You would kill for this, Just a little bit, You would...

:: 2007 13 March :: 8.26pm

A black plastic bag in the back of a jacked up ford.

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:: 2007 12 March :: 10.39pm
:: Music: ben folds five

so, for my film class, i'm currently writing a proposal for my final project.

the ideas i'm proposing involve the possible use of an actor.

i'm realizing now that i don't have an actor yet, which is kind of key.

so, who might be available to work on this with me sometime? it should be somebody in the GR area, who has a pretty open schedule, and a car.

i can't offer money, but comraderie, marginal stardom, and maybe some goodies are all possibilities.

anyway, let me know if any of you guys are interested.

:: 2007 12 March :: 8.05pm

This summer is going to be sooooo teech its unfathomable. I might go to Bona Ru to see Clutch, Damien Marley, Tool, and like 45 other bands. Parties are going to be so easy to start, thank b-unit.

Another note, weed smokin is done for awhile, perhaps forever. who knows.

:: 2007 10 March :: 11.46pm

Because I make everyone angry, I cause arguments that don't need to be started and people assume way too much out of one simple statement I will hardly ever update anymore.

There, done.

:: 2007 9 March :: 4.55pm

So apparently I must explain the whole being punched in the face story.
Let me start by saying, it was an ACCIDENT!
We wrestle. It happens. Not the first time I've caught a fist to the jaw or anything like that.
He doesn't do it intentionally.
I try to be all ninja swift and lets face it, Im not.
MIKE DID NOT PURPOSELY HIT ME.
Is that spelled out enough?
He won't hit me intentionally.
I promise.
If he did, I'd hit him back and leave him.

So please, don't leave me drunken voicemails saying you're going to kill him and burry him somewhere.
I get that you're concerned.

1 Open Fire | [x]

:: 2007 9 March :: 3.14pm

Star Theatre, 7:40pm for 300 kiddies. I need a pick me up.

:: 2007 7 March :: 7.09pm

I took a punch in the face today.
All I got was a fat lip, and some blood.
No biggy. Nothing I can't handle.
It's going on 2 weeks that I haven't talked to my mother.
My dad got hurt at work yesterday.
I got my glasses back.
I might be getting transfered to Rockford.
Greenville sucks the big anus.
That about wraps up all the details of my life.

11 Open Fire | [x]

:: 2007 7 March :: 9.36am

Ok. Anyone planning on seeing 300 should check my journal friday sometime. I WILL NOT GET AHOLD OF ANYONE OTHER THEN THE ORIGINAL 4 THAT PLANNED ON GOING!!!!!!! I will however post what time as early as I can.

Phil - Im on it. I got my ticket last week. My bros going with me too. Im not sure what time were getting there or even what time it starts but ill def. chill with you there.

"You do any of that crazy shit like pull out your piece on the lane, i take it away from you, shove it up your ass and pull the trigger untill it goes click"
"Jesus...."
"You said it man, nobody fucks with the Jesus"

Edit : I'm going to get fucked up this weekend. Maybe fall down some stairs. Either way, im getting drunk.

Peace bitches.

:: 2007 6 March :: 11.56am

Bitches! So far I know Gravy and I are going to see 300 for sure friday, b and triple probley will aswell. If anyone cool wants to go with us, hit me up.

:: 2007 3 March :: 9.11am

Im in a lot of pain right now.
I slipped on some ice last night walking down some stairs.
And my back made pretty good friends with one of the cement steps.
Im having trouble walking and it SUCKS.
Every step I take, puts me in tears.
Anyway Im off to go lay in bed some more.
This weather sucks.

2 Open Fire | [x]

:: 2007 1 March :: 1.53pm

i have here in front of me...
"WKLQ presents"
THE COLOUR
all ages welcome
at THE INTERSECTION
(133 grandville SW * GR)
suday march 11, 2007 - doors at 7pm

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now, whoever wanted them needs to figure out a way to get in touch with me and pick them up.

considering i'm going to be leaving for kalamazoo tomorrow evening, and minnesota on sunday, that may prove difficult.

however, i might be going to the show, so the best bet may be to meet up somewhere nearby before the show, for drinks or what-have-you, and we can distribute them then.

my cell number is 616 893 7952.

:: 2007 28 February :: 8.06pm

I know that I complain a lot about all of my problems, but I swear one of these days, it'll be for a good cause.
Right now, I just have a lot of venting to do.

I've quit talking to my mother.
She's been trying for days to contact me.
She keeps leaving me voicemails, and last night she told me I need to leave Mike for this guy that lives in GERMANY and is being shipped to Iraq for a year and a half.
Fuck that. I'm NOT leaving my boyfriend who I love entirely for a guy, that I had a crush on when I was 12.
Im not going to listen to someone who cheated on their husband with who knows how many guys and then blame the divorce on him. I refuse.
Im not going to listen to someone who turns trick for a bag of weed TWO DAYS AFTER she sits there and tells me she LOVES Joe.
I'm sick of her bullshit.
She needs help but she refuses to get it. She's in denial.
She left me a voicemail today saying that she's going to assume that I'm pregnant and too scared to tell her and thats why I'm avoiding her.
What the fuck kind of voicemail is that?
Honestly.
She doesn't realize that she's hurting everyone around her.
She's pushing everyone away from her and it doesn't even phase her.

Tomorrow is my dads birthday and because I love him, Im baking him a cake and surprising him with it! :]

10 Open Fire | [x]

:: 2007 28 February :: 10.12am

Still sick.

Still working.

Still hoping most of you die in a horrible accident.

5 Open Fire | [x]

:: 2007 24 February :: 12.28pm
:: Mood: Stressed
:: Music: Slow Motion - Third Eye Blind

Sometimes when things are perfect, they totally suck.
So a lot has happened this week.
The stress load that I had, when from a shit ton, to very little to a whopping fuck ton.
Truths are coming out about my mother.
I had already assumed some of them, but they were confirmed yesterday.
And more were brought out from under a 15 year log.
I have lost all respect for her.
It all just makes me sick to my stomach.
And I don't even want to see her.
It's pretty upsetting when HER best friend calls ME crying because she's worried about my mother.
Neither one of us know what to do.
We want to help her, but we don't know what the most effective approach would be.

Other than that, everything is great.
I have my job back.
I'm hopefully going to get hired in soon.
I got another raise. So I now make $9.00 an hour.
Not too shabby.
Hopefully it'll go up when I get hired in.
Either that or I can find another job that pays even more than that.

3 Open Fire | [x]

:: 2007 22 February :: 3.38pm

The last few days have been sort of stressful.
I'm still suffering a bad cold.
Thankfully its not pneumonia.
I have an acute respiratory tract infection.
Woo.. Not.
I can barely breathe and my head hurts really bad.
I went to the doctor today.
I hadn't ever been to this one before, and he's already telling me he's worried about my weight.
His words were "You're tall, but don't weigh what you should"

Things are work are going pretty decent.
But I think Lisa is going back to Rockford.

Anyway, its nappy nap time.

:: 2007 22 February :: 11.29am
:: Mood: tired

okay, so ... tickets for "The Colour":

apparently anyone can just go to the studio (104 lower commons) and pick them up.

what i can do, then, is grab like 10 to give away for my show or whatever.

so, you guys can either get your own, or i'll tell you when to listen, and you can call in to the show and get them.

i'm not sure if there are actual tangible tickets that i'd need to get to you guys, or if they are just using a name list.

synopsis is:
March 11 (sunday, i believe ... it's the last day of spring break for us)
The Intersection (so you'd have to get to GR somehow)

i have fil down for two, jackie down for two, liz for one.

once i find out more i'll let you guys know.

*update*

On 2/22/07, ChrisTopher Best < space3monkey@hotmail.com> wrote:
are these tangible tickets, or is it the name list again?

and also, are these available to give away on our shows? do we have to do anything special to do so?

thanks,

Chris Best

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These are tangible. They're in the station. You may give them away on your show.

- j.

spud	:: 2007 21 February :: 7.27pm on-campus webcams creepy? yes. i wish i could remember how to make a hyperlink (how'd i do?) 5 Open Fire \| [x]

:: 2007 21 February :: 3.37pm

Get your own CrushTag!

:: 2007 21 February :: 11.15am

Whalers,

We have 500 tickets to The Colour at the Intersection on March 11th.
They're from Los Angeles (Oh, WOW!) and they sound pretty good. We're
supposed to try to get as many people as possible from GVSU to attend
this show. It is our partnerships with the Intersection on issues
such as this that gets us all those delightful free tickets.
Any ideas on how to distribute these tickets in a cool way are
definitely welcome. We'll try to do another mobile broadcast right
quick (this one with less 'I told you one thing, but now I'm actually
changing all of that!', which makes certain Promotions Directors a
little bunched in the knickers), but... I mean, we have 500 tickets.
Do you even know 500 people? I don't -- I haven't seen a solid 500
people all about doing one particular thing in one setting since the
Houston 500.

To listen to The Colour, get on that Myspace thing:
myspace.com/thecolour

Love & Rockets,
J. Bennett-Rylah

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spud	:: 2007 19 February :: 8.45pm :: Music: the ladd mcintosh big band shit shit shit. i knew i was forgetting something. sooo.... i'm supposed to be at the fucking place with the stuff right now. and i'm totally not. man, i'm dumb. 1 Open Fire \| [x]

:: 2007 17 February :: 10.33pm

Found out some bad stuff today.
But because I don't like dealing with my own problems, I brushed it off.
I tried to have a good day anyway.
And to my surprise, I succeeded.
I didn't let it get to me, and I didn't cry.
However I sunk to a very low level.
But that was after he took me out for a reall fancy dinner.

His daughter wanted to spend the night.
But she also wanted her sister and one of their friends to spend the night as well.
And because I have been fighting this terrible cold all week and its still not getting better, he told her no.
She threw a fit, and he even tried to explain it to Paula, and she got pissed.
She drove over here to bitch at him because she thought he was just making up an excuse so that he could go to the bar tonight.
Well much to her surprise, she was wrong.
She apologized because she felt like an ass.

Anyway I am going to go snuggle into my bed, and watch tv while I wait for this cold medicine to kick in and I drift off into a very deep sleep like I did last night.

spud	:: 2007 12 February :: 11.01am there is a FREE JAZZ show at the INTERSECTION from SEVEN to NINE post-meridian you all should BE THERE . i even capitalized all of the important parts for your viewing ease. 10 Open Fire \| [x]

:: 2007 10 February :: 10.31pm

I'm a jack ass.
And damn proud of it.
I wish I had a theme song.
Perhaps I will right one later on tonight.

Anyway, I went back to work friday.
For how long, no one knows.
I go back monday to finish doing what I was doing friday.
Gauging hooks on springs is fun!
NOT!
I did well over 5,000 on friday.
I sat alone in a corner for 8 hours.

Booze cruisin' was in store for this evening.
But our parade got rained on.
More like stormed actually.
His daughter came over for a few hours, and by the time her mother picked her up, he was dead asleep.
And dead asleep is where he stays.
I'm not surprised though.

Tomorrow we have wrestling.
Yay! Not. I get to sit on hard bleachers for about 5 hours, trying to look interested in little boys touching each other.

Anyway, it's time to go see if maybe he'll wake up.

1 Open Fire | [x]

:: 2007 9 February :: 11.30am

550 in fines and court cost

2 years nonreporting prob.

on the good side of things though, i get to see Clutch in March. Also the expansion to Oblivion is coming out soon. Many hours will be devoted to that.

spud	:: 2007 8 February :: 11.57pm :: Mood: exhausted :: Music: Brian Bromberg - downright upright damn. i am completely and utterly whipped. and all that that implies. i am not looking forward to tomorrow morning. i want so desperately to sleep in. 1 Open Fire \| [x]

:: 2007 7 February :: 10.53pm

Today I got 2 kind of good phone calls.
The first one was from my mom.
Calls from her usually don't result in anything that makes me happy.
But I get to go work with her tomorrow and make money.
Kind of exciting. I get to answer phones.
It was more exciting to want to do, but now that i get to, im not so excited. haha
And I got a call from Vicki at Peoplelink and I go back to work on Friday!
So I'll hardly be online anymore, and very rarely will I be up past 9 haha.
Things are still good with Mike and I, even though we have had a couple of arguments this week.
He needs to learn to sleep.
And I need to leave him alone when he's trying to sleep. haha
Yeah buddy.

2 Open Fire | [x]

:: 2007 4 February :: 5.27pm

So I am long overdue for a good rant.
I knew it was too good to be true that I was truly happy.
That all I did was smile.
And that we were getting along so good.
We aren't arguing.
Just creating a huge space.

I hate how when I leave for a few hours when him and his daughter are here, I come back to this place absolutly trashed.
It's fucking ridiculous how little control he has over her.
He doesn't pay any fucking attention to her and just lets her do whatever.
The last time I tried to say anything about it, I got my head bit off.
Not only is it that, she goes through ALL of my stuff.
When she takes a shower, she uses MY towel.
Hello, haven't you ever heard of getting one from the shelf with a TON of towels?
It's actually quite simple. I do it rather often.
I know she's 8 and I shouldn't be so pissed but for Christ Sakes.
When I was 8 years old, I was using my own towel.
Everytime she gets a glass of WATER, she gets different glass.
She attempted to make mac & cheese.
Eats ALL of our food.
It's insane.

What hurts most of all, is that he's not happy.
I try my hardest to make him happy.
I give him everything I can..
I'm not Paula, and I'm not Lori.
Nor will I ever be, and nor do I want to be even close.
For some god forsaken reason, he holds Paula on this pedistal above everyone else.
She cheated on her HUSBAND with Mike, and they had a kid together.

I'm not sure if its the PMS peaking through but I'm in such a terrible mood.
I cried the whole way home from my moms.
And I'm fighting back the tears right now.
Everything is going to fall to shit again.

3 Open Fire | [x]

:: 2007 3 February :: 5.09pm

I hate it when the weather is shitty out because then I don't feel like going anywhere.
Then I get really irritated from being sick of sitting home..
The madness!
Snow = Shitty.