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2018 14 June :: 6.55pm
I want to offer my condolences to anyone who doesn't have a sister or isn't on close terms with their sisters...
because I absolutely love my sister and I would be so lost without her. it's a special connection between sisters, especially when you grow up close in age.
we might not talk every day or see each other all the time, but she always has my back and I always have hers. she helps me see insights into myself I wouldn't have otherwise, and always comforts me even when there isn't anything else to be done.
I just hope she knows that she is the most precious gem I know
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2018 12 June :: 10.51pm
you know you are pathetic when.....
you can't sleep because you are busy thinking about the shitty escalated call out you have to make because another senior representative couldn't do their fucking job.
why is she not held to the same standards as the newer seniors? why are none of them?
WHY DO THEY GET PAID MORE FOR FUCKING UP EVERYTHING THEY TOUCH!?!!
I need a fucking vacation... starting in T minus 3 days and counting down...
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2018 12 June :: 4.02pm
there isn't anything more than empty conversations filled with empty words.
I keep waiting for someone to save me. I know I have to save myself. I'm too weak. I'm too worthless.im too meek.
all these suicides in the news, and all I can do is longingly dream of the day that I might find peace.
my childhood and adult traumas have led me down this road where I constantly try so hard to have people love me and remain loyal to me. as a kid people told me I was creepy for trying too hard. all I wanted was a friend, to not feel alone,to maybe have the abuse stopped or at least have a sympathetic ear. now as an adult once I do find a friend I try too hard. I let my friends and lovers take advantage of my kindness, my generosity, my time, and I rarely get anything in return, I rarely ask anything in return.
I don't ask, because my needs aren't as important as everyone else's. if I try to cry in front of someone to maybe get a little sympathy, maybe not feel so isolated, I just get pushed even further away by harsh words of judgment. or they run away, afraid of someone else's feelings.
as a child I was cast away to the isle of solitude. there was no devil there waiting for me, a monster I could befriend. instead it was just an empty rock poking out of the bottom of the ocean, and here I still reside, waiting for the day I no longer count another day.
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2018 11 June :: 9.40am
let me paint in ultraemotion
let me set this thing to hyperfeeling
sentimentality is running high and we have a nostalgia super bonus saved up
just know that you did touch my heart deeply, I think about you constantly and I hope whatever pain is in your heart finds a little peace somewhere in this endless blue sky.
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2018 8 June :: 2.31pm
cicadas chripping in the heart of the day
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2018 8 June :: 9.50am
Sometimes I go about in pity for myself, and all the while a great wind carries me across the sky.
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2018 15 May :: 9.41am
it's a placebo kinda day
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2018 11 May :: 9.26am
every night I go to sleep optimistic that I will not wake up
every day I awaken to the same nightmare
the sets and faces change, but the feelings always remain.
worthless. lonely. isolated. absurd. pointless. grey. empty. devastated. crushed.
I'm just so tired, but sleep doesn't seem to rest my soul. do I even have a soul?
all I feel is blood and bone. no heart. no soul.
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2018 10 May :: 9.47am
wake up
wake up
WAKE UP
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2018 3 May :: 4.06pm
honestly, I'm never completely honest.
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2018 27 April :: 7.09am
heading to Seattle this weekend to visit my best Frome I am so excited! last time I saw her we went to her best friends memorial at the state park it was very sad... this will be more fun!
we are going to explore whidby island! I've always wanted to go but never was able to. we are going with some mutual friends and their adorable twin daughters. I made some macarons which I need to ship off today, but the extras I'm bringing with (not that we need more sugar she went crazy getting me candyyyyyy)
my sweetie got a 2018 wrx, I have driven it once and I'm really jealous but..... I love my 35 mpg way more than his however many horses haha
maybe I'm too much if a grandma but being a passenger is scary. especially in the back seat.
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2018 23 April :: 11.46pm
all I really need right this moment is an encouraging word or a friendly face.
I just want someone to see me.
I feel so utterly and totally invisible.
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2018 14 April :: 9.00am
this birthday has been shit.
I want this to be my last birthday.
there isn't anything in the world worth this much pain.
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2018 6 April :: 11.58am
Easter dinner was delicious I will post photos soon...
So glad it's Friday, I wish the weekend would last forever... I need a permanent vacation
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