achoo's Journal

achoo's Journal

.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 21 June :: 11.32pm

I spent two nights with Roman again. Blessed. It's like everything bad that we are dealing with in our lives momentarily disappears when we are together. I hope that never goes away.

We got a futon and I was proud of us because we bartared with them and lowered the price by $15!! Woo go us. I was like, "ask if they think it's realy worth ____" and he got them to lower the price 10 bucks. then I say "Hmm.... I dunooo honeyyyy, what do you think?" *twist hair and give indecisive looking eyebrow arch* "Okay, OKay," the sales lady says, "You dont have to twist my arm" and she lowers the price by $5 more. Hahaha we win!

anyway, it's black and exactly what we wanted for a fraction of the cost!

I bought some awesome clothes today that I am excited about. God, I can't believe I just used the word awesome. I loathe it. Anyway, I used gift certificates, in my defense.

Then I went to work, it was easy. Had a meeting so it's like I only had to work 5 hours really. I might miss my coworkers when I transfer Menards locations. I'm kinda sad about that. oh well.

Roman and I went to Vandercook lake in Spring Arbor while i was there in Jackson... It was a blast. It was the most perfect sunny day. We forgot the grill to cook our 97 cent hot dogs that we bought so we were angry and pissy but then he convinced me to actually go in the water and we had such a fun time. God I needed that.

So, I pay my car insurance tomorrow and I am finally under my own plan, not paying my parents anymore. I schedule classes for Davenport on Friday (scary). So I guess, Responsibility, here I come.

Other than that.... There are two things I really hate right now: Smoking/cigarettes, and money... Yeah. I'm not even going to try to explain why I hate the first thing I listed. Gawd, how selfish. HOW SELFISH!!!! Nevermind.

Anyway, i have a sad, lonely, slightly drunken boyfriend to tend to. Long story. I'm off.

I love him.

PS. I am also getting quite excited for stef and paul's wedding. I really like this guy. A good catch, definetly. i dont know where I'm going with that, but i'm just glad stef isn't marrying some jerk.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 17 June :: 10.39pm

Well my open house went well actually.

thanks to everyone who came. and especially thanks to gunnie. the letter was incredibly sweet. it meant a lot and i'm so glad you came. i'm sorry i missed you when you left and i feel like an ass. i miss you, i really truly do. i really realized that today...but i feel like i never missed a beat with you. i feel like we still are the friends we always were. i love you!!

and other than that... my family was all cool and the weather was hot but very nice and afterwards me and roman hung out, couldn't find anything to do , so we ended up staying at MY house, which is totally amazing, and watching a movie which we probably haven't done in an entire year. it felt nice and like the old days.

anyway, hooray, im done with that and one step closer to moving out.

yesterday i packed so much stuff. all my cds and my stereo are packed in boxes and taped shut. my picture frames are all put away and wrapped up tight with packing paper. .. we are just so excited for this. i can't wait! looking at those moving boxes in my room just makes me a million more time excited. hooray.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 16 June :: 11.46pm

god why do you keep totally blowing me off?

are you my friend or are you just pretending? i'm really confused.

and it's really annoying.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 16 June :: 6.49pm

so my open house is tomorrow

2-5. at my house. cool,

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 14 June :: 1.11am

Please don't say I love you,
those words touch me much too deeply
they make my core tremble
Don't think you realize the effect you have over me
And please don't look at me like that
It just makes me want to make you near me always
Please don't kiss me so sweet
it makes me crave a thousand kisses to follow
And please don't touch me like that
makes every other embrace seem pale and shallow
Please don't come so close
it just makes me want to make you near me always
Please don't bring me flowers
they only whisper the sweet things you'd say
Don't try to understand me
your hands already know too much anyway
It makes me want to make you near me always
And when you look in my eyes
please know my heart is in your hands
It's nothing that I understand, but when in your arms
you have complete power over me
So be gentle if you please, 'cause
Your hands are in my hair, but my heart is in your teeth
Babe, and it makes me want to make you near me always
Your hands are in my hair, but my heart is in your teeth
Babe, and it makes me want to make you near me always
I want to be near you always
I want to be near you always
I want to be near you always

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 13 June :: 1.45am

So today was nice. i worked a reallly short shift of only 4 hours ... except for getting out late it was a good shift. i was so pissed we got slammed when i was supposed to get out and i guess 2 girls got confussed on who was supposed to go in for me so neither one did and i got out like 20 minutes late. it sucked

but then i met roman and we got TONS of stuff from paul and stef *THANK YOU GUYS* ...tons of towels, glasss cups, dishes plates, toaster oven, george formann grill, gosh i cant even remmber it all.. a tv and stand... all for a great deal. so thanks again guys we really appreciate it.

then amazing and even though we "shouldnt" have, we went to Logans for dinner in Kzoo because we hadnt ate out in a long time. we were just gonna use the grill again but we didnt want to.

well then we went to meijers and got some sheets and pillow cases for like 13 bucks which was a great deal and some fancy placemats.

i am throughly excited to move into the new place. now my only problem is how tremendously my insurance has been raised because of that ticket i got. ugh so if anyone knows a cheap insurance company let me know please.

that is all.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 13 June :: 1.42am

Holy shit.

i had totally forgotten how much i love
1. taking back sunday

and deffinetely,

2. 311. OMG.

i missed it and i dindt even know it.

i guess i just have to thank Kevin Japanee Cuppett for introducing me to both those bands. I love it.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 10 June :: 11.28pm

boring. dumb.
Read more..

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 10 June :: 7.23pm

man, i wonder what it would be like to be part of the FCU.

bitch.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 9 June :: 11.24pm

I just cannot figure it out.

Is it real? I dont know. I think so but I dont know when I'll figure if it is or not for sure.

But that, give me a break. It's insane. Is it just peoples' solace for absolutely everything that is going wrong in their lives?

it must be. I can't believe any of it. it's so incredibly stupid and fake. WOW

i would hate to be one of them the day they realize it's all a fucking joke. but hey, i guess everyone needs a little solace in their life.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 6 June :: 1.48pm

omg. the following news it utterly unbelievable.

my parents are letting me go camping with roman. i'm leaving tonight and coming back thursday to go to work.

hooray hoorah suck it losers.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 6 June :: 10.19am

God I dont' know what to do anymore.

I seriuosly can't handle living two hours away from Roman anymore. I can't handle not having the best friend I used to and her acting like it doesn't even fucking matter. I can't handle having this stupid open house that I haven't even prepared for AT ALL and I can't fucking handle Rosie's anymore because here's how my schedule goes...

I get my schedule 2 weeks ahead of tiem from Menards, then I take my schedule into Rosie's and the days I don't work at Menards I tell Rosie's that those are the days I can work and so unless Rosie's doesn't schedule me on the one or two days I can work for that week, then I work at Rosies. Which leaves me with like no time off at all unless I ask it off and a full plate and feeling tired and like nothing is getting done. Yeah it's good money but I am feeling so drained. I feel like I never want to go out and do anything because then I'll be too tired the next day at WORK.

Also, roman and i have tried to pick out a day that we both get off so we can see each other. It was tuesday but then when menards doesn't schedule me on tuesday, i've been asking to work at rosie's so guess what, I have been working on tuesday leaving no day for us. and yes, we need an entire day because goign to see each other requires four hours of driving. and when we see each other once every other week or so then we need to take advantage of the small amount of time we have so shut up!

and rosie's always makes me feel like they don't want me there anymoer because i can only work a few hours. I am really close to quitting because it's so pointless. they just make me feel like crap and keep hiring people so i feel like they are slowly pushing me out. ....ugh whatever i'm not going to get into it. the farm will be starting soon so i'll have that job again too. i guess i'm just prety sure i'm goign to quit rosies.

So far this summer and even before summer started there hasn't been a day at rosies that i've worked and havent felt like shit ... i'm not gonna get into it but it's completely true. and yeah, i can't really take that anymore.

bye.

oh but wait. i get to work at rosie's tonight at 3. yesterday omg, i worked at menards from 12:30 to 10:30 because the stupid hardware department made us help them with stock when every single night the cashiers have to stay the latest anyway doing returns and they get to leave!!! next time i'll be like hey bitches we helpecd you, you help us. but no, they'll just leave early like always. big suprise.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 4 June :: 8.09pm

oh and ps i'm totally done trying.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 4 June :: 8.05pm

wow. are you fucking kidding me?

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