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2005 25 January :: 10.09pm
:: Mood: Shitty
Something I feel helpless to.
Good evening.
It's 10:09 pm, and, miracles of miracles, I'm tired. I guess I should find a pencil to shove in my back pack.. I heard of testing tomorrow. And I should look up the parts of speech that accompany the words of my vocabulary, or do my math homework.. but.. I can't.
I'm too tired.
And the fact that the teen populace has fallen into the habit of drugs and smoking has depressed me.
A couple of my guy friends were conferring about weed, the one even had some on him! I thought school was safe.
Another friend of mine was making a deal for a pack of ciggarettes. I thought school taught us better.
I was told how weed was good a while ago.. how it relaxed and relieved stress.. but there's so much more that it does, too, that isn't as good as these things. Like lung cancer and the like. Why can't people understand it's so bad?
Sure it's the earth, and the earth made it, so it must be okay, but what about all the radioactive ores the Earth made? What about all the horrible things that the earth made, too?
Should we suddenly just take up everything that hurts us, roll it in a peice of fast-burning paper and light up?
I hope I never get asked to do drugs are take a breath of smoke.. for I will have to hurt those who ask..
<3
Even if you hate me.
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2005 19 January :: 12.20am
:: Mood: Sooo Good
:: Music: ATHF
That's right!
ZOMIGAWSH!
I LOVE EVERYBODY!
YES!! <<
WATER.
<3<3
"Meatwad.. this is your new.. brain."
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2005 17 January :: 1.08am
:: Mood: Philosophically depressed
:: Music: None
Happy Martin Luther King Jr. Day
Hey.. It's been a while, hasn't it?
I guess I'll start off by apologizing.
I'm sorry Ducky for killing any plans.
I'm sorry Keith for hanging up on you repeatedly.
I'm sorry Naomi for not going to the movies with you.. or having you stay longer.. or sleep at your house.
I'm sorry Jade that I didn't go to your house, even though you really wanted to see me.
I'm sorry Kristen Joyce for not going to the movies, even though you were genderly outnumbered.
I'm sorry for everything I haven't said sorry for.
And now for what seemed to hurt this weekend.
Not being told that everyone was together hurt my feelings.
My mom seemed to keep putting me down, which hurt my feelings.
I hate myself, and that hurts my feelings.
I wish I wasn't so stupid, it hurts my feelings.
I wish I wasn't human, maybe I wouldn't hurt my feelings.
Machinery is so perfect, and it hurts my feelings.
I've come to a verdict.
Humans will become machines easily.
Mortality will succumb to the metallic perfection of a quick modem.
The homosapien race as we know it has been doomed from creation, prolonged only by the things that cause our deaths daily.
Oh, how hypocritical and bittersweet life can be.
<3
"I know, but I can't get out of the shower."
P.S. I've finished 3 pages in the scrapbook, Naomi ^^ Aren't you proud!?
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2005 10 January :: 10.07pm
:: Mood: Tiredly clean
:: Music: Fan?
Today.. was good.
Yeap, you heard it. Today was pretty good.
1st period:
Normal Richar, normal math, normal is fancy after a long break. We got 2 or 3 new kids, I think one didn't show up.
2nd period:
Bleh, I now have Team Sports. This is bad, because only for the first month are we in the gym, and we'll only be inside later if it: rained, is raining, or is just about to rain.
Please, rain a lot T.T
3rd period:
Same old science. That is good. I kinda hope Shina isn't in that class anymore. It's not like she annoyed me or anything, and she's really nice, but I just kinda like sitting alone.
4th period:
Ew, Health. Not only is our teacher a man (who seems to act and dress like a woman), but it's HEALTH! Atleast Keith and Naomi are braving it with me in the same room, same hour.
5th period:
I love Mr. White ^^ He's such a cool guy. Band is the same, of course, and I like it that way. Naomi and I fooled around almost more than usual xD
Lunch:
Still lunch B. Still good ^^ Today I actually brought food, thus, Naomi and I ate something for once. We're so good.
6th period:
I love Ms. Spurgeon *-* Pre AP English is like.. my friggin' calling or something. I love English e.e;;; I'm such a geek ^^ <3
7th period:
Started Drama today. Mrs. Rubin is such a silly. A deer ran into her car once o.o;
Anyways, that's really my day without the frills. I'm glad my period never acts up too bad.
I think I've been on it since Saturday, but it didn't show 'cause I went swimming.
'Cause swimming stops that sort of thing.
I love everyone.
I feel like painting, but it's bed time.
My room is so clean >>;
Well, kinda. Cleaner than it used to be.
I think I'll paint my nails before I go.
Mm.. black *-*
Love you, you giggle billies <3
"Well.. you're.. a stupid face!"
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2005 10 January :: 6.49pm
:: Mood: Ow, my esteem
:: Music: ..
o.o;;;;;;
Wow..
I'm so loved.. <<;;
That raised my self esteem a WHOLE.. LEVEL! xDDD
JUST KIDDINGGGGGG! >>
Love ya
<3
"You will get pregnant.. and die."
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2005 9 January :: 7.52pm
:: Mood: Tired
:: Music: None
Umbrella Corporation
Welll.. it was a weekend indeed as the Winter Break comes to a screeching halt and tossing me into the fathomless depths of school.
Yum.
:: Friday ::
Weston came over at night for a while and then we went to Laur's so I could sleep over and pick up Jade the next day. Silly. I painted up Weston to look like a geisha. Giggle ^^
Laur and I decided to stay up 'cause we were suposed to get up early (9 am), but that only worked 'til her mom told us to go to sleep. Then we conched out.
:: Saturday ::
Woke up at, like, 9:45 am and we left about 10:15 for Jade's house ( we had to meet Kimmie there ). I didn't feel too good, but whatever. We went to go pick up Jade.
The first time we saw her was her dashing through the airport with a baggage cart. This scene = sheer hilarity. Laur and I laughed so hard ^^ We put Asj and Jade in the car and went to McDonald's for some luncheon.
Ah ha! The baby loved me ^^ And I loved her. Mark and Kimmie went to the race track, so Jade, Laur, Anna, Asja, and I watched Athena and the boys. That was great, I went SWIMMING!
AHHHHH! EMILY WENT IN THE POOOOOOL!
Watch out for floating candy bars! >>
JUST.. KIDDING!
Okay, I'm good. Anyways...
We took Thenie in, but she was just too cold and unhappy in her wet diaper so we took her out, gave her a bath, and then changed ourselves and played DDR for a bit.
Then, out of fucking NO WHERE, Keith shows up right behind us! All three of us screamed xDD We're such geeks. Mark and Kimmie came home with some other people and we went to the Beach Club for dinner. How silly.
So we ate, and Keith and I said we were seven year olds at the same time (scaryyyy!1!) and then we ventured out to find the beach (scarierrrr!11!) We found it and it was all dark and all I could think about seeing Jade step out onto the sand was the beginning of Jaws .-. THANK YOU, TV PRODUCTION!
Anyways, that was over and we went home and Keith went home a bit later, but not before taking some lovely pictures, of course (^.~)
Laur and Jade went to bed at freaking 12:30 am!! HOW DO YOU DO THAT?!?! But oh well. I stayed up 'til, like, 1:30 am then fell asleep on the floor. I stole the comforter, so later I was prompted to get on the bed 'cause I had the blanket. Even though there were a buncha blankets up there still.
:: Sunday ::
Hahaha, Jade wakes us up at freakin' 11 am -.-;; Screw.. you. I didn't get up for a while..
Then I did.
Now I'm okay.
They were gonna go to the beach, but they didn't, so I was okay. Erik came over. Laur, Asj, and I went swimming, annnd.. yeah. I went to Wilt Chamberlain's, it was great. We got 2018 tickets. Yum. Then I went home.
And here I am. ^^
YEY!
And tomorrow's school.
Boo.
My mom's hurting my brain.
And calling me names
CHILD ABUSE!
I started my period today ._.;
That's a sad thing to me.
I was thinking.. it would be.. SO hot.. to have an Umbrella Corporation ID. You know, the Umbrella Corporation from Resident Evil?
How freaking AWESOME would that be? Really? Don't even lie to yourself.
If some one could make that.. I'd like.. worship you o.o;; And pay you.
'Cause that's just the hotness.
Anyways, I'm out.
Laterrrrrrr
".. BIRD!"
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2005 8 January :: 1.38am
:: Mood: Giggle
:: Music: Mean Girls =p
4 questions
Ask me 4 questions.
Any 4 no matter how personal, private or random.
I have to answer them honestly. I have to answer them all. In turn you post this message in your own journal & you have to answer the questions that are asked from you.
Love yoooou
<3
"I can't go out "ehh ehh" I'm sick"
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2005 7 January :: 5.33pm
:: Mood: Excited *-*
:: Music: Hang'em High -- MCR
Arts and up-too-earlies
Darkness sucked.
The plot was AWESOME, but the film sucked.
Sure it scared me.
But.. I get scared at everything.
Even just at night o.o;;
Oh well.
I DDRed AWESOMELY o.o
And I drew some fancy things and have a new concept..
Maybe, JUST MAYBE, I could start comicing.
That would be hot.
I love you, Shima T.T
AND ALL OF YOU!
<3
"Pull the six-guns from your back, throttle the ignition.."
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2005 6 January :: 11.41pm
:: Mood: Cutesy o.o
Movie?
13 going on 30 is the cutest movie in the world.
I bloody LOVED the retro! XDDD Outfits = hot
Love ya!
"You can be the kettle and the pot, bee-atch!"
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2005 6 January :: 9.50pm
Movies.. Tomorrow.. BE THERE
Tomorrow, you go to Muvico at 11:30 am
You buy yourself a ticket for the 12:05 showing of Darkness
You go into the theater arcade and you wait for the others.
You do this.. and you will not die.
<3
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2005 6 January :: 3.23pm
:: Mood: Stretchy
:: Music: TV
Mel and I
o0p5 y3r d34d: Herrooo
IthildenElessar: HELLLLO!! ^.^
o0p5 y3r d34d: HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!
IthildenElessar: WAzZaP?
IthildenElessar: Down w/ the bitches and hoes
o0p5 y3r d34d: xDDDD
o0p5 y3r d34d: Nuthin's up, how's buisiness, pimp?
IthildenElessar: Naomi's plotting against me so i must destroy her
IthildenElessar: !!!
o0p5 y3r d34d: What what?!
o0p5 y3r d34d: Is she stealin your corner?
IthildenElessar: damn str8
o0p5 y3r d34d: Darn it all! Pimping just isn't what it used to be
IthildenElessar: *tear* truthfully i can't understand half of the pimping
phrases
o0p5 y3r d34d: XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
IthildenElessar: DDAMN it ALL
o0p5 y3r d34d: No need to cuss me out!
o0p5 y3r d34d: I just make mah money wif mah ho's
IthildenElessar: No shame in that
o0p5 y3r d34d: No shame in my game
o0p5 y3r d34d: You think I'm lame? You're to blame
o0p5 y3r d34d: I only search for my destined fame!
o0p5 y3r d34d: BAHAHAHAH!
IthildenElessar: u try to rhyme..but there's not enough time
o0p5 y3r d34d: Time..? Time?! You speak of time with my rhyme
IthildenElessar: i need a dime
IthildenElessar: 4 my rhyme
o0p5 y3r d34d: I'll rhyme all I want, I don't mean to flaunt
o0p5 y3r d34d: But I bet you're worth more than a dime
o0p5 y3r d34d: ^.~
IthildenElessar: I come all the way from the west side of Boca
*rapper pose* West Side!
o0p5 y3r d34d: ~crazy S pose~ South side!
IthildenElessar: South side got nutin on me!
o0p5 y3r d34d: West side sure aint fo' free!
IthildenElessar: Yo Foo'
o0p5 y3r d34d: Whuh? Whuh? Break it down, Westie
IthildenElessar: can't touch this...*music..na na na na na na na* lol.
o0p5 y3r d34d: xD
o0p5 y3r d34d: I feel dat!
IthildenElessar: poop
o0p5 y3r d34d: Dat hurt, was day Jimmy Choo Show?!
IthildenElessar: it hurt rite there *hits shoulder*..i mean...
o0p5 y3r d34d: ~does the worm~ <
IthildenElessar: *holds arm in pain* MY TOE!
o0p5 y3r d34d: ~holds her spleen~ MY LASAGNA!
IthildenElessar: hmmm....lasagna....
o0p5 y3r d34d: I love Lasagna
IthildenElessar: No u don't
o0p5 y3r d34d: Yes.. I do
IthildenElessar: No.....u don't
o0p5 y3r d34d: Yess.. I do o.o
o0p5 y3r d34d: Wanna mess?!
IthildenElessar: no......u don't O.O
IthildenElessar: !
o0p5 y3r d34d: YES I DOOOO!
o0p5 y3r d34d: ~tackles~
IthildenElessar: *bits*
IthildenElessar: bites*
o0p5 y3r d34d: .. ~moans~ XDDD
IthildenElessar: ouchy
o0p5 y3r d34d: ~licks~ =p
IthildenElessar: Naomi eats babies 4 breakfast...
o0p5 y3r d34d: I know
o0p5 y3r d34d: I harvest them for her
o0p5 y3r d34d: It keeps her evil and healthy
IthildenElessar: she's losing her mind...and i'm taking all the benefits....
o0p5 y3r d34d: Giggle
IthildenElessar: *cackles*
IthildenElessar: !!!!!!!!!!!!
o0p5 y3r d34d: 0.0
IthildenElessar: dON'T B SCERED
o0p5 y3r d34d: I aint scurred!
o0p5 y3r d34d: Just.. surprised =p
o0p5 y3r d34d: XD
IthildenElessar: ohhh....then my life isn't complEte
IthildenElessar: ^.^
IthildenElessar: Naomi told me she was adopted as a child. Her true mother was an ape and her father was king of Zionxx. She's very sensitive about the subject so i only make fun of her about it on Monday, Thursday and Friday
Silly us.
"It's magical and you.. are a magician."
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2005 6 January :: 2.53pm
:: Mood: Elasticy
:: Music: TV
Giggle
Wow..
I just, like, stretched.
A lot.
I'm going to practice breakdancing o.o
XDDDDDDD
Silly!
"West side sho aint fo' free!"
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2005 6 January :: 12.26am
:: Mood: Owie
:: Music: Nuffin
Result
you represent the hard times in life. you have a
hard life yourself and a hidden self many don't
know about.
What part of life do you represent? ( AWESOME anime pics ^_^)
brought to you by Quizilla
... Dammit.
XD
"Singing songs that make you slit your wrists..."
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2005 5 January :: 11.22pm
:: Mood: Good <3
:: Music: YEY!
A night <3!
AHH!
Tonight was so fun! ^^
I love Ducky <3!
xDD I typed Fucky before I noticed my error.
Giggle.
We saw A Series of Unfortunate Events
Wow, I can't even type right
(Please excuse any grammatical and/or spelling errors)
Silly ^^
<3
"Roast beef, it's a German term for beef.. that is roasted!"
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2005 5 January :: 1.34pm
:: Mood: Remorse
:: Music: Give 'Em Hell Kid -- MCR
Ha.
Just to butter up my mom, I cleaned the kitchen, vacuumed and dusted the theater, and cleaned out the cat box.
But I haven't.. quite.. asked her yet ^^;;;;
When I went up, it looked like she wasn't feeling good, so I just hugged her and went away.
I guess I can be nice.
Next to my blasting music.
Derek need a life =p
And so do I!
<3
"If you were here.. I'd never have a fear."
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