achoo's Journal

achoo's Journal

.j.e.s.s.

:: 2005 13 June :: 4.14pm
:: Music: just to see you smile

leaving didn't hurt me near as badly as the tears that were rolling down your face
here , i'll try to write it again. UGH i have nothing better to do.

i'm afraid to leave this room for fear of being... i dont know.. mauled?

i am extremely happy with your decision. i'm so glad you picked what makes you happy and you won't have anything being held over your head for the rest of your life. i know it may create a few problems down the road but overall it will make things a LOT more easier.

i have come to terms with the fact that i'll never please you. well whatever. i can't do anything about it. no matter what i do bad OR GOOD you will never be happy. sorry. sorry i went to Jess's instead and sorry for even telling you. Most people wouldn't give a shit about that considering it's not a big deal whatsoever. gawd sorry for telling you i wasn't even going to bother because i didn't want to get in a huge fight but i decided it would be best to tell you what really happened but no, i'm wrong again.

you will never be happy with what i do, who i am, who i love, who i hang out with, nothing. There's nothing i can do about that because i'm not changing for you. Maybe some day you'll be happy with me, maybe in years when i have a life maybe you'll come to my wedding. Maybe once i have kids you'll be happy with me then. Probably not, but maybe.

I know I don't have a fucking bad life. Of course I know that but... there are just some things. just.....

where's the fucking love?
give peace a fucking chance!

that last one's for pappy. ugh i need to call her but i can't because i can't get a phone.

please somebody call me so i can have an excuse to leave this room.

i will never be even remotely close to perfect at all. sorry but i think you need to realize that. i wont be like your other children. maybe i just have a rebelious nature but oh well i really just don't care. i'm done trying i'm done done done doen donde alsdkfjasl;dkf in one year i will be out of here and i can't effing wait. yeah i've been provided with a great home and money and great car and security but... HMMMM there's one thing missing. wonder what it could be....

my family wont be like that. uga;slkgjasl;gkjasdgl;j not trying to hurt anyone but come on.

the countdown has been magically subtracted to zero days. Well, in a way. ugh. Oh well, I'm happy with it. God when will people realize? Honestly.

I can't wait to just have my friends and my best friend in the whole world with me all the time. I can't take this bs anymore. it's so dumb.

wow just nevermind.
LEARN.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2005 13 June :: 4.13pm

oh my fucking god i just wrote the longest thing ever and lost it.

fucking shoot me.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2005 11 June :: 9.30am

Just to see you smile. I'd do anything.
Look.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2005 10 June :: 6.27pm
:: Music: mariah carey- we belong together

when you left i lost a part of me. is that so hard to believe?

I'm not trying to hurt anyone or piss anyone off. I just love my boyfriend more than absolutely anything in the world.

I love Roman.

I can't wait to graduate and just be DONE

"Who am I gonna lean on when times get rough?
Who's gonna talk to me until the sun comes up?
Who's gonna take your place there ain't nobody better.
Baby, we belong together."

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2005 10 June :: 7.55am

i'm really sad

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2005 5 June :: 9.51am

please just dont bring up anything at all

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2005 2 June :: 6.29pm

Hardest Class: geometry... bleh
Easiest Class: band or .. history
Most Fun Class: band or yearbook or english or anything but geometry
Best Teacher: mrs deyoung or mr neier actually is a good teacher he's just odd
Worst Teacher: robuck
Best Grade: i duno band
Worst Grade: english cuz of that effing scarlet letter packet
Boring / fun lunch: stupid i hated it!
Detentions: millions
Best Game: um that one where everyone was all riled up and yelling lol i duno
Worst Game: football game having to march cymbals
Most Fun Dance: prom
Newest Friend: allison
Oldest Friend: jess
Favorite Memory: skipping school or anatomy class with jess and jess
Embarrassing Memory: crying in school
Worst Memory: fighting and stuff
Best School Meal: n/a
Worst School Meal: all
Best Decision: stay with roman through it all
Biggest Regret: not being able to turn in that packet cuz of skipping
Biggest Concern: roman and i's relationship probably
Smallest Concern: school ha..................right
Friend you wish you still had: sometimes will i think
Friend that you are glad you don't have: um no one
Spring Break / Winter Break: i dont even remember what ... oh probably winter
Best boyfriend / girlfriend: um lets see...roman
Worst boyfriend / girlfriend: n/a
Biggest Fight: me and jess h`
What was it about: ummmmmmmmm god i dont even remember!! lol ummmmmm ahh no i really dont!
Coolest Trend: scarves i love them
Dumbest Trend: question marks lol
Good / bad year: the school part sucked majorly but the life part had its good times
Rate it 1-10 (10 best): duno

The Year in Review brought to you by BZOINK!

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2005 1 June :: 11.44pm

if i tell you i love you, i swear i really do mean it.

that applies to anyone i really do.

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:: 2005 1 June :: 11.29pm

01. Reply with your name and I will write something about you.
02. I will then tell what song/movie reminds me of you.
03. If I could give you one thing, it would be...
04. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
05. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
06. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
07. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
08. I will tell you one thing I like about you.
09. Put this in your journal

i changed it a little cuz i thought some were dumb.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2005 1 June :: 11.24pm

only ONE PERSON

yeah

HEY i'm on hotornot.com... lol not really but gunnie says it looks like me...

i think the first one on the left kinda does but not really but tell me for yourself... what do you think ? lol. just curious.

um also... i dont think anyone reads my journal... did you know i make like all my entries FRIENDS ONLY?!!? did you.

http://www.woohu.org/img/jessalike.gif

tomorrow BEACH AND hanging out with my little cousins i'm gonna take them to a movie and maybe the park or the beach.

i duno. whatever

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2005 30 May :: 1.46pm

ughgghasldkfjasl;dfjk lkj what a fucking waste of a day. like the only day i dont have to work and i'm sitting at home alone on my huge lardass doingmtoahsdgiol;asdkjgsl;dgjsadlgkjsdl;gjkasd
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dgklj fuck fuck you. fuck you all. and go fucking die.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2005 29 May :: 10.36pm

this is like one of my favorite pictures ever. yay i am just feeling very in love right now so you must look at it. so deal with it!
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edit: okay so it's a little huge!! fine! i'll make a cut tag. but still, you should look at it! it makes me happy.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2005 28 May :: 12.00am

Name 20 of your friends below. do i have 20 friends?

1) jess hazen
2) jess gillette
3) romannnnn
4) dani lauer
5) BEANS
6) Jackie Robinson
7) Miranda Waldron
8) Denee Millering
9) Matt Whetzal
10) Justin Bloss
11) Allison Kortz
12) Becky Visser
13) Erika Childs
14) Jenna Gillette
15) Justine Gunneson
16) Spud
17) Logan Crandall
18) Mike K
19) Shae Brophy
20) Arianne Ridel

- Who is #8 going out with? denee's with Arik
- Is #9 a boy or a girl? whetzal's a man!
- Would #11 and #2 make a cute couple? mmm jess g, and allison, i dunno about that one.
- How about #18 and #4? mike krajewski and dani? lol maybe actually.
- What grade is #17 in? my grade
- When was the last time you talked to #12? Saw Becky last night at graduation
- What is #6's favorite band? Jackie's is queens of the stonage i believe
- Does #1 have any siblings? yes Jess has 2
- Would you ever date #3? Yay, yes i would date roman. Hey. WAIT i am!!!
- Would you ever date #7? i'd totally date miranda if i was a lesbian.
- Is #16 single? no spud is with jackie
- What's #15's last name? Justine GUNNESON
- What's #5's middle name? Sarah RUTH!
- What's #10's fantasy? lol Justin would have something prety weird... like making love to amanda in a pool of jello or soemthing lol
- Would #14 and #19 make a good couple? Jenna and Shae?! lol no i dont think so.
- What school does #20 go to? welll, Arianne did go to cedar but she lives in germany so.. i duno
- Tell me a random fact about #11? Allison, She likes pink like ME!
And #1: Jess, she likes to show off her scooby doo underwear and shout about tampons in the restroom while old ladies are trying to take care of their businesss.
And #3: Roman, He loves this girl name Jess Wilde and he has totally PERFECT ears. seriously, have a look. they are flawless.
- Have you ever had a crush on #16? Spud, like a tiny one my freshman year or something.
- Where does #9 live? Matt, GAH in this place where it took me 30 minutes to get to because i kept getting lost!! some crazy place. on a corner on a hill.
- What's #4's favorite color? dani, yellow.
- Would you makeout with #14? SOrry Jenna, not trying to hurt your feellings or anything you know, but no sorry. lol
- Are #5 & #6 best friends? no
- Does #7 like #20? Miranda and arianne, i dont know if they know eachother
- Does #8 like #19? i think.. she doesn't really know him well
- How did you meet #15? band.. lol from pit.
- Does #10 have any pets? i know he has some kitties
- Is #12 older than you? becky, no.
- Give #13 a hug. oh okay maybe i will
- Is #17 the sexiest person alive? no sorry. but i love him to death!

:0)

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2005 26 May :: 4.49pm

ughhh long ass day

we're going to work on EVERYTHING. please, everyone , give me another chance okay? i promise.

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