how you see someone you went to school with and they are pregnant.. and having twins.
seems like just yesterday we we're playing on the swings at recess.
my how time flys.
in other news, 5 days. I'm nervous about the move, but i've got a good feeling about it at the same time, i got my bill paid tonight. fuck you chase mastercard i don't owe you shit anymore!!!!!!
okay, so the deal i made with my credit card might not happen.
i was expecting a paycheck today, boss is in chicago and won't be home till friday, fucker forgot to write me a check and now i'm missing a little more than half the money to pay my fucking bill tomorrow.
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2008 16 April :: 6.46pm
:: Mood: tired, hungry, etc.
:: Music: my professor
job hunting
::
i hate looking for jobs. i mean, i get excited about all of the opportunities. but i also get really depressed about how i feel like i'm not good at anything. and all the things i am good at, aren't interested in having me.
whether it's true or not, even partially, doesn't really matter. it still feels crappy.
then again, maybe i just need to eat.
and i feel guilty for not listening to the lecture today. but it's just review. so there.
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2008 14 April :: 11.59pm
:: Mood: better
:: Music: radiohead - no surprises
::
i feel much better after today. i'm still kind of pissed about some stuff. and the wings lost. but at least, for whatever reason, i managed to evade the same sort of funkiness that's been haunting my shadows for the past week or two.
and there's nothing but good on the horizon. so, shut the fuck up, brain!
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2008 14 April :: 8.59pm
:: Music: Modest Mouse- Missed the Boat
i gave it another shot. While we're on the subject
Could we change the subject now?
I was knocking on your ears
Don't worry, you were always out Looking towards the future
We were begging for the past
Well, we know we had the good things
But those never seemed to last
Oh, please just last
Everyone's unhappy
Everyone's ashamed Well we all just got caught looking
At somebody else's page
Well, nothing ever went
Quite exactly as we planned
Our ideas held no water
But we used them like a dam
Oh, and we carried it all so well
As if we got a new position
Oh, and I laugh all the way to hell
Saying, "Yes, this is a fine promotion"
Oh, and I laugh all the way to hell
Of course everyone goes crazy
Over such and such and such
We made ourselves a pillar
But we just used it as a crutch We were certainly uncertain
At least I'm pretty sure I am
Well, we didn't need the water
But we just built that good goddamn
Oh, and I know this of myself
I'd assume as much for other people
Oh, and I know this of myself
We've listened more to life's end gong
Than the sound of life's sweet bells
Was it ever worth it?
Was there all that much to gain?
Well, we knew we'd missed the boat
And we'd already missed the plane
We didn't read the invite
We just danced at our own wake
All our favorites were playing
So we could shake, shake, shake, shake, shake
Tiny curtains open and we heard the tiny clap of little hands
A tiny man would tell a little joke and get a tiny laugh from all the folks
Sitting, drifting around in bubbles and thinking it was us that carried them
When we finally got it figured out that we had truly missed the boat
Oh, and we carried it all so well
As if we got a new position
Oh, and we owned all the tools ourselves
But not the skills to make a shelf with
Oh, what useless tools ourselves
Flight Information - Thursday, May 1, 2008
US Airways
Flight 903
1h 50m, 513 mi
Detroit - Wayne County (DTW)
Detroit, MI
Departs: 10:31 AM
To Charlotte - Douglas Intl (CLT)
Charlotte, NC
Arrives: 12:21 PM
Aircraft
Airbus A319 (Jet)
Economy/Coach Class
US Airways
Flight 1179
2h 47m, 914 mi
Charlotte - Douglas Intl (CLT)
Charlotte, NC
Departs: 1:00 PM
To Houston - Intercontinental (IAH)
Houston, TX
Arrives: 2:47 PM
Aircraft
Boeing 737-400 (Jet)
Economy/Coach Class
yeah... theres kinda no return flight.
good bye mitten.
I forgot to post this a few days ago...
Start: April 4, 2008
End: January 1, 2011
The Mission: Complete 101 preset tasks in a period of 1001 days.
The Criteria: Tasks must be specific (ie. no ambiguity in the wording) with a result that is either measurable or clearly defined. Tasks must also be realistic and stretching (ie. represent some amount of work on my part).
Why 1001 Days? Many people have created lists in the past - frequently simple goals such as New Year's resolutions. The key to beating procrastination is to set a deadline that is realistic. 1001 Days (about 2.75 years) is a better period of time than a year, because it allows you several seasons to complete the tasks, which is better for organizing and timing some tasks such as overseas trips or outdoor activities.
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2008 7 April :: 5.17am
:: Music: 311 - don't tread on me
i like how at some point it transitions in conceptualization from a very late night, to a very early morning. and yet, the task of nabbing down precisely where that transition occurs is nigh-on impossible.
my guess is that it's right around the time when the birds start chirping.
and an early morning tomorrow. i'll be ready to crash once i get done at the scientists meeting tomorrow night. but that'll be fun, at least. the events leading up to it, not so much.
although, filming went reasonably well today. and i got some free food out of the deal. and i met a guy who wants to record me on drums. and i got to play drums at that party last night, which also had some free food and was a lot of fun. and i got to play drums and hear dad's new band on friday, and have some free food after that as well. so, the themes for this weekend were : party, free food, and drums.
not too bad. except that i got nothing accomplished and slept way too late this morning. but it all worked out, i guess.
i just wonder where the fuck i went so wrong. when it all looked so promising. and then there are those other times when i wonder how in the hell it worked out so perfectly, when i thought it would be shit. and either way, i was fucking wrong, and didn't get a chance to appreciate it, because i was so busy being wrong.
and then i failed college. or at least pissed a bunch of people off for being stupid. and pissed myself off even more.
i've been ridiculously angry all day today, and i don't understand it. i really need to blow off some steam.
bowling till 9:30
clean a bus
ride to chicago with danno and ryan
tomorrow: meet erin at the airport at 9:17am
hang out with erin, dan, ryan, and jeff tomorrow, get some chicago pizza, help danno pack
erin and myself hop a train to the mitten and we hang out here for a week, then i have to drive her back to o'hare and she heads home to texas :(
