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2005 26 January :: 10.13 pm
:: Mood: Shitty
How horrible
Love Ducky.
He's going through a tough time.
Our some amount of months anniversary is coming up. Lovely ^^;
It's this Saturday.
But he's going through such a horrible time.
This is a scary show.
And a commercial for the Grudge DVD scared me.
Sadness.
<3
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2005 25 January :: 10.09 pm
:: Mood: Shitty
Something I feel helpless to.
Good evening.
It's 10:09 pm, and, miracles of miracles, I'm tired. I guess I should find a pencil to shove in my back pack.. I heard of testing tomorrow. And I should look up the parts of speech that accompany the words of my vocabulary, or do my math homework.. but.. I can't.
I'm too tired.
And the fact that the teen populace has fallen into the habit of drugs and smoking has depressed me.
A couple of my guy friends were conferring about weed, the one even had some on him! I thought school was safe.
Another friend of mine was making a deal for a pack of ciggarettes. I thought school taught us better.
I was told how weed was good a while ago.. how it relaxed and relieved stress.. but there's so much more that it does, too, that isn't as good as these things. Like lung cancer and the like. Why can't people understand it's so bad?
Sure it's the earth, and the earth made it, so it must be okay, but what about all the radioactive ores the Earth made? What about all the horrible things that the earth made, too?
Should we suddenly just take up everything that hurts us, roll it in a peice of fast-burning paper and light up?
I hope I never get asked to do drugs are take a breath of smoke.. for I will have to hurt those who ask..
<3
Even if you hate me.
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2005 19 January :: 12.20 am
:: Mood: Sooo Good
:: Music: ATHF
That's right!
ZOMIGAWSH!
I LOVE EVERYBODY!
YES!! <<
WATER.
<3<3
"Meatwad.. this is your new.. brain."
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2005 17 January :: 1.08 am
:: Mood: Philosophically depressed
:: Music: None
Happy Martin Luther King Jr. Day
Hey.. It's been a while, hasn't it?
I guess I'll start off by apologizing.
I'm sorry Ducky for killing any plans.
I'm sorry Keith for hanging up on you repeatedly.
I'm sorry Naomi for not going to the movies with you.. or having you stay longer.. or sleep at your house.
I'm sorry Jade that I didn't go to your house, even though you really wanted to see me.
I'm sorry Kristen Joyce for not going to the movies, even though you were genderly outnumbered.
I'm sorry for everything I haven't said sorry for.
And now for what seemed to hurt this weekend.
Not being told that everyone was together hurt my feelings.
My mom seemed to keep putting me down, which hurt my feelings.
I hate myself, and that hurts my feelings.
I wish I wasn't so stupid, it hurts my feelings.
I wish I wasn't human, maybe I wouldn't hurt my feelings.
Machinery is so perfect, and it hurts my feelings.
I've come to a verdict.
Humans will become machines easily.
Mortality will succumb to the metallic perfection of a quick modem.
The homosapien race as we know it has been doomed from creation, prolonged only by the things that cause our deaths daily.
Oh, how hypocritical and bittersweet life can be.
<3
"I know, but I can't get out of the shower."
P.S. I've finished 3 pages in the scrapbook, Naomi ^^ Aren't you proud!?
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2005 10 January :: 10.07 pm
:: Mood: Tiredly clean
:: Music: Fan?
Today.. was good.
Yeap, you heard it. Today was pretty good.
1st period:
Normal Richar, normal math, normal is fancy after a long break. We got 2 or 3 new kids, I think one didn't show up.
2nd period:
Bleh, I now have Team Sports. This is bad, because only for the first month are we in the gym, and we'll only be inside later if it: rained, is raining, or is just about to rain.
Please, rain a lot T.T
3rd period:
Same old science. That is good. I kinda hope Shina isn't in that class anymore. It's not like she annoyed me or anything, and she's really nice, but I just kinda like sitting alone.
4th period:
Ew, Health. Not only is our teacher a man (who seems to act and dress like a woman), but it's HEALTH! Atleast Keith and Naomi are braving it with me in the same room, same hour.
5th period:
I love Mr. White ^^ He's such a cool guy. Band is the same, of course, and I like it that way. Naomi and I fooled around almost more than usual xD
Lunch:
Still lunch B. Still good ^^ Today I actually brought food, thus, Naomi and I ate something for once. We're so good.
6th period:
I love Ms. Spurgeon *-* Pre AP English is like.. my friggin' calling or something. I love English e.e;;; I'm such a geek ^^ <3
7th period:
Started Drama today. Mrs. Rubin is such a silly. A deer ran into her car once o.o;
Anyways, that's really my day without the frills. I'm glad my period never acts up too bad.
I think I've been on it since Saturday, but it didn't show 'cause I went swimming.
'Cause swimming stops that sort of thing.
I love everyone.
I feel like painting, but it's bed time.
My room is so clean >>;
Well, kinda. Cleaner than it used to be.
I think I'll paint my nails before I go.
Mm.. black *-*
Love you, you giggle billies <3
"Well.. you're.. a stupid face!"
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