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godessalthena

:: 2011 10 July :: 11.49pm

I don't know who I'm kidding imaging you care.

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godessalthena

:: 2011 10 July :: 3.21pm

You put yourself in stupid places, I think you know it's true. You put yourself in situations where it's easy to look down on you. I think you like to be the victim. I think you like to be in pain. I think you like to play the victim almost every single day.

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godessalthena

:: 2011 10 July :: 4.26am

Sometimes I run.. Sometimes I hide.. Sometimes I'm scared of you. But all I really want is to hold you tight, treat you right, be with you day and night..

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godessalthena

:: 2011 10 July :: 12.53am

Easily manipulated.
Readily the victim.
Stupid girl.

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godessalthena

:: 2011 9 July :: 7.18pm

Build me up, buttercup, don't let down..

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godessalthena

:: 2011 8 July :: 2.10pm

Nothing good.

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godessalthena

:: 2011 7 July :: 8.42pm

I miss the days when I still felt alive..

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godessalthena

:: 2011 6 July :: 5.34pm

I really just want to give up on my life.

I can't find meaning in nothing.

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godessalthena

:: 2011 6 July :: 2.00pm

Finally jaded. My heart has grown hard and cold. I don't know if I believe in fairy tales anymore. People cause pain.

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godessalthena

:: 2011 5 July :: 6.44pm

My girlfriend spoils me. She feeds me, let's me have all the pot I want, my own bed, any movie I want to watch, she let's me vent, she cares about how I feel. She takes me out to eat my favorite foots and gives me massages. She laughs at all my jokes and thinks I'm great. She likes my brutal honesty and she accepts me for who I am. She wants the best for me. She even offered me a room in her home if I need it.

She feels like my best friend. And I haven't known her for very long. But it's so nice to finally find someone like that. It's exactly what I need in my life right now.

She doesnt get jealous. She'll wait for me if I have to deal with other things. I feel like I always have somewhere safe and welcoming if shit hits the fan.

I get a mini vacation every other day.

And I give her butterflies :3

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godessalthena

:: 2011 4 July :: 2.47pm

I just want to give up. I'm done fighting. I'm done trying to be happy.

Life, you win. I'm just not cut out for you.. Or anyone else in my life for that matter.

I just wish for once I'd get what's coming to me.

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godessalthena

:: 2011 4 July :: 10.40am

Just once I'd really love....

But I don't deserve it.

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godessalthena

:: 2011 3 July :: 8.29pm

I just want to get fucked up and die.

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godessalthena

:: 2011 2 July :: 4.44pm

Hello.

I recently became aware that I am a heartless monster.

That is all.

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godessalthena

:: 2011 1 July :: 8.08pm

Will it ever end?

I'm feeling really disheartened. Disillusioned. I just want my old life back. I just want the last two years back. I feel a great injustice has been done to me and Sus. I feel like my life has been needlessly ruined.

And now we are both suffering more than ever. And all I want is tofeel loved and important. And that's all he wants too. But will we ever get back there? I feel so hopeless.

I honestly can't wait to have the apartment back. I can't wait to have the freedom to do whatever we want again. To not have to feed a deadbeat child trapped in a teenager's body.

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