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2016 15 November :: 5.31pm
:: Music: modest mouse - gravity rides everything
Early, early in the morning
It pulls all on down my sore feet
I want to go back to sleep
In the motions and the things that you say
It all will fall, fall right into place
As fruit drops, flesh it sags
Everything will fall right into place
When we die some sink and some lay
But at least I don't see you float away
And on split milk, sex and weight
It all will fall, fall right into place
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2016 12 November :: 10.41am
puked everywhere
can't stop this stupid fucking coughing
food hates me
ran out of aleve, birth control, clean undies and clothing all on the same day out of town
i just want to roll over and give up
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2016 10 November :: 10.04pm
i just can't shake this anxious feeling
in my arms in my neck in my belly
i can feel the air around me decaying
i can see the rot in all living things
the entropy of the universe permeating the porous surfaces and breaking apart the sentinel stones
i can feel
what little of me
that was left
falling into dismal fear
and evaporating as the wind sweeps past
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2016 9 November :: 1.16am
here's to living the next four years stoned off
my ass
as to not remember the end of the world.
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2016 2 November :: 6.55am
6 days until we can watch actual news again
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2016 28 October :: 7.35pm
feels good to get some shit off my plate.
here's to hoping it helps!
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2016 27 October :: 9.21pm
i am the biggest pot head.
i guess someone's wildest dreams came true.. maybe it was profectic?
either way i love riding the green pony. i love every single thing about it.
well.. other than the cartels..
i also love yokai watch. maybe a smidge obsessed.
i haven't crocheted in weeks. maybe that's why i'm in a slump.. but i finally have halloween plans im excited about!! and a cute costume if i can find the dress..
pizza pot pie anyone?
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2016 23 October :: 9.26am
the world is an ugly place
filled with ugly people
ugly events
ugly future
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2016 22 October :: 9.02am
free prostitutes
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2016 17 October :: 4.00pm
i apparently have a huge personal problem with WASPs
maybe i should start the WASP elimination army
spread the wealth, spread the love, get rid of all those old white slave owners
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2016 17 October :: 2.30pm
i don't care if you've been friends with someone since childhood
he's still a hateful close minded misogynistic piece of shit
and i'm not going to pretend like he isn't for your sake
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2016 15 October :: 9.33am
hey now you're an all star
the only roads i know are the back roads
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2016 12 October :: 12.23pm
i know lots of people are smarter than me but i have this philosophy:
SO WHAT
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2016 12 October :: 6.39am
starting to feel a cold or something coming on
secretly, please come faster so i can stay home from work.
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2016 10 October :: 9.41pm
sometimes you just gotta give a lil
you gotta learn to bend so you don't break(snap)
hatreds fester with the pus of tainted grudges
fizz it out with the peroxide of a new day
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2016 5 October :: 10.13pm
It's good to have money and the things that money can buy, but it's good, too, to check up once in a while and make sure that you haven't lost the things that money can't buy.
- George H. Lorimer
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2016 29 September :: 8.42am
what does the sun keep a' shining
what does the sea rush to shore
don't they know it's the end of the world
it ended when i lost your love
i wake up in the morning and i wonder
why everything's the same as it was
i can't understand no i can't understand
why everything goes on like it does
i just needed it to stop. i'm worth more than to feel like shit all the time.
no matter how shitty being alone was, being hurt by someone who loves you is worse
i really hope you can get better. i shouldn't want to change you, but if you want to be with me you have to hit my bar. harsh maybe but how else will we get what we deserve...
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2016 28 September :: 8.48pm
timing is everything and mine is terrible.
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2016 28 September :: 7.36pm
breaking up
the worst feeling
anchors pulling at the pit of your stomach
you feel the weight of oblivion dragging you
into the murky impossible depths
your soul a rotting carcass in the mariana trench
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2016 27 September :: 9.40pm
what is real
and just a dream
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2016 27 September :: 6.04am
after the shit storm that has been the last few weeks, there is a light on the horizon.
finally finished the office. i've never experienced office life quite like that, but i can relate at least a little. excellent show.
now to finish quantum leap.
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2016 24 September :: 12.28am
definitely not getting any sleep tonight
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2016 22 September :: 10.12pm
if i close my eyes and imagine laying in my favorite field of clover and sunlight with you, will you ease my pain?
if i hold out my hand in the dark will i find yours there next to me?
i wish i could cuddle with you again, in the early morning hours in your leather chair. could i forget all that's happened since then? can we sit in the golden montana sun and snore our lives away? i miss you so much. i wish i could have hugged you one last time.
why are things always so fucking painful? why are people so terrible? why does everything turn into a burning pile of charred ash and cinder..
i just want to sleep forever. i feel so dead inside.
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2016 22 September :: 8.24am
:: Music: FIDLAR bad habits
sometimes i really want to become a drug addict
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2016 22 September :: 6.56am
the sun is no longer up when i go to work :(
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2016 21 September :: 9.17pm
a lil drunk
feelin pretty grood
not worried about too much besides my internet being a fucking bastard
y u no netflix & chill, vizio?
going to portugal. the man in november. bought everyone tickets for their birthdays. i love me some scorpios man.
what da fuq for halloween doe.. dayman and nightman? harambe and a banana? the fox and the little princess?
i don't know man. i just don't know.
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2016 16 September :: 2.11pm
gotta take a picture.
but first gotta find the damn thing.
still haven't unpacked from my move a year ago.
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2016 14 September :: 8.07pm
I don't like the way I'm feeling right now
my stomach sinking
all the blood rushing to my trunk
I just feel so frustrated that you won't talk time about anything.
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2016 13 September :: 12.04pm
this dead heart of mine is a heavy burden to carry.
I used to think maybe I wasn't meant to carry it alone
but every day that passes it seems more and more like a fact
I am not made to be happy. I am not made to love.
I am not made for anything. I am a tamed animal that's been left alone to waste away.
this hollowness I feel grows more every day. temporarily am I filled, but only to have it slip out of my cracked base.
i watch the wind through the trees and feel the brisk autumn air against my exposed flesh.
I feel nothing but meaningless inside.
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2016 13 September :: 7.52am
disappointment
why can't you be a little more responsible?
or why am I such a responsible old windbag?
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