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2007 2 February :: 12.27am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: BnL - everything to everyone
hate on me if you want to, but damn ...
i really love snow.
it makes me sad that i'm too poor to go skiing this year.
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2007 30 January :: 1.56pm
I'm come to terms with my insecurities.
Which in turn has made me become rather bitter.
My sarcasm has spiked to its all time high.
I've pushed my mother away, because I don't believe anything she says anymore.
I think we've only argued once since we moved.
He's becoming more serious about our relationship.
We are working on communicating more.
I am very happy.
Our financial troubles are working themselves out.
But I have to go clean and do laundry!
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2007 30 January :: 1.41pm
:: Music: dave brubeck - time out
ROAD TRIP!!!
alright, since phil and tracey both expressed an interest, i think it would be a cool idea to get a group going to the intersection for this jazz thing. if i had any money, i'd say we could do dinner or something as well. since i don't have money i won't be doing any such thing, but for those of us who do, it's certainly a possibility.
here's the info (off of sectionlive.com):
Monday, February 5
THE MONDAY JAZZ SERIES
Featuring GROOVE MERCHANT
IN THE FRONT LOUNGE
FREE! 7pm - 9pm.
i'll plug it on my show tomorrow night as well.
and also, i may forget somehow between now and then. hopefully somebody will remind me, so i'm not a total asshole for ditching on my own party.
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2007 30 January :: 1.07pm
Man, woohu is a war zone. I'm the Swiss.
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2007 29 January :: 6.26pm
:: Music: the song on kevin's journal
so, i guess there's a free jazz show at the intersection, monday nights from 7-9. i'm strongly tempted to check it out.
winter camping is this weekend. i'm super-pumped about that.
in other news, it's hella-cold.
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2007 29 January :: 12.17am
So AJ and Justy came over tonight before they headed home.
AJ broke my chair.
Fucker.
And now Im off to bed! haha
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2007 25 January :: 10.17pm
If I didnt treasure my internet dearly, I'd tell Charter to lick my anal region.
First my VOD doesn't work.
So they had to reset.
Then my movie channels wont work.
So they had to reset.
Now nothing works.
Fucking dumb asses
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2007 24 January :: 1.25pm
I just typed out a long entry on how I feel about marriage and pregnancy and all that.
Then I decided to erase it and not post it because my opinions on said subjects aren't what anyone wants to hear.
However, I will say this, I am so sick of hearing about people from belding getting pregnant.
There's better things to do.
Carley, I barely have service at my apartment, so if I call you from my house don't ignore it.. It'll be a 989 number.. I'll call either tonight or tomorrow. I love you.
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2007 23 January :: 6.57pm
Hey, I'm still alive. Imagine that.
I don't update much anymore because I keep my mushy details of my life inside.
But I miss Carley.
And I really miss my sister.
I really don't know what else to say.
Other than Brianna hasn't updated in awhile, and I want to see new pictures of her baby.
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2007 18 January :: 3.42pm
I have internet!
yay
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2007 18 January :: 12.10pm
The other day kyle said he wished that he had never been born.
I feel the same way.
My mind is running wild, and i have a crazy idea. I need to talk to someone, and see what its going to take to accomplish. However it is totally possible that this could back fire just like everything fucking else.
Im going to be exactly like Eric Zane. Pissed at everyone, 300,000 in debt, but i wont be married or have kids or a job.
Hehe, maybe I should call RJ, see if he can help with my debt. Laugh. Inside jokes, some of it.
Fuck me.
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2007 17 January :: 2.14pm
wcks radio show
this semester my show is the same format as always (jazz, with some talk in there).
there is a new addition to the crew, as katie booms is now my co-dj.
also, there is a new time and place. it is wednesday nights, 10 to 11 pm, at http://www.thewhale.org/
if anyone has any questions, just say the word.
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2007 12 January :: 8.52pm
So I have finally moved.
I live in Sheridan
The quiet little town of Sheridan.
I live with my boyfriend who I love more than anything.
Even though we don't have the most perfect relationship I love him to death.
And it seems like all my friends are getting hitched or knocked up.
Oh well.. Those plans aren't in my future...
Well I'm off..
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2007 12 January :: 2.38pm
:: Mood: good
:: Music: led zeppelin
first week back on the horse. so far it's been a good ride.
i'm taking calculus, media production I, audio production I, speech, and weight training.
calc is cool. it's nice to have math again. too bad my prof is so dry.
media I should be cool, probably my hardest class. but i get to make movies, right. and my professor is pretty cool.
audio I is my favorite class ever. i'm seriously more excited about this class than i have been about anything before. flippin' sweet. and i'm taking it with my advisor, who happens to be my dad's friend from river city. it's totally awesome.
speech is going to be arduous, but my professor is nice. she's seriously a sweetie.
weight lifting is pretty much what you'd expect. again, cool prof.
that's about it.
i've gotten up at about 8:30 every day this week. and i have to get up at 8 tomorrow.
i'm sore, i'm tired, and i'm ready for a nap. but i don't get a nap. that's cool though. i made muffins. muffins fix everything.
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2007 3 January :: 7.29pm
:: Mood: relaxed
last night
interesting.
pretty fucked up. but in a good way.
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2006 31 December :: 11.28pm
Right now I am sitting at my dads with my sister, brother in law and my dad.
I'm incredibly bored.
And have been here since 10:30 this morning.
I'm waiting for the ball to drop so that I can go home and go to bed.
Or finish packing.
The packing thing I really need to get to.
Moving has been delayed a week.
Hopefully we can get the apartment we're looking at on tuesday.
We were going to rent a house that was 1/2 way between Sheridan and Crystal but the guy told us that he changed his mind.
We were kind of pissed about that, but what can ya do..
Only a half an hour until the new year, and I could careless.
I am so tired at the moment that nothing matters.
I just want to go home.
Crawl into my bed, and curl up.
Anyway, this is the end to my sad entry..
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2006 26 December :: 11.26am
Who thinks its funny to see people on their high horse, that actually have no clue about how much of a retard they sound like? I think its pretty amusing.
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2006 25 December :: 1.36pm
Nothing like a little Platoon on Christmas.
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2006 24 December :: 3.59pm
So much for having a good Christmas Eve.
Started to suck about 9:30 this morning when my mother decided to act childish.
I called and asked if it would be okay if I were to show up to dinner at the most an hour late because Michael really wanted me to go with him to have Christmas with his daughter and whathaveya.
But no, my mother started balling and guilting me into not spending christmas eve with my boyfriend.
Why do I let her get to me so much?
After I got off the phone with her, pretty much in tears because I knew that I'd be spending the day without him, he hugged me and then we finished his christmas shopping.
Then the day started to suck more when his truck wouldn't start because the battery died, and then he locked the keys in the truck.
Now I'm sitting here missing him and waiting to go to my Grandma's to have christmas with my mother and the rest of her family, which my sister will not be attending.
I know this is childish, and I understand my sister has good reasoning for not being able to make it up here this weekend, but why is my mom okay with her and my brother-in-law missing christmas but it's not okay for me to show up no more than an hour late?
It's fucking retarded I tell ya, Re-tard-ed!
Hopefully tomorrow Michael with join me in venturing to Novi for Christmas with my dads side.
Or maybe he'll surprise me and show up at my grandma's this evening when he comes back from his christmas.
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2006 22 December :: 10.59am
i'm kind of bothered by this grade problem
fixing the german thing would boost my semester GPA to about 2.8, and my cumulative to about 3.25. i would be okay with that. but right now they're sitting at 2.5 and 3.18 respectively, and i'm just not as cool with that.
i know it's pointless details, but i think it's a big enough deal to be concerned.
or maybe it's just the fact that i despise being lied to and taken advantage of. honestly, that's probably the lion share of it.
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2006 22 December :: 5.43am
hey, anything going on tonight? anyone?
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2006 22 December :: 5.30am
Things seem to be going better.
Mike and I are terrific.
We have been having a lot of fun lately.
The other day we did some christmas shopping and he was acting like a little kid in the store.
He even had me push him around in the cart.
We also played baseball/volleyball with packages of toilet paper.
Today is my last day of work until the 2nd.
Kind of excited about that because this getting up at 5 thing is starting to kill me.
Especially being that Mike is back on third shift until the middle of January.
I cannot sleep alone.
Christmas is almost here.
I'm excited for it one day, not looking forward to it the next, so we shall see how the mood is by the time it's actually here.
Anyway, it's time for me to finish getting ready for work..
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2006 19 December :: 12.02pm
:: Mood: pumped
final grades
sweet. apparently i kicked a little bit more ass than i was expecting:
i got a 99 on my image & sound final, and a B+ in the class.
i got a 96 on my media production modes final, and a B+ in the class.
in the not kicking so much ass:
i got a 79 on my german final and a B- in the class. i'm confused by a couple of her marks though... but even still, i did kinda flub on the exam.
i got an A on my honors final, no word yet on how i did overall, which can't be good.
anyway. that's all i've got. hope everyone else got satisfactory marks. and don't forget, it's up to you to determine what falls under the heading of "satisfactory".
Edit:
CFV 123: B+
CFV 124: B+
GER 201: C-
HNR 233: C
HNR 234: B-
German says C- and not B- like i was expecting.
i sent her an email immediately. i only hope it's not too late. aside from that, honors was a little better than i expected. i figured on Cs for both of them.
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2006 17 December :: 1.27am
Just like to take the time to say, I made an ass out of myself.
Or atleast I feel like a total ass.
I called Justy tonight and I was completely hysterical.
I was out driving around and I started to have what I thought was a panic attack.
I guess I just need to stop pretending that everything is peachy keen.
Especially when I'm feeling completely empty and numb inside.
I have a problem.
I'm depressed.
And I think about how I am going to die.
I don't think about killing myself.
I just think of all the different kinds of acts of God that could accure and I'd be history.
Is that the same as suicidal thoughts?
Anyway, time to go to bed and try and get rid of the stress headache.
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2006 16 December :: 8.20pm
god damn. most of you suck, you guys need to do stuff on the weekends, so i dont have to sit around being bored. fuckers
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2006 15 December :: 5.34am
dont watch this if you have a weak stomach.
http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=1258710232
i think about 20-30% of this is pretty fucked up. killing animal for human consumption is fine, and i love my meat (no pun intended assholes) but you could at least kill them conventionally, know what im saying? i bet we could find alot of wouldbe serial killers at slaughter houses. most killers start with animals anyways, some probley just arnt motivated enough to start with humans, thank god.
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2006 14 December :: 12.26pm
Mike and I were both sick last night.
He was the only one that was able to get up and go to work.
Lucky him.
Instead I sit here, hoping my head really doesn't explode.
I think I miss him more when I'm sick.
All he did was cuddle me this morning and of course all of last night.
But this morning he was holding his shoulder when he went to get in the shower, because he slept on his bad shoulder all night just so he could cuddle me.
And I felt bad.
I love him so much.
I know we have our problems, and have a little argument atleast once a day.
But I want it to last.
As I sit here writing this and recieve a text from him, I start crying.
I'm pathetic.
I miss him so much right now.
I'm not sure if the crying is because I miss him, or because of the headache, or even both.
Anyway, getting my hair cut today.
Well, more or less a trim.
Then maybe off to Lori's to get it highlighted.
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2006 13 December :: 8.00am
so fernando (dont make fun of the name, because i WILL kill you) gave an amp for the price of nothing. i know nothing about amps or any of this shit, so someone who does please tell me if this is a shitty, decent, or great amp for a car.
http://www.bluelagoonusa.com/almrvse4cham.html
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2006 11 December :: 11.35pm
:: Mood: existential
:: Music: classical piano
this music is seriously magical, in a way that nothing else is.
you can just get lost in it. lost only in your mind, maybe, but the music is the catalyst.
and it has been that way for hundreds of years.
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2006 10 December :: 8.03pm
Today Mike and I took his eight year old daughter the mall.
Never again.
Those are the only words I can find to describe the experience.
But it made me feel like we were a family.
Put weird feelings in my heart.
But I love him to death.
Christmas is coming, and I have all my shopping to do yet!
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