Every living creature dies alone

Every living creature dies alone

:: 2015 8 August :: 1.03pm

it's such a beautiful day out. I've gotten a few things accomplished.

and as the dye soaks into my damaged hair I wonder if once it's done I'll feel it's childish and feel ashamed.

I hate getting older. this world is so oppressive.

will I let the rebel in me die?

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godessalthena

:: 2015 6 August :: 7.52pm

sometimes, it feel better to just give in.

I want to let the dark consume me. I want to cry.

I want to feel my soul crush under the weight of desolate isolation.

it was so comforting. I miss that.

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godessalthena

:: 2015 5 August :: 10.14am

Everything's so blurry
And everyone's so fake
And everybody's empty
And everything is so messed up
Preoccupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone
You could be my scene
You know that I'll protect you
From all of the obscene
I wonder what you're doing
Imagine where you are
There's oceans in between us
But that's not very far

Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
Well you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
Well you shoved it in my face

Everyone is changing
There's no one left that's real
So make up your own ending
And let me know just how you feel
Cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

And you could be my someone
You could be my scene
You know that I will save you
From all of the unclean
I wonder what you're doing
I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us
But that's not very far

Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
Well you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
Well you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me

Nobody told me what you thought
Nobody told me what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn
Told you when to run away
Nobody told you where to hide
Nobody told you what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn
Showed you when to run away

Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
Well you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
Well you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me

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godessalthena

:: 2015 4 August :: 9.53am

I love collecting secrets. it's one of those little joys in life.

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godessalthena

:: 2015 3 August :: 8.15pm

achievement unlocked: obtain a bachelor's degree.

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1 perfect
57 great
I can't stop crying buckets of tears

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godessalthena

:: 2015 3 August :: 4.48pm

I have never felt smaller than when I stood on the glacier

and pretty words are just that - pretty words. they mean nothing with out action.

but truths, as everything else in life, are merely constructs from our perception. highly subjective and singular.

I can see lazy dragons hanging in the sky. lethargic leviathans drifting until they dissipate. tails drifting into the sunset...

someday I'll be the rain falling on a wedding.

someday I'll be the earth for new life to spring forth.

or maybe this is all a dream and we all awaken to a new world after it ends.

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godessalthena

:: 2015 1 August :: 6.02pm

maybe it is true... once you go black you don't go back.

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godessalthena

:: 2015 1 August :: 12.12pm

I had a missed connection.. I hope he reads CL

Read more..

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godessalthena

:: 2015 1 August :: 6.30am

it is an ungodly hour to be awake on a Saturday.

I might die.. if I do.. please tell my dogs I don't love them anymore and I'm never coming back. that'll help them mourn.

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godessalthena

:: 2015 29 July :: 9.15pm

I have a lot of love to give.

but no body wants to take it.

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godessalthena

:: 2015 28 July :: 8.03am

I feel guilty for not trusting an old dirty rat.

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godessalthena

:: 2015 27 July :: 9.48am

insomnia fucking blows

I'm so incredibly tired and stiff and creaky

I just wanna pass the fuck out and sleep forever

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godessalthena

:: 2015 23 July :: 5.15pm
:: Mood: cute

Zoe told me she thinks it's cute how I talk about all the people I sleep with as if they were all my boyfriends. that they aren't just a means to an end. she likes how different I feel about them, like when I feel like I'm in love or just enjoy the motion of the ocean.

it made me feel good about myself

I'm convinced I'm bi polar. they've suspected it for a long time, but this past year has really made it clear. I'm not sure if it's just worse or if my depression has morphed, or maybe I'm just changing. I am coming out of my "manic" phase. I'm started to go into my depressive phase. I'm hoping that I can learn to curb my actions to fit with my cycles because I don't want any more pills.

the dentist said he wished he came across more teeth like mine. that made me feel good too.

things are changing. my future looks financially shitty. but right now, I feel like it's all going to be ok. it'll all work out, things will fall into place as long as I'm good and work hard.

I don't like adulting. but adulting must be done.

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godessalthena

:: 2015 21 July :: 9.44pm

What's done to children, they will do to society.
- Karl A. Menninger

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godessalthena

:: 2015 21 July :: 6.41am

I'm about to be buried for the rest of my life.

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