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2018 29 June :: 10.47pm
why do I still try
don't try
it doesn't matter either way
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2018 27 June :: 1.51pm
I know how to cope with my depression, I know I can't dwell on my set backs, but I was really, really counting on at least getting an interview, and now you tell me they've hired everyone they want to for now.
but it's not ok to be upset about that.gotta just keep moving forward like a cold unfeeling robot arm.
I'm so fucking sick of all this. just leave me alone. I am shutting myself away so none of you have to feel compelled to give me any more advice I didn't ask for, or more negative words that I don't need, or telling me to do shit I'm not fucking going to do.
IM DRIVING MY OWN GOD DAMNED BUS AND I WILL BE AS FUCKING SAD AS I WANTO TO BE ABOUT WHATEVER I WANT TO BE SAD ABOUT.
I'm not asking for help. my experience is my responsibility. I'm not asking to be lifted up and told fluffy lies about myself.
just leave me be and let me rot alone in absurdity.
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2018 26 June :: 7.04am
finally got rid of my Facebook, feels good to get rid of Zuckerberg's robot lizard eyes in my life.
I got accepted to start working from home, so hopefully I will start feeling better about work. I won't have to try and dodge questions about how I am or how my weekends went. I won't have to wear uncomfortable clothing and starve all day. I will be able to go for a walk and a park instead of a huge parking lot next to the Comcast building.
what I really need is a hug and to be held. I wish someone could tell me everything is going to be alright, but I know it isn't at this point.
I'm trying to accept the facts that I will never feel rested again and that the world will always be a horrible depressing place as long as other humans exist in it. humans are the worst. we aren't special, so stop thinking we are.
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2018 25 June :: 8.45pm
sometimes I'd be nice for words and not just gifs.
idk. I both love and hate the internet.
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2018 25 June :: 3.12pm
my boss told me to keep my promotion I need to be happy at work
I told her to fucking take both the raise and promotion and shove it up LM's asshole because I'm not going to fake it so management can have the warm and fuzzies.
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