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2018 16 December :: 2.35am
I know somewhere we can trade all our money for a homesick fade to white
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2018 10 December :: 8.59pm
I'm thankful to have a family who loves me and friends who are there for me when I need a shoulder to cry on or some sense talked into me.
I'm also thankful that while this country is fucked, that I don't live in one that is worse.
things will be okay as long as you keep your head above water, and if you don't, sometimes you come back up.
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2018 9 December :: 10.59pm
the pebble cannot change the course of a river
all it can do is hope to be picked up and carried for a while
thankful to be part of the journey
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2018 9 December :: 9.52pm
when every shitty thing you know about yourself is shoved right in your disappointing face and you're forced to smell your own shit sundae
I don't want to wake up.
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2018 8 December :: 6.59pm
fuck everything
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2018 8 December :: 9.07am
sickness from hell
first time I've been this sick in a few years
every time I swallow I wake up because it hurts so bad. went to the doctor just to be told there's nothing they can do.
just what I needed, another worthless egocentric doctor who can't help. and an expensive medical bill before x mass. woo.
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2018 22 November :: 6.39am
stagnation
I'm just waiting for you to let go
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2018 20 November :: 3.31pm
people talking about quitting facebook like it's a drug
"gonna try to stay off for a week"
"two months without facebook!"
but we are treated weird for breaking up with zuckerberg
fucking junkies fuckin sheep fuckin head in the sand ostriches
THEY ARE USING YOU LIKE THAT SHITTY EX YOU HAD
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2018 18 November :: 4.36pm
ugh can someone like please tell me why Britney Spears is so wonderful
cuz she's like A #1
kinda like a certain Smitty Jagerwerbenmanjensen. you know what they say about him.
anyway, I just gotta keep dancing til the world ends.
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2018 9 November :: 6.42am
making people happy cry on their birthdays is one of my all time favorite things in the whole world
I love birthdays. I wish they turned it excellent more often. I wish everyone could have at least one perfect day a year and god damn it should be your anniversary of existing.
this birthday will be good.
happy birthday sweetheart
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2018 7 November :: 1.59pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: Dawn golden
Well, I know I'm hard to take
And my bones are calling out your name
While I beat your cold windows
Break the locks on the gate
While I try to forget
I used to be something great
Because you're all that I, all that I want
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2018 27 October :: 8.42pm
not gonna lie, I do sometimes regret getting this sleeve
but I mean, what's the point of commitment if not for the follow thru?
I just wish it was always cold outside so I could hide it when I don't feel like being seen.
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2018 15 October :: 9.40am
I just want to connect with you, but I can't find any words, and I don't know what to say.
I feel like every day I'm drifting further away.
"I'm slipping out of your hand while you'll stay put in mine"
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2018 4 October :: 7.35pm
attempting to bottle things up better like everyone else
it's hard and makes people think there's something wrong with me
maybe eventually they will forget I was ever another way
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2018 4 October :: 5.30am
bjorne is the most cuddly first thing in the morning it's the best
this morning he let me rub his head and ears and then cuddled with me. then Dad got him but it was just so sweet
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2018 26 September :: 9.50am
training 30 people worth material I created myself.
so fucking nervous
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2018 20 September :: 7.34am
:: Mood: curious
who even reads this
I found this in a post from 2006. please please please if you read this fill it out, I'll reply and fill one out for you. no judgement
Two things you wonder about me
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Three Things you like about me
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3.
Two of my best features
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2.
Two things you don't like about me
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2.
Three words that describe me
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2.
3.
One question for me (ask away, i will answer honestly)
1.
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2018 19 September :: 6.37am
I don't get sick very often, but I've some how caught a cold and I feel like death
balloon head sinus pressure head ache stuffy runny nose huge cough and mucus in my lungs
ugh some bring me soup & cuddles
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2018 16 September :: 1.27am
reconnected with Juan's old roommates and it was even better than old times marli is going to be around all the time I effin love her been doing bruches with the new roommates and trying to step outside my comfort zone more new project at work training 80 CSRs I'm so effing excited went to the fair and ate the most amaZing burrito with the bestie everyone has these wonderful pets that love me and my own pets have been much more affectionate lately
things are feeling better, I'm glad the storm has passed and I feel like I'm finally thinking clearly again
working from home really helps in so many ways
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2018 14 September :: 6.53am
why am I so jealous still of this dude
why can't I shake the feeling the songs are about him
how do I move past this? why am I so insecure?
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2018 9 September :: 9.15pm
just leave
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2018 9 September :: 9.28am
I just want to give up. I hate every beautiful day.
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2018 5 September :: 7.51pm
:: Mood: adoring
when baby dog is really happy, she runs around completely nuts around the living room and then bolts away into the kitchen to get a drink and then bolts into the den
my mom squeels with glee every time she does it, and it's always the same adorable sound with a wonderful giggle after and it's just one of my absolute favorite things. it makes my heart sing.
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2018 5 September :: 6.19am
I suck at comforting people
one day down of sober September and I have had no break from an uncomfortable unsettled feeling deep in my stomach, like I ate copious amounts of cheese.
I can do this.
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2018 4 September :: 9.34pm
I'm really fucking sick and tired of being treated like I don't know shit.
I know a lot. I'm smart. I've had jobs in different areas and understand how almost all insurance works (besides life insurance, but that seems like the most straight forward insurance).
but go ahead,just treat me like I don't know anything. it's okay.
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2018 29 August :: 2.12pm
you either are important or you aren't
you either matter to someone or you don't
I'm always in the "not" category
and it hurts, but trying harder just looks desperate, and I don't know how to do less than what I do. I'm just a non entity. I'm fading into nothing. I don't speak I don't care I just feel sad and lonely.
and I know it'll only get worse. I know I'll be the worst mom. I know I'll die in child birth. I know I'll have a miscarriage. I know I'm sterile.
why do I even exist
I am a meaningless creature on a meaningless planet in an infinite expanse of nothing.
how do I fix this?
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2018 29 August :: 8.24am
why is it that I always manage to convince myself that my bf is gay and in love with another man?????
it happens every time. am I crazy? am I imagining it?
is it just my insecurities about not being a man? maybe I was just supposed to be a man. idk.
life is so confusing.
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2018 26 August :: 12.52pm
this country is so fucking fucked.
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2018 22 August :: 9.45pm
I'm so freaking frustrated I want to scream.
there just no being happy. if I do one thing I suffer in another way.
I need to find a therapist.
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2018 19 August :: 11.01pm
maybe it'll never be enough
maybe it's just me
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