Every living creature dies alone

I'm tired of everyone dying, why is life so sad?

drug addiction just decimated another bright young man.

just so some cartel can have another swimming pool or whatever else.

and now there's another hole in his heart and I hate that I can't fix it.

rip Ashton. you will be dearly missed, I know.

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godessalthena

:: 2020 18 May :: 10.28am

can I just die now? thx

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godessalthena

:: 2020 15 May :: 9.16am
:: Music: ember city by mastodon

I'm really missing you today corry. to think last year this time last year I was taking you to the hospital and you were in there so long... and I never visited you.

you must have felt so scared and alone. that probably pushed you away the most. like I only half cared about you.

I just miss you. why did you have to go. why aren't you here?

light a match

godessalthena

:: 2020 3 May :: 11.37am

I'm not sure what it is that I'm feeling

I know I wish I could help, but I know that I can't

at least the view is beautiful

light a match

godessalthena

:: 2020 21 April :: 9.14pm

so sick of having a cycle. every month it's the same stupid feelings, same stupid insecurities.

just really homesick too. I'm lonely.

light a match

godessalthena

:: 2020 12 April :: 8.03am
:: Mood: utterly devastated

can it just be tomorrow?

I hate everything about today.

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godessalthena

:: 2020 11 April :: 8.16am

it's called free fall
I'm the noose mistaken for a necklace.

light a match

godessalthena

:: 2020 31 March :: 3.25pm

I just wish I had someone to talk to, who said more than just "ok" or nothing. I have animals for that.

this is why I don't trust anyone, or open up, or share. because people always just are hard like rocks or prickly like porcupines when literally all I want is a hug and for someone to say "I know how you feel, and I hope it gets better for both of us" and maybe idk.. actually try to relate to me? rather than just making me feel like an idiot for even trying to share.

light a match

godessalthena

:: 2020 25 March :: 11.55am

happy birthday

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godessalthena

:: 2020 23 March :: 3.38pm

I hate myself with every fiber of my being.

why are these decisions so hard?

light a match

godessalthena

:: 2020 13 March :: 12.43pm

I know my heart should guide me but,
There's a hole within my soul

What will fill this emptiness inside of me?
Am I to be satisfied without knowing?

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