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2005 15 September :: 3.03am
:: Mood: pleasing laurence
:: Music: Cartoon Network
One of my greatest fears is finding that I am ordinary. I am utterly dull to look at. My clothes make no bold fashion statements. My hair is nothing spectacular. My face, like the rest of me, is above average but hardly the best.
I am above average at a lot of things, too. I'm above average at math, at science, at English, at art, at mechanics, at cooking... but I am not the best at anything.
I know my personality is trying to compensate the short-comings of my physique, which may explain why I'm such an extrovert. If I don't open my mouth, if I just shut up and stand there, I am utterly unremarkable.
And that is why some people will forget my face before they forget that thing I said to that guy when they were also there.
My skin is not my distinguishing feature.
So I don't even bother to try being the best.
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2005 14 September :: 12.31am
on the writing slump in our journal community
guajira goddess: but whats worse is, no one is around to comment on them when we write them
guajira goddess: you know what i mean?
guajira goddess: like joe and andy arent here to comment
guajira goddess: fay doesnt write
guajira goddess: nicole is a nut
guajira goddess: hell you dont even comment
guajira goddess: hence, since you only talk to me about my entries and dont comment, you dont spark any other peopple to comment
SPNirvana67: hahaha
SPNirvana67: argh
SPNirvana67: and where is mandi?
guajira goddess: morocco probly
SPNirvana67: she has been absent from the woohu world for like 5 months
guajira goddess: yeah and no more ac either
guajira goddess: even kevin and brandy used to contribute
guajira goddess: amy and steph are non existent
SPNirvana67: lol
guajira goddess: why are you laughing?
SPNirvana67: "even kevin and brandy used to contribute"
SPNirvana67: "amy and steph are non existent"
SPNirvana67: i dunno, just made me laugh
SPNirvana67: how we critique the situation
guajira goddess: i wanna write but no one is there
guajira goddess: no one cares lol
SPNirvana67: i do i do!
guajira goddess: i liked writing when i knew everyone would read it and then respond soon
SPNirvana67: i'm used to no one responding to the things i write
SPNirvana67: lol
guajira goddess: so how do we solve this woohu problem
guajira goddess: ??????????????????
SPNirvana67: hm
SPNirvana67: offer complimentary chocolates?
guajira goddess: hahahah cute
guajira goddess: make the journals work
SPNirvana67: "work"?
guajira goddess: yeah like the good ole days
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2005 12 September :: 6.16pm
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
the lack of updates is making me anxious!! (after clicking on my friends list every day and seeing the same exact thing for 2 weeks.)
i suppose i should act on this and do my own update. indeed, i shall try if i finish my homework in time for milk and cookies before bed.
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moana
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2005 9 September :: 3.57am
:: Music: Radiohead - There There
So what's the deal with headboards?
I mean, in all honesty. What is the purpose of your bed having a headboard? Does it hold the bed up, does it serve as a bruiser for sex, what does it do, what's the purpose of its existence?
I proposed the possibility of the headboard's existence could be attributed to differentiating between the head of the bed and the foot of the bed.
Although in all honesty, it is the onl difference between the head of the bed and the foot of the bed.
So why is it there?
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2005 6 September :: 10.58pm
a better, happier you
Read more..
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moana
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2005 6 September :: 10.21pm
Oh yeah.
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2005 5 September :: 11.35pm
"i think that humanity brings much misery on itself by the false value they put on things."
- benjamin franklin
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moana
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2005 5 September :: 2.22pm
:: Music: Pixies - Allison
I met a freshmen in my BasicP2D class, who is also in my Freehand class, and she and I have bonded over our mutual love of Salad Fingers. I missed being able to walk around going "I like it when the red water comes out". Hoo-hah!
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moana
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2005 31 August :: 10.50pm
:: Music: The Shins - When I Goosestep
I turned all the lights out so that I could pretend it was later than it actually was.
Moving in took a lot longer than initially planned. And it's horrible piling all my stuff on one side of the room even though there's still no sign of an incoming roommate. How depressing.
But! It feels so good to have my own personal space. *looks around* I think I'm gonna like it here.
If only I could share it with the people I miss the most.
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2005 28 August :: 1.44pm
:: Music: Hole - Northern Star
It's cold in here, there's no one left, and I wait for you
Funny. Everytime I get my emotional "feet" under me, my family shoots my fucking knee caps out. Then again, maybe it's not all that funny. Maybe you just have to be there.
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2005 18 August :: 10.46pm
:: Music: Rie Fu - Life Is Like A Boat
Of my many fears, and there are indeed many, it seems the greatest of them is that which the majority of the world seeks. I fear love, so much that my inner self finds the concept not only a mere catastrophe to be avoided at all costs, but perpetually foreign and stagnantly repulsive.
I shudder to think that I may one day find myself trapped within the emotional circus my fellow people long for. My experiences in the past have left me skeptical of love and my once fervent search for it ended in absolute disappointment. What's the use of looking for a needle in a haystack? Aren't there a million others searching for that same needle? What distinguishes me from any of them, some more worthy than I, that I out of all of them would be the one to find it?
Best to roll around in the hay and laugh at myself; have childish fun. Who knows what's to prevent the needle pricking me on the way down? Per chance someone will find it caught in my hair and, daringly, reach out to show me that I have found it, that it has been in my hair all along and that lesser fears, such as my fierce avoidance of those who would search my hair for love, have blinded me to it.
And all it took was someone to reach out and pluck it, hand it to me and smile.
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2005 17 August :: 12.59am
Now the time has come to leave you.... Close your eyes and I'll be on my way. Dream about the things to come...
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2005 13 August :: 1.17pm
Talking about getting fat...
Andy: I got a stomach, it's really gross.
Me: I got a stomach too. Even my aunt noticed it and I think she was kinda disappointed. She might have had her eye on me for her son.
Andy: Ew, that's kinda gross.
Me: I know.
Andy: Thank God you're fat.
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2005 12 August :: 12.08am
alyssa
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2005 9 August :: 2.31am
we are comfortable being uncomfortable.
the thing is, i would rather die because of my body than die because of my brain.
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moana
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2005 8 August :: 6.58pm
:: Music: Tears for Fears - Closest Thing To Heaven
Is that Brittany Murphy in the video?
Honey, I'm home.
Feeling good and looking semi-ok.
My headache is dull and my stomachache is fixable and I'm done reading Hitchhiker's Guide and it is funny.
Also, Danielle, I found Reading Lolita in Tehran in Dubai and bought it immediately, although I won't have time to read it for a while. Do encourage me though.
I also found The Rule of Four, which is described as "Da Vinci Code for people with brains" so I like it already.
Movies, movies, movies. Big Fish, Snatch and Gia. All beautiful, some funny and Gia, which I just got done watching, so so sad. I cried. Really.
The plane ride home was interesting. I was sitting next to a girl named Muneera, who didn't like anything I liked and was a generally unpleasant and negatively-disposed person.
And, I met a young father named Hassani at the airport. He was also travelling alone, and was eager to show someone the picture of his new-born daughter, whose name I can't pronounce (it's African). He thought my reading material was too old for me. I agreed. For some reason, it made him laugh, and this is the part where he showed me his kid's photo.
I like that it was a relaxing end to a hectic trip. Somewhere between my aunt being robbed of over half a million dollars' worth of watches and jewelery, my other aunt's divorce, my cousin's wedding and my extreme apathy to most of these occurences, I needed a vacation.
I did manage, however, to steal my cousin Ahmad, the funniest person in my life right now, to go register for my classes. My schedule so far looks like this:
DESI201: Basic principles of 2D design (I seem to have neglected to inform them that I already finished 3D design in my Computer Assisted Design class.)
UNIV101: The University Experience (I know, what the hell is that?)
ENGL101: Composition and Rhetoric (I heard the professor for this course is tough. I'm totally excited.)
DESI204: Freehand drawing I (Uh-oh.)
My fifth course was supposed to be DESI203: Colour Theory, but the only section that isn't already full clashes with my entire schedule, so I'm going to need to sort that out some time soon.
Classes start Spetember 4th. Meep.
After I was done registering Ahmad took me to see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. Oh. My. God.
Khalas, take me home.
Sooooo, what's new with you?
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2005 1 August :: 12.51am
"Until the pain of remaining the same hurts more than the pain of change, most people prefer to remain the same."
- Dr. Richard D. Dobbins
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