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godessalthena

:: 2014 20 February :: 10.25pm
:: Mood: crushed

Oh my fucking god I love him.

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godessalthena

:: 2014 19 February :: 9.36pm

Sometimes I feel bad about farting on my dogs in bed, but then I remember they choose to sleep there even after I fart on them. Dirty secret fart lovers.

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godessalthena

:: 2014 18 February :: 8.57am

Coming back from a four day weekend just reaffirms how much I hate being a personal injury claims adjuster.

13 voice mails
24 emails
24 file reviews
59 bills
30 checks
And my phone ringing off the hook.

I'm just so tired of this. Arguing with people over their medical treatment, sending out stupid letters, dealing with fraud, being treated like the enemy.

It just wears me down.

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godessalthena

:: 2014 17 February :: 9.13am

Boys make me stupid.

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m&ms487

:: 2014 17 February :: 9.27am
:: Mood: pensive

I'm twenty-six and probably buying a house in a few months.

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godessalthena

:: 2014 10 February :: 3.04pm

Got home early today, thanks to samie's sister having a doctor's appointment and me being the driver today. Good fucking lord the snow is crazy! The best part is its supposed to rain tomorrow. We get like 4 inches, then it all melts. How silly. I just hope it doesn't turn into glare ice...

I got my tax return! I got a bunch of moolah, but I feel like it's all going to go to bills :( oh well. Living in 'murica bitches!

On the bright side, apparently my credit is getting better to the point that my two credit cards raised my limits even with a few late payments... I just forget sometimes.

Started my pills again a few days ago. Getting used to them fucking sucks. I feel so nauseated, light headed, spaced out, no appetite, twitchy. Luckily sleeping is seeming to be okay. I wake up at night, but I think I did that before.

I decided to stop smoking weed for a while. I'm on day 3, and feeling pretty good. I'm excited for the money I'll save! I've also decided to cut back on my alcohol consumption, as I think it might be why I have such horrible stomach aches. So far that's pretty easy too..

I look at my texting app on my phone and I just feel disgust sometimes. I think about all the people I communicate with and how none of them really ever are nice to me.

Idk, it's probably me just being a whiny baby. Maybe I'm too nice for real and need to be more of a bitch. I have no idea.

Ugh.

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godessalthena

:: 2014 8 February :: 7.35am

I want to reconcile the violence in your heart
I want to recognize your beauty is not just a mask
I want to exorcise the demons from your past
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart

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godessalthena

:: 2014 6 February :: 11.17am

Talking to Shaunte has been a real trip. She remembers the young naive artist of 6 years ago, not the bitter and cynical business woman I have grown into.

She can't believe that I've stopped painting, nor can she believe that I'm bisexual, or single, or on anti depressants. She just has this pure vision of me, and now that I've let the world melt my views into something less than what it was (in her opinion) she has a hard time accepting the change.

It's kinda nice, having someone with so clear of a memory telling me about times long forgotten. I hardly remember half of what she says, but she's had to recover and had my memories fresh in her mind. I've been so distracted by all the things that have been happening I honestly don't remember most of what she talks about.

She want to come visit me. Or for me to visit her. I think I'd rather her come over here, since I'm so completely unfamiliar to Ellensburg.

On a side note: my tummy hurts SO FUCKING BAD and has for the last few weeks :(

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godessalthena

:: 2014 3 February :: 10.14am

I'm having a hard time coming to terms with my average and unremarkable existence.

Because out of 7 billion people, I'm the same as at least 75% of them.

A single drop in the ocean.

A pointless ocean.

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godessalthena

:: 2014 1 February :: 2.11pm

I just want to get wasted :( is that too much to ask?

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godessalthena

:: 2014 31 January :: 1.19pm

I'm so glad this shitty fucking week is almost done.

I have been in the worst fucking mood this week.

Ironically, this has also been the most sober week I've had in a very long time.

So here's to getting shitty tonight in hopes of erasing all the shitty from my memory.

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godessalthena

:: 2014 30 January :: 1.55pm

Sometimes, I really miss doing drugs.

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godessalthena

:: 2014 30 January :: 9.16am

Andy emailed me.

I'm surprised and at the same time not surprised.

It's surprising because I won so hardcore that I was hoping he would actually be done with me. He was so horrified and disgusted by what I did to him. I like to think I cut him deep. I think he probably did more damage to me in the long run, throughout the duration of our friends with benefits relationship, but that last blow was like a TKO punch.

I'm not surprised, because he's a little bitch. This is the second time he's come crawling back to me. The SECOND time. The first time, ok I get it, whatever. He apologized and I gave him the benefit of doubt, gave him another chance.. And wham, he does the same shit to me, only worse. He's a pompous entitled asshole. A rich bitch. He doesn't value other people, only things and status. And right now he must be hard up for sex.

Well, buddy, tough shit. This bridge has been burned from both sides and there is no chance of rebuilding. Good luck being alone forever, fuck face.

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godessalthena

:: 2014 29 January :: 11.29am

Made it 2 weeks without my pills. Broke down and bought them today.

I'm destined to be a pill popper for the rest of my life.

I fucking hate this.

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godessalthena

:: 2014 28 January :: 8.36pm
:: Music: Jimmy eat world

Are you listening?
I was feeling free
With a little sweet and simple numbing me
What a dizzy dance
The sweetness will not be concerned with me.




Slipping into sweet uncertainty..

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