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2016 25 June :: 10.10pm
I just want to fucking bawl my eyes out
why do I fuckin ruin everything
why are people so fuckin weird
why is this a fucking issue every single time
I just want to be normal, and that was robbed from me
I will always be weird inside I will always be lame.
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2016 21 June :: 5.35pm
Where was your heart
When we needed it most?
Live in denial
And I'll be your ghost
There is nothing to let go
Only time will let you know
If you're worth anything
and you know then
That I'm giving up way too early
Let the axis turn you free
And destroy everything you love
The world looks better when you're falling
Grace to comfort enough to crawling
Divided we must
Pray for the broken
No one could fix us
We are, we'll always be
The wronged
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2016 17 June :: 11.54pm
I wish I had never been born
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2016 16 June :: 7.56am
things are never easy and simple. and if they appear to be, you will likely end up paying dearly for it in the future.
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2016 15 June :: 2.43pm
is never eating again an option?
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2016 13 June :: 9.29am
when all you can see are the shattered pieces of your past present and future..
and you hope with all your heart maybe you'll find someone who can see the bigger picture..
but deep down you know you're too broken to ever really be complete again.
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2016 11 June :: 2.43pm
it's like a constant reminder of how broken I am..
why did so much bullshit happen to me?
why was I such a victim?
and why am I still paying for it now...
klara committed suicide last Sunday.. I can't even begin to fathom that family's pain. how they continue to survive is so deeply moving.
I could never inflict that kind of pain. as much as I hate where I've been and where I'm going, I am so terrified about what's after that this isn't so bad..
I just.. what to know why. and it's something I will never know.
it sucks when the people who have caused you the most damage are the ones who know you best...
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2016 8 June :: 7.18am
visited J's new digs yesterday. have to say I am extremely envious.
it's on a little lake out in Cheney. absolutely picturesque. I saw a heron, a bullocks oriel, and so many red winged black birds. I need to get some binoculars!
she has some goats living out there with her. they were the fuckin cutest. they kept staring up at us in the trailer bleating. they all have unique voices.. there's a screamer and meek one and everything in between!
we watched what about bob and pigged out on junk food. I have the biggest mosquito bite on my forehead, it gets and is making me feel kinda sick, but omg we could not stop laughing. I looked like a unicorn at first. now my face is just deformed and swollen.
going back out on Sunday, can't wait!! I missed the other side of my bestie sammich.
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2016 7 June :: 9.18am
:: Music: coheed & cambria
pull the trigger and the night mare stops
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2016 2 June :: 12.01pm
yesterday was my 6 year work anniversary.
me, Samie, Torie, Zuzu, Morgan and Juan all had sushi at sushi.com.
Juan brought me some cupcakes from a local bakery.
we went to the Monterey, it was me Torie Samie Chris and Juan, we ran into Raymond and it was a nice low key time.
today I left work early.
it's so insane. 6 years has flown by.
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2016 28 May :: 9.27pm
there's just somethin in the way he laps my tears away
the concerned look the warm tongue
cuddles and kisses, just what the dr ordered
I love Bjorne. I wouldn't give him up. not for everything in the whole world
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2016 28 May :: 8.35pm
how can I trust you when I can't even trust myself
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2016 24 May :: 10.01pm
Juan like my belches because they are deep and full
Ashley likes the sound of my voice because it is soothing
I reeeeeally hope Juan and I start a pod cast.
it would be how you say uh-maze
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2016 23 May :: 10.20am
why ARE there so many songs about rainbows and what's on the other side?
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2016 17 May :: 10.06pm
loyal dog met my parents today and spent time in my home on my couch watching my tv and enjoying my world and it was
simply
the most MAGICAL thing
he made me a mix cd every song was love and passion
we checked out guitars and he fell in love
everything just fell just right just where it belonged
am I an animal in a cage?
if I am, do I even care?
he feels like home, and all I want to do is come to him.
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2016 14 May :: 2.39pm
a muse is a beautiful thing
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2016 13 May :: 6.04am
got my eyebrows done for the first time in over a year....
and god damn do they feel strange.. but they are also on fleek.
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2016 8 May :: 8.39am
I don't particularly believe in souls, spirits, ghosts, etc..
but I sure do see them often.
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2016 7 May :: 8.30am
the best thing about my man is its like dating John Mayer B B King Prince Mac Demarco and Snow Patrol all at the same time
I feel so vital
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2016 5 May :: 2.29pm
comparison will always beget misery.
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2016 1 May :: 2.05am
so drunk
punk/street kid life
not for fucking me
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2016 29 April :: 8.17pm
even though I fucking hate driving being in my car is the only place I feel completely at home
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2016 29 April :: 6.06pm
I know it's a little late, but happy birthday grandpa. I miss you so so much.
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2016 26 April :: 6.46am
I wake up every morning exhausted with ridiculous tummy cramps. I make at least 3 browns every morning. I think I'm dying.
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2016 23 April :: 8.51am
he is my Juan and only <3
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2016 23 April :: 7.49am
do men experience emotions differently from a woman because we are different or because society tells us we are..?
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2016 21 April :: 9.42pm
Do not commit the error, common among the young, of assuming that if you cannot save the whole of mankind, you have failed.
- Jan de Hartog
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2016 21 April :: 7.07pm
sitting waiting to see my first comedy show..
saw someone at work who recognized me..
I feel the strong compulsion to get wasted. I took a Lyft down here.
Juan is more than despondent about Prince's passing.
we are about to go off the rails on a crazy train in these... last days of April... bahahaha
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2016 19 April :: 9.51pm
<3awad
I love you, and because I love you, I would sooner have you hate me for telling you the truth than adore me for telling you lies.
- Pietro Aretino
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2016 16 April :: 8.07pm
all I do
all I do baby
is keep lettin you down
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