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2007 26 October :: 2.09am
i'm in bed.
i don't know what to write about, my mind is kinda blank.
i don't really care about much anymore, to me life is boring and i need something to keep me going, i don't know what that something is yet, but i think i'll find it soon.
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2007 25 October :: 2.25am
it's cold outside. and now my nipples are tender. i guess that's what i get.
maybe tomorrow i'll just go topless.
this deodorant smells awful.
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2007 25 October :: 1.03am
retrospective
"maybe i just don't want a relationship at all. i like being single and flirting with everyone. i don't know... when ever i start to get close to some one it is ok at first and i am all for it and then they start doing things that just freak me out. and then i run away. hmmm.... i need to find someone perfect for me, my personality needs to match their's, i can't be in a relationship where i feel like there is so much that i just can't live up to. why is it so hard for me to meet people i am actually attracted to. this sucks. i feel like i need to have someone, but i just don't want anyone i know. i need to meet someone new. which is hard. i'll try."
at least she's always known what she needs.
i have no idea what i need. or what i want. or what i have.
i'm a menace to society and myself.
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2007 23 October :: 2.09am
is it bad that i want to move to europe just so i can own one of these?
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2007 23 October :: 2.09am
is it bad that i want to move to europe just so i can own one of these?
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2007 23 October :: 1.33am
time for some things to change.
i'm tired of drinking and partying all the time.
i'm tired of going nowhere in life.
i'm tired of the same shit every day.
it just gets old.
time for something new.
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2007 22 October :: 11.36pm
so my step grandmother just died, my great grandmother is in the hospital with fluid around her heart.
its supposed to rain all week.
great week huh?
was at the hospital to see my great grandmother today, she wasn't very coherant, i couldn't stand to look at her, it made me sad.
on the way home, we got a call from my dad saying that my grandpa's wife just passed away.
we just built a ramp for her wheelchair yesterday... irony huh?
so i sit here now, drinking the rest of my vodka, alone.
i think my step grandma died from the rain.... its depressing.
"its the rain, its gatta be"
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2007 22 October :: 1.56pm
signing up for classes tomorrow
definatally going to take a welding class.
a german class and maybe bowling.
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2007 22 October :: 12.34pm
:: Mood: not good
it's funny how quickly things change sometimes.
it's not funny how slowly i adapt to them. because just about the time i get settled in (if at all), it changes again anyway, and i'm just that much less interested in attempting to change for the next time.
funnier yet is how even when i don't feel like trying, i wind up changing anyway. it just seems like it should be more advertent and thought out.
this all adds up to me being listless and worthless, and me feeling all the emotions appropriate to those qualifications.
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2007 21 October :: 5.39pm
:: Mood: whelmed
:: Music: Extreme - Cupid's Dead
:: Romance Novel ::
Night is the time for deep conversations.
Staving off sleep for the value of a moment.
The haze tries to convince you to forget by morning.
Subduing it, you rise to face the afternoon, believing yourself a poet.
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2007 21 October :: 2.56am
darkside of the rainbow never ever gets old.
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2007 18 October :: 12.55am
today made me a little bit happier than i used to be. not sure why.
hmmm.
big list of todo's tomorrow,
sign up for classes
clean room
tighten wheel bearing on truck
some other random crap
bowling
drinking
ect.
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2007 17 October :: 4.29am
mmmmm cowboy bebop....
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2007 16 October :: 11.27pm
i don't want to think anymore.
it drives me crazy
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2007 16 October :: 4.11pm
okay, so i decided to change my journal layout a little bit.
black backgrounds use alot less energy than a white one i guess.
dunno, maybe i was just bored.
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2007 15 October :: 11.23pm
the jessa and andy show huh?
what about "the beaver program?"
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2007 12 October :: 10.42am
i have a CLASS REUNION tomorrow.
holy crap.
i am way more stupidly excited than I probably should be.
in other news, I went to the doctor again to figure out why I want to sleep all the time... found out that my iron is extremely low, WITH iron supplements. so we are upping the dose and hopefully one of these days I can make it into work before 8.
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2007 10 October :: 1.41am
there are just some things....
i have to much time at night to think lately.
i need less time to think and more busy time.
idle hands are the devil's playthings.
i lost my CD's, i can't find them, i'm extremely sad.
customers piss me off at work, they come in always ask for our $5 pizzas, i tell them we don't have any, they say that little Caesars does. They are always looking for a deal or a way to pay less.
i went to this delivery on cypress, well it was actually on 22 mile with a cypress address, it was rainy, i couldn't see shit, i finally found the place and the guy wanted to only pay $20 for his order instead of the $22 it was supposed to be, i told him i couldn't do it he replied with "fine, i hope you crash on your way back" what a stand up fucking gentlemen he is.
today, i guess i pulled out in front of this guy in a jeep or something, and he pulls up next to me in the left hand lane and says "watch where your're driving asshole" so i yelled back at him "fuck off" he was pissed be cause i pulled out in front of him, he was probably a good 100 feet away and should have already been on his brakes for the red light.
fuckers.
anyways, SoS tomorrow, wheel bearings. Shit like that. damnit.
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2007 9 October :: 10.52pm
:: Music: flogging molly whats left of the flag
i just like this song for some reason
"What's Left Of The Flag"
His eyes they closed
and his last breath spoke
he had seen all to be seen
a life once full
now an empty vase
wilt the blossums
on his early grave
walk away me boys
walk away me boys
and by morning we'll be free
wipe that golden tear
from your mother dear
and raise what's left
of the flag for me
then the rosary beads
count them 1 2 3
fell apart as they hit the floor
in a garb of black
we must pay respect
to the color we were born to mourn
walk away me boys
walk away me boys
and by morning we'll be free
wipe that golden tear
from your mother dear
and raise what's left
of the flag for me
In its place grew
an angry festered wound
full of hatered and remourse
where I pick and scratch
till the blood it matched
silent rage that now fills my lungs
for there are many ways
to kill a man they say
with bayonet, axe or sword
but son a bullet fired
from a shapeless guise
just put the shell of a Thompson gun
walk away me boy
walk away me boys
and by morning we'll be free
wipe that golden tear
from your mother dear
and raise what's left
of the flag for me
from the east out to the western shore
where many men and many more will fall
but no angel flys with me tonight
though freedom reigns on all
and curse the name for which
we slaved our days
so every men chose Kingdom Come
But sure as night turns day
it's the passion play
oh my god
what have they done
with madmen rage
well the dogged craze
but the dead rise again you fools
walk away me boy
walk away me boys
and by morning we'll be free
wipe that golden tear
from your mother dear
and raise what's left
of the flag for me
walk away me boy
walk away me boys
and by morning we'll be free
wipe that golden tear
from your mother dear
and raise what's left
of the flag for me
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2007 9 October :: 12.08am
just another day in the life of a pizza delivery guy.
the end of this movie makes me want to get all teary eyed. (the devil's rejects)
i bought some apple juice today. i havn't been eating very good lately.
truck act's up in the rain, i don't like it.
anyways, thats all i want to talk about, good night.
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2007 7 October :: 9.51pm
good news, new haircut.
"they call me mr. clean"
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2007 7 October :: 8.38pm
66.07 hours for a hungry howies check for next week.
mmmm money.
the kegger went horriable.
there we're random ass highschool kids there.
people driving stupid
people making a shitton of unneeded noise.
so jenny kayleigh and i bailed and went to jennys
people came with us and took the keg.
people came after the keg, almost had a fight.
lots of douchebaggery
somehow i got blamed for a bunch of stuff, fuck you guys that tried blaming shit on me.
shit's weak.
anywho, going to do another starter in the yota, this one did the same shit as last time. fucking napa.
*sigh*
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2007 6 October :: 2.30pm
:: Mood: weird
:: Music: sad kermit
everything happens for a reason, right? at least, some would like to think so - myself being one of them.
that being said, i'm still trying to divine the full significance of gunnie's bonfire, thursday night's conversation with heather, drunksitting tonight (as opposed to being with katie and lindsay), and the fact that i found a frog in my laundry this morning.
this is all adding up to something monumentally mediocre. i can feel it. i just hope it's me.
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2007 6 October :: 12.47am
thinking hurts, girls are confusing.
work was interesting tonight.
i don't know what to think on some things right now.
i do know there is a party tomorrow
and that i'm going to the lumberjack breakfest.... lesbians...
sleep.
why does music always sound better like this?
my mouth is dry.
i wonder what the dog things.
hopefully things go well at the party tomorrow, i won't drink much, maybe play some flippy cup....
played quarters last night.
will swallowed my quarter.
will puked my quarter back up
i wiped it off and kept playing with it.
Its a 1982 quarter, blackish in color. It was bouced on the shelving unit that i was sitting in front of.
bonnie is dumb.
ugggh.
work is one of the few things keeping me sane. by the looks of it i'm going to get all the hours i need now.
hopefully buying a 4 runner next weekend.
my truck doesn't like me much.
i'm thirsty.
i want some ice cold water, out of a chilled glass bottle.
red flannel tomorrow, i've got to work. i hate working on red flannel.
andy, i'm sorry for not going to your bon fire, i just got out of work and i have to be there at 10 am tomorrow.
that fucking music boosters want pizza at 10:15 or some shit
they want tax exemption too. fuck them, they tip for shit, it takes forever to find a parking spot, they order a shit ton of pizza and give you like a dollar.
i'm glad i don't work inside.
maddie dog is dreaming, i wonder what about. i always think chasing squirrls.
i'm just writing random thoughts down.
i think i want to play drums.
anyways.
sweet dreams everyone.
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2007 4 October :: 1.50am
nightly update.
things that are going good:
work, and lots of it.
Friends, they are good.
Tempo, because its sold
I might buy another toyota, an '86 4runner with the same motor as my truck, this thing is rusty but trusty. I'd swap the motors this spring, drive the runner through the winter, have my motor rebuilt over the spring with a port job on the head some bigger injectors and maybe some other mods.
Then part the 4runner out when i get the rebuilt motor in the truck.
the bad:
the brand new starter took a shit in my truck today at work, starter is locked up but the siliniod engages
still have some bills to pay.
justin moves in 11 days. wich would be nice if he was moving to GR, but his ass is moving to Florida. one of my best friends is just leaving. he's like a brother to me, i'm deeply sadded.
tomorrow i've got to swap a starter on the yota, then go bowling mmmm bowling, i love bowling.
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2007 3 October :: 10.12pm
got home from work tonight and the dog was wound, decided to run with her, went all the way to howies and 3/4 the way back before the dog decided to slow down.
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2007 3 October :: 2.44am
:: Mood: uncomfortable
:: Music: flogging molly [whiskey on a sunday]
should i even call hungry howies a real job?
its not much work at all.
oh well, i had fun today.
its really windy out right now i'm enjoying the crap out of it.
i really don't know what to post, i kinda miss having a girlfriend, but whatever you know?
i downloaded some flogging molly today, actually the whole album "whiskey on a sunday" lots of acoustic stuff on it, i dig it.
i want to watch a movie right now. maybe something is on the tv.
see you guys tomorrow
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2007 2 October :: 4.23pm
the gogo tempo is gogo gone.
$200 i still need to pull it off the jack stands so the guy can come and get it.
he's got the title, i've got the cash.
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2007 2 October :: 12.32am
36 hours or so in at howies so far. thats last week and today.
my only day off is thursday, there are 2 people comeing to look at the tempo tomorrow, one guy said he is bringing a dolly and $250 in cash.
i'm excited. I need the money.
i'd probably just throw it in the bank for awhile though.
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2007 2 October :: 12.26am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: toad the wet sprocket - dulcinea
happy october everyone
so i saw benzer and robbie this weekend. that was crazy. and i got to hang out with kevin a little bit, which was also nice.
turns out i might be headed up to c-town this weekend. is it red flannel? or is that next weekend? i think it's this weekend. which would be freakin' insane. i don't know why i can't quite escape the place. and why i don't quite want to. there's nothing in that town, but i can't quite give it up. and then i remember all the people. or i'm painfully reminded. either way, i find myself there intermittently.
which has interesting ramifications for the post-graduate plan of attack.
anyway, happy october everyone.
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