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:: 2008 27 August :: 6.53pm

I start moving TOMORROW!!! :D

:: 2008 27 August :: 1.14pm

i seriously think this game is rigged.

does anyone else think it's weird that the favored presidential ticket is "Obama - Biden" when just a few years ago the stereotypical bad guy was "Osama bin Laden".

i just think it's bizarre. and not that i ever cared about osama, or obama, really. because for the most part, i resent politics. but that just struck me on a linguistic level, and i had to acknowledge it.

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:: 2008 21 August :: 4.15pm

I want to spend the weekend at Bernie's, feels good man

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:: 2008 21 August :: 4.11pm

If anyone has any last things to say to my hair you better do it, its going very soon.

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spud	:: 2008 21 August :: 12.54am i'm too high school for my shirt :: so high school it hurts. Pink Floyd - Dogs 2 Open Fire \| [x]

:: 2008 21 August :: 12.44am
:: Music: Pink Floyd - Dogs

school starts yet again, very very soon.

you'd think i'd be excited. that's usually how it goes this time of year. a little mellow and pensive, but excited nonetheless.

however, this year i just feel kind of depressed. like it's basically over already, and i'm just going through the motions. jumping through hoops until the hoops are gone. i guess i'm just depressed because i know that i won't know what to do when that happens. i've been jumping (whether poorly or not is of little consequence) for so long, that it's all i know how to do. or at least, it's the only thing i've managed to convince myself i'm comfortable doing, despite the fact that i still to this day do not know how to do it.

i think i'll feel better once the days start getting shorter and cooler, and the leaves start to change, and i get to enjoy the smells of warm donuts and fresh apple cider and pumpkins and hay. i always love that time. and every august i forget that it's not for another two months or so.

but a boy can dream, i suppose.

and in the meantime, he should get a fucking job. how many times have i said that on here? and how many more times will i repeat myself until it actually happens?

more than i'd care to admit.

:: 2008 18 August :: 1.38pm

2-0 preseason lions. Hopefully they can carry this winning motivation into regular season. Kitna/Stanton looked good last night.

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:: 2008 18 August :: 1.21am

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:: 2008 17 August :: 1.37pm
:: Music: Lil wayne - Kush

Yeahh....and I smoke that Kush. Yeah....and we ball like swoosh

:: 2008 16 August :: 1.47am

tropic thunder was hilarious

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:: 2008 15 August :: 4.53pm

We went down to visit his mom last night.
She was able to remember who Mike and Jerry were, but she didn't remember who I was.
I told Mike that it wasnt that big of a deal because it's probably her short term memory that is afftected by the infection and it hasnt gotten to the long term completely.
But he insisted that it is a big deal because she remembered me on wednesday.

I dont like how quickly things are progressing.
Tomorrow his family is all getting together with the doctors to discuss what options they have, and what is the best for her.
Its going to be rather depressing, but it definately needs to be resolved soon.

spud	:: 2008 15 August :: 12.27am i could never be a writer. i'm way too shitty at managing my time. 2 Open Fire \| [x]

:: 2008 14 August :: 3.12pm

i know this is lame of me, but still.

i'm kind of hurt because a bunch of people i know apparently went out to a bar that i may not frequent, but have certainly been to several times (and have thoroughly enjoyed every time), and not one of them invited me.

i mean, maybe i wouldn't have gone anyway, but at least then i would have had the choice. it just makes me sad that there are so many nice people out there that really don't want me around.

and mom wanted me to find a friend to go with us to the baseball game tomorrow night, and i completely ran out of friends. i was running off the list in my head, and most of them were out of town or busy. and i wasn't going to count on kevin, because i figured he'd be with andrea. but maybe he'll pull through still.

all in all, i don't feel very desirable at the moment. and shannon doesn't count because she has more justifiable reasons to despise me than most anyone else, and her ignorance of that fact is not any fault of my own.

i'm gonna go mow lawn soon, i think. i don't feel like calling lenders today. addison was supposed to call me, though. maybe i'll give him a ring first.

:: 2008 12 August :: 9.02pm

So things have gotten worse..
Mike's mom is doing a whole lot worse..
The end is definately closer than what the doctors were saying.
She doesn't remember who Mike is anymore.
Seriously, I cannot stop crying.
It's horrible.
I feel so bad, and there is absolutly nothing I can do.
There is nothing the doctors can do.
Nothing.
:(

EDIT: oh, and one of the ladies that live where my grandma is at, died on monday.

spud	:: 2008 11 August :: 6.24pm gmail is having a server error. and that pisses me off. so, thank you woohu, for not malfunctioning. 4 Open Fire \| [x]

:: 2008 10 August :: 8.18pm

So to add to my weekend filled with bad news and unfortunate events, I found out today that the Stanton man killed in the car accident friday morning, was a kid I work with..
And he was one of the only people I talked to at work.
We made fun of each other all the time.

Seriously, Im sick of bad news..

:: 2008 10 August :: 8.59am

This weekend has been pretty crappy..
Started thursday night..

Mike's mom is in the hospital.
It's pretty serious business..
The doctors are saying that it won't matter if she is in a medical facility, or goes home and has nurses come in, she might see labor day.
Spent all day friday at the hospital, and we're going back down there in a little bit..
I feel really bad..

:: 2008 6 August :: 12.07pm

feels good man

:: 2008 5 August :: 3.48pm

so, i'm completely done done with my summer class. still hasn't quite sunk in yet. but it will soon.

and emily is gone again. also hasn't sunk in. coffee today was nice though. i can't believe she'd never played chess before.

so yeah, that's pretty much it. i lost my phone charger at kevin's this weekend. kinda sucks. but i'm getting my new one soon, so it doesn't really even matter that much.

i don't know. i'm gonna go play drums, since i'm all out of ideas.

peace.

:: 2008 4 August :: 7.18pm

We finally got around to rearranging our living room.
I have been begging and pleading and threatening doing it for months now..
And Mike finally caved and I bribed him into doing it.
And we have one of his turkeys on the wall.
The whole turkey.
On a perch.
And it sticks out from the wall.
Like 2.5 feet out from the wall.
A whole stuffed turkey..
From its beak to its feet, turkey.
And soon, there will be another one on the other end of the wall..

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:: 2008 2 August :: 2.28pm

GSP "Rush" vs Jon Fitch, GSP will hold his belt 100%.
Brock Lesnar vs Heath "Texas Crazy Horse" Herring = Hopefully the crazy horse can pull an upset.
Kenny "Kenflo" Florian vs Roger "the matador" hueta = Rog has this locked.

:: 2008 2 August :: 10.14am
:: Music: kebbeen, buying me dinner.

Mr. J, (this entry's more for me than anything else)
movie's done, at least as far as i'm concerned. going canoing today. wrap party for the film is tomorrow. the last class is on monday, and i have to turn in a 3-5 page paper that i have yet to write. should be exciting. also going to try and schedule a job interview for that time. and go into campus view and raise hell for my damage deposit. so, staying plenty busy, even though it's supposedly over.

but that's okay. life barrels on.

:: 2008 31 July :: 10.16pm

Pineapple Express is over 9000 laughs, I got to see it tonight before it comes out

I lol'd, then I came

:: 2008 26 July :: 12.37am
:: Music: Go Fish - Part of the Proof

seriously. i just want a day off. one fucking day off.

we filmed again today. james's room is fully dressed. but since our camera broke this afternoon, and they didn't get to the interior shots on the call sheet, they pushed them back to the end of the schedule, so that room didn't need to be dressed at all... so dumb, but it couldn't be helped.

i'm having lots of fun. but i'm so fucking tired. and i'm just getting sick of being there all the time.

and i'm smoking way too many cigarettes. this is killing me. neither softly, nor slowly.

but i'm determined to have fun, dammit. we're making a movie. it should be a good time.

:: 2008 21 July :: 3.24pm
:: Music: Flobots - Handlebars

Chuck Norris can choke on dick. I watched a full show of his new WCL(world combat league) and it should be canceled. Who wants to watch a bunch of sub par fighters fight for only like two and a half minutes? Not me. Who wants to watch them fight with 12-14oz gloves? Not me. Anderson Silva would destroy every fighter on there with in 1 minute. What a worthless show. Id like to see WCL vs UFC so chuck can watch and cry about his worthless fighters getting annihilated. I hope his total gym breaks on him and he dies. He is now the biggest douche bag in the world of MMA.

edit: http://youtube.com/watch?v=bT2LB3hAz5Q Pound for pound the greatest fighter on earth.

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spud	:: 2008 20 July :: 1.55am i'm SOOO tired. but it's back to the grindstone again tomorrow, so i suppose i ought to suck it up and deal. sleepy time looms. foreboding and somnambulant are the pertinent adjectives. i think. 1 Open Fire \| [x]

:: 2008 18 July :: 5.44pm

A WoW joke in The Dark Knight?
SO the Joker asks what happens when the [Unstoppable Force] hits the [Immovable Object]. My reply is, Chuck Norris Dies!

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:: 2008 18 July :: 1.28am

drizzunk? schmammered? was macht es?

seriously, guys. 9pm. friday night (tomorrow... or today, depending on how you view it). sazerac lounge. be there (i will).

and fuck you jessa, for getting that damn song stuck in my head, right before i go to sleep. it will drive me insane.

; )

peace.

:: 2008 17 July :: 12.17am

went to blues on the mall tonight with mom and lib.

i got some free beers (we went to the BOB during the thunderstorm), and i got to hang with my family and pontificate some. it was gratifying.

but after spending all day working, and all evening walking around downtown, i am completely beat. and i get to do it all over again tomorrow.

no rest for the wicked, i guess. and apparently i'm totally fucking wicked.

:: 2008 15 July :: 8.52pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: none

Summer Film Project
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i have finished day two of our preproduction preparations to the caledonia location. there's a shit ton of stuff that needs to be done, but at least we're finally getting somewhere.

i'm not doing anything involving audio, as i said before. but i do at least get to do construction stuff, which i'm fairly good at. not like it's rocket science.

but yeah. it's fun. the people are cool to hang with. but it's a lot of work. i mellowed out a lot once i resigned myself to the fact that this is just a really slipshod operation, and that i won't be able to rely on anything. i will do the best i can to make it happen for them, but nobody, not even me, can ask for anything more than that.

and i think i'm doing my part. i certainly have lots of tools down there, and we're making decent progress. i'll keep you guys posted on the happenings as i can, but no promises. it's keeping me plenty busy.

the important thing for you to remember is:

"WALTER'S WIFE" FUNDRAISING PARTY
Friday Night - 9PM - at the...
Sazerac Lounge
1418 Plainfield Ave NE
Grand Rapids, MI

Be there if you can. although, i believe it's 21+.

sorry.

call me if you have questions, or shoot me an email. i'll get more info as it becomes available. (like i said, slip-shod).

Peace.