucks a lot.
Right now, I should be calling... no one really
The last candle I lit was...who knows.
The glass is... see through..
I don’t believe in...war solving anything
Kids can be...the best thing in the world
I think Napster Is.. a great invention
The best M&Ms are... .. whatever
If I could go anywhere it would be...to Japan
I despise it when...I feel ugly or when people are mean
I love to shop at.. meijers and rite aid. i buy so much shit i dont need though
Malls are a really fun place to...shop..... or something?
I thought it was hilarious when...roman sung or danced funny in front of me for the first time.
I love my friends even though they...smell bad. lol
A kick ass place to have a party would be...duno
I think it’s all about...being happy
I love the TV show...reno 911
I never get enough time to spend with...my friends i guess
One of the nicest things someone has ever done for me is...let me cry to them , or come pick me up when i needed him or let me into their house at 7 in the morning
Whenever I eat lunch, I have to...feel bad about being a fatty
If you want to see me go crazy, you should talk to me about... how i should not move out when i' m 18
When no one’s around, I really like to...dance dance dance..
My favorite computer font is...whatever
My all time favorite movie is...moulan rouge probably i duno.
If I had a million dollars...be really excited.
People refer to me as...Jess......
I want to kill...no one.



Do I:
Smoke? no
Do drugs? No
Have a dream that keeps coming back? Yeah
Play an instrument? yeah piano, mallets, clarinet
Believe there is life on another planet? dont think so.
Remember your first love? yeah
Still love him or her? definetely, its roman hello.
Read the newspaper? once in a while
Have any gay or lesbian friends? no
Believe in miracles? Somewhat
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever? Yes.
Consider yourself tolerant of others? usually
Consider love a mistake? No, not at all.
Like the taste of alcohol? no only wine
Have a favorite candy? eh whatever
Believe in magic? not really
Believe in God? yeah
Have any pets? elvis kelsa toby and mooch
Do well in school? bleh.
Go to or plan to go to college? yeah
Wear hats? only my arby's hat!
Have any piercings? My ears and cartilage
Have any tattoos? No.
Hate yourself? not really no
Have you been trashed or extremely intoxicated? no
Have a secret crush? no
Do they know yet? um no?
Collect anything? money.
Have a best friend? yeah
Wish on stars? Sometimes.
Like your handwriting? Not usually.
Care about looks? yeah
Love life:wonderful
First crush? geez.. um... i gues tyler bauer
First kiss? kevin
Single or attatched? Attached.
Ever been in love? Yes.
Do you believe in love at first sight? no
Do you believe in 'the one'? Yes.
Describe your ideal significant other: nice to everyone, funny as heck, can make you laugh even when you're crying, can cheer you up in an instant, listens, outgoing, sweet, beautiful smile, beautiful eyes, strong, great looking, nice body, long dark eyelashes, kind hearted, likes kids, treats me great, curly hair, caring, smart, never yells... or in one word.. Roman!
Have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing? no.
Are you a tease? I duno
Wuss: Sometimes.
Druggy: No.
Daydreamer: Yes.
Freak: yeah
Dork: Yeah
Bitch: often.
Brat: yeah
Sarcastic: very
Goody-goody: meh
Angel: no
Devil: no
Shy: in certain situations
Talkative: Sometimes.
Adventurous: kinda sometimes
Joker: kinda
Flirty: not really.


Well... sorry. i'm bored.

::Yessa..::

:: 2005 5 July :: 6.47 pm

Have you ever? Survey.....


Have you ever seen true beauty? Yeah.
Have you ever felt that someone was more beautiful because of their flaws? sure
Have you ever cried because you felt good? yeah.
Have you ever had somebody care? yeah
Have you ever wanted something but then when you got it found out it wasn't what you needed? yeah
Have you ever tried to make things right, only to realize they work out if you let them be? Yes..
Have you ever seen a grown man cry? not that i can remember actually
Have you ever seen an amazing lightning and thunder storm like they have in the midwest? No.
Have you ever needed to be held? Yes..
Have you ever needed to cuddle? Yes.
Have you ever made something you thought was great but no one else liked? no.
Have you ever been really sick? no
Have you ever made a snowman in your front yard? no, backyard./..
Have you ever known what it was like to love and be loved in return? Yes.
Have you ever had a crush? Yes.
Have you ever had a kiss? Yes.
Have you ever known how good something was? Yes.
Have you ever not know how good it was until it's gone? yeah
Have you ever tried to write poetry but ended up throwing it away? heh yeah
Have you ever found it later and laughed at yourself? Yes.
Have you ever felt like you knew something was right?um yes
Have you ever seen something terribly sad happen right before your eyes? yeah
Have you ever experienced true happiness? Yes.
Have you ever given a love letter? Yep.
Have you ever tried to make someone feel better, just because you saw they were down? Yeah, all the time.
Have you ever wanted a kiss? Yes.
Have you ever needed a hug? Yes.
Have you ever wanted to just do things on impulse? Yeah all the time
Have you ever wanted to just run? Yeah.
Have you ever needed to get away? Yeah.
Have you ever tried? yeah
Have you ever wanted to be a kid again? sometimes but not really
Have you ever blew big bubbles with pink gum? Yeah.
Have you ever lost a love? no
Have you ever experienced puppy love? sure.
Have you ever experienced love at first sight? No.
Have you ever tried to tell someone something but the words wouldn't come out? duh
Have you ever wanted to die? yeah.
Have you ever written a letter to someone you lost touch with? Yes.
Have you ever walked down a country road with your friends? Yes.
Have you ever gotten ice cream on a hot day? Yes.
Have you ever had a really good time with your best friends? Yep.
Have you ever told them how much they mean to you? Yes.
Have you ever shown then that you love them? Yes.
have you ever told your parents you love them? Yes.
Have you ever told someone else you love them? Yes.
Have you ever played with your old toys? Yes.



Long-ish survey.
001) What time did you start this?: 6:55pm.
002) Name?: jess
003) Date of birth?: March 8th, 1988.
004) Sex?: Female.
005) Height?: 5' ish
006) Eye color?: blue.
007) Weight?: 113 ish pounds.
008) Location? Michigan.
009) Do you currently love anyone? Yes.
010) Do you have crush on someone? no
011) Do you have a bf/gf?: Yes.
012) what are you wearing right now? looney tunes boxers and v-ball shirt...
013) Would you have sex before marriage?: Yeah.
014) Have you ever had a crush on any of your teachers?: Just a little crush
015) Do you smoke? no.
016) Do you drink?no
017) are you a player? No.
018) What are your favorite colors?: pink, blue..whatever.
019) what is your favorite animal? swans and kitties
020) Do you have any birthmarks? No
021) Have you ever gotten your ass kicked? hmm no.
022) have you ever beat someone up? yeah all the effin time... not
023) Have you ever been slapped? Yeah
024) Do you get online a lot? Yes.
025) are you shy or outgoing? Depends on my mood.
026) Do you shower? no never
027) Do you hate school? yeah pretty much.
028) Do you have a social life? not especially but oh well.
029) how easily do you trust people? eh not so much anymore
030) Have you ever lied to your best friends? yeah but not in a long long long time
031) Do you have a secret people don't know? i dont think so.
032) would you ever Sky Dive? probalby not
033) Do you like to dance? sometimes
034) Have you ever been out of state?: Yes.
035) do you like to travel? Depends.
036) Do you want to get out of your hometown? yeah.
037) are you a brat? pretty much yeah
038) Have you ever been dumped? Yes.
039) what’s your favorite soda? Diet Coke.
040) do you like Snapple? never had it actually
041) Do you drink a lot of water? yeah
042) what toothpaste do you use? um i duno . minty shit.
043) Do you have a cell phone or pager? No.
044) Do you have a curfew? no just whatever my parents say
045) Who do you look up to? hmm i think tammy at work and roman.. i think thats it.
046) are you a role model? Probably not.
047) what kind of jewelry do you wear? ring from roman, earings, and usually a necklace
048) what do you have pierced? Ears and cartilage.
049) do you like taking pictures? yeah so you have memories of things
050) do you like getting your picture taken? not really
051) Do you have a tan? ugjh no i wish
052) Do you get annoyed easily?: heck yeah
053) Have you ever started a rumor? No
054) Do you have any siblings? Yeah.
055) Do you prefer boxers or briefs? whatever.
056) Do you get along with your parents? pretty much no.
057) how do you vent your anger? cry, scream/sing really loud in my car, drive really fast, hit something, talk to roman, type in woohu or play piano
058) have you ever run away? For short periods of time, yes.
059) Have you ever been fired from a job?: No.
060) Do you daydream a lot? Yeah.
061) Do you have a lot of ex’s? no.
062) what do you want a tattoo of? dont really want one
063) what do you have a tattoo of? Nothing.
064) what are your favorite flowers? those pretty ones roman got me those exotic looking ones.. i duno what their called
065) are you rude? I can be.
066) what was the last compliment you received? that roman liked his picture thing i made
067) is your bellybutton an innie or outie? Innie.
068) are you flexible? kinda.
069) what is your heritage? whatever.
070) what does your hair look like right now? messy ponytail
071) could you ever be a vegetarian? Yeah.
072) if you had to completely dye your hair it'd be what color? normal color.
073) would you ever date someone younger than you? no thanks
074) would you ever date someone older than you? Yes.
075) when was the last time you were drunk? never
076) when was the last time you went on a date? sunday night yay!
077) Have you ever had an eating disorder? no
078) How many rings until you answer the phone? Depends on where I'm at.
079) Do you look more like your mother or father? my mom i guess
080) Do you cry a lot? yeah
081) do you ever cry to get your way? no
082) if you had to amputate one limb, what would it be? a leg i guess.
083) what phrase do you use most on the phone? duno
084) are you the romantic type? Yeah.
085) Have you ever been chased by cops? um.. i duno
086) What do you like most about your body? eh i duno
087) what do you like least about your body? my lower half i 'd say
088) when was the last time you threw up? like 2 weeks ago
089) in the opposite sex, do you prefer blondes or brunettes?Brunettes.
090) what do the shoes you last wore look like? flip flops black and polka dots
091) do you ever wear shirts to show your belly? psh no.
092) what about cleavage? pshhhh no
093) is your best friend a virgin? um well ..
094) what color are your underwear right now? Blue.
095) what size shoe do you wear? 7 or 7.5
096) would you pick a wedgie in public? if ii announce it first lol no.
097) how are you feeling right now? ,my eyes hurt and i feel fat.
098) when was the last time you were at a party? um like never or something
099) have you ever given a lap dance? no.
100) what do you sleep in? depends
101) has there ever been a rumor spread about you? Yes.
102) what is one of your bad qualities? wow lets see. i'm a freak and i overreact and freak out and cry and bitch and yell and get mad. and yeah
103) what is one of your good qualities? im compassionate
104) would you marry for money? no.
106) what do you drive? 2000 red grand am yay my baby.
107) for two million dollars, would you pose for Playboy? doubt it
108) what time is it now? 7:10

::Yessa..::

:: 2005 4 July :: 10.36 pm

okay so i was supposed to have a totally different day but everything got messed up so this is what i ended up doing. everyone look
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maybe you dont think it looks good but i do and i did a good job if i do say so myself. which i do. it is a present for roman and i am so excited to give it to him. yay and hooray. it took me like 4 hours. take that bitches.


what
a
boring
day.

but i do love the picture collage very much and yay. can't wait to show roman!

i wanna just leaveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

and oh. people are so stupid i swear ughghghgh i hate people. ugh what a stupid day. stupid bitches.

2 ::..So what?..:: | ::Yessa..::

:: 2005 4 July :: 12.40 am

roman baby i'm so fricken in love with you.

we went to the whitecaps game tonight and it was so much fun. this guy came up to us and asked us if we wanted to be 'upgraded' and he gave us 'the best seats in the house' and they were two leather recliners just put right there by the field lol it was so funny. and so we got to sit in leather recliners the whole game it was very comfy. and they put the camera on us and we were on that screen and the anouncer guy was talking about us lol it was embarrassing i dont think i've ever been on that screen. not that it's a huge deal but anyway, it was fun! and roman did one of the games and won beacuse of course he is awesome and he gave his prize to this cute cute cute cute cute little girl. she was so adorable and kept dancing ahh she was so cute.

it was so much fun and then after the game were fireworks and they were so pretty. i just had such a good night. i love you buddy!!!

and jess and jess i miss seeing you both al lthe time and il ove you a ton.

goodnight everyone.

oh and i talked to my friend bryan from camp and he's so nice i miss him!! he's a good guy. i miss amanda and bryan and andy from camp. hmmmmmmmmmmmm

okay goodnight everyone.

1 ::..So what? | ::Yessa..::

:: 2005 2 July :: 4.20 pm
:: Music: britney spears-someday

1 ::..So what? | ::Yessa..::

:: 2005 28 June :: 3.13 pm
:: Music: rascal flatts- fast cars and freedom.

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:: 2005 26 June :: 10.46 pm

roman is my absolute best friend in the whole entire freakin world.

love you buddy <3

::Yessa..::