Dude, It's a hard life

:: 2004 25 February :: 9.57pm
:: Mood: indifferent
:: Music: Relient K...haha

So whats been going on...
wow lots of stuff...k hmm saturday had a piano competition...uhh got superior and going to state...yea! was planning on going to heather's surprise party but got stuck in orlando- wish i couldve been there heather! so sunday...finally got my car!!!! 98 Honda Accord-lightish gold color...hehe i love it!
-This week..yea def has been not one of the best ones...4 exams tuesday-pretty much did real bad on all of them...got my economics test back today- that was just laughable ive never done so bad on a test before...that one will go in travis and cody's collection of "heather's bad grades" that they plan on looking at whenever theyre feeling bad..okk dude everyone is turning 16...we're all growing up ::tear:: This whole growing up process is going wayy to fast though...i mean 7 days...wow i miss being small enough to curl up in my mom's lap...
Relient K concert this weekend...woop woop hopefully we get a bus so we can go and it all works out...Jeff said he might take us to Cornerstone in May...that would be truly amazing...some great bands playing there... Softball game in Deland Friday...i gotta find a way to get back to Creek to see them play Seabreeze... ;)
Lifes been incredibly overwhelming and stressful...not quite sure why maybe cause of softball ::shrug::...i promise guys i will get back to normal- but for now ill apologize for acting different!

Missing...

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:: 2004 19 February :: 9.46pm
:: Mood: thoughtful...

think...
Beat Mainland like 37-3 today...haha rock on creek...varsity baseball game tomorrow :)!!

~!Just some thoughts!~
Have you ever...

1)sat and just thought about what ur doing in life and if its how u should be living in it
2)stood in a storm and felt the drops of rain drip down ur face
3)sang on the beach
4)fallin for someone too fast
5)felt a special connection between u and a that significant other...
6)had your first kiss
7)wished for someone u could never have
8)laughed till u were crying
9)felt as if a friendship was being hindered by something or someone
10)wanted to know what its like to be in love...
11)wished u were a lil kid with no problems
12)wanted to be a bum and eat animal crackers for the rest of ur life...(that would probablly be only me lol)
13)made the realization that a life without God is empty
14)gone a whole day without frowning
15)felt as if everything was perfect...
16)wished u could be someone else
17)wanted to reveal something to someone but couldnt...

Most of those yes, i have experienced...
+add more...

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:: 2004 16 February :: 8.21pm
:: Mood: loved...
:: Music: yellowcard-back home

::sigh::
i love it when people tell me something that actually means a lot to me and puts a great big grin on my face...it makes me feel like im doing something right...

New screen name: xheathbonex :)

~!Thank you...!~

:: 2004 15 February :: 9.49pm
:: Mood: wayy tired...

blahness...
~!babysat-long and tiring... but the kids are so cute...yeaa
~!Tomorrow a day with chels and panera...should be good!
~!Sometimes i wish i could get the me, out of my insides
~!I want someone to fall for...but i want it to be the right person that will want a long relationship...this could take awhile to find...

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:: 2004 7 February :: 3.47pm
:: Mood: immensely tired....
:: Music: Yellowcard- uhh whatever # 3 is...

Its all about the game...
Last night went to the Kanon concert at Riverbend...lots of people from la escuela were there...it was mucho divertido...spent the night at mandy's and had to get up at dang 8'o clock for softball...so was at the fields till like 12 and then went to clean up the math competition...me and mandy raced to see who could clean the fastest...she def won...we got done early so we were waiting for mi madre watching the math kids roll pennies down the halls...we got scared and decided to walk to wal mart lol now im finally home...and need a nap...but have tons of chores to do....and probably homework that im not doing....
Feb.28th- Relient K- Audio Adrenaline concert and others in Lakeland...meeting at my church at 3...u should go...even if u think theyre horrible good times will be had...

*Have u ever noticed how many people have names that are the months of the year...april, may, june...im gunna name my daughter november...and nickname her novvy...hahaha okkk*

:: 2004 27 January :: 10.01pm
:: Mood: i dont want a mood...
:: Music: Casting Crowns-Voice of Truth

:/
a lil boy named marc thomas came to my door...he wanted ms. heather so he could give her the lil kite that he made his babysitter... that lil kid made my day....

i spent all day riding on the emotional swing...by no means was it fun....

i could tell myself 700 X70 times that i dont care, but i think i would still be lying to myself...

sometimes i get lost in my own world, a world where i am you. and i can have what u do...a world so few get to experience...

i want that...but im stuck here...watching from a distance...

*And the voice of truth, says do not be afraid*

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:: 2004 23 January :: 7.16pm
:: Mood: ::shrug::

:)
So...I made it...

I might be the worst one out there but ill run my butt off...

I def. need improvement...(thats what mandy's boot camps at 9 in the morning are for)

It'll be fun to be apart of a team...

I'm out of shape...

Life will indeed be stressed with this...

Oh well....

:: 2004 21 January :: 9.45pm

a night full of non-stop smiles and laughs...good times were definently had...

:: 2004 18 January :: 4.11pm
:: Mood: amused...
:: Music: Seventh Star...hahaha

Today in church...
98 Freightliner Semi-Truck
14000ft/lbs of torque
7 tons of power
a steal for $134,000!!!
Jesse was bored today in church...i told him before that he better find me a car...so this is what he came up with...he is so goin to get me in trouble in church one of these days, i laugh so hard everytime i sit next to him im surprised i dont get slapped by the people around me...
*batting cages in PO
*drove around town with mi padre
its been an amusing day...

Tonight at 8- TheDigProject at CPC...if u have nothing to do tonight come listen to these guys...i have no idea if theyre good but i would be pretty bored now so im going...

necestio un coche...

:: 2004 12 January :: 6.52pm
:: Mood: ::headache::
:: Music: The Insyderzs

dumm diddy dumm...
Amazing Grace how sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
Once was lost but now am found
once was blind but now i see
hallelujah...

Never say good bye, know that saying that is to final, just say so long...for one day..in a place we can only imagine...will we meet once again...

Didnt go to softball today...im bad i know but my wrist is killing me...school is alright i guess...as long as i have my friends there making me laugh ill be fine...haha chels "Through out my whole life, i have never had to pay for oxygen!" oh wow...yea u know u liked that...hopefully go carting or movies saturday woop woop! gummy bears in ice cream...good times!

Keep ur chin up kiddo...life can seem so cruel at times but we'll make it...

*!~U rock my socks...(which are underneath my rad shoes with green laces :) hahaha)

:: 2004 9 January :: 10.34pm
:: Mood: trying to laugh...

nod and smile...and act like u know what im talking about...
All...I am muzunked...only radderestestisterestness people can achieve the honor of being muzunked...that is all...

:: 2004 8 January :: 8.00pm
:: Mood: confused...
:: Music: not my guiatrgjf...haha mandy...

its bugging me but i dont know what it is...
i did my math hw after school on a rock...
we got left at school..mandys mom forgot about us... piano tonight...learning how to play jazz so i can learn how to play with the jazz band at school woop woop! coffee this morning :) woohoo yea that woke me up...school...same dang thing every single urgh day...besides now i have economics to fail...grand! softball try outs are one day soon...urhghgh joy to the world...mandy i played sissy ball to long im really bad lol
I bought cookie dough from a baseball player today...he wouldnt shut up till i did...now i owe him 12 bucks... well i have nothing to write about...spilling what im thinking about would include knowing what im thinking but i dont know...not at all...im bugged about something...one day i will figure this out... maybe im just tired about life...i want like a lil monkey to stick in my head and take all my problems and sort them out for me...why a monkey...porque...

We are so the radderestitest mandy...haha dude im so pattening that word...

:: 2004 4 January :: 4.27pm
:: Mood: simple...
:: Music: Switchfoot- Dare you to Move

...
church this morning...
car looking this afternoon...
movies tonight...
school in one day...harsh...

Without music my life would be very hollow...each day i am surrounded by all sorts of music...ever just sit in the dark and listen to the lyrics of these songs...i do it all the time...music adds to life whether just listening to it or actually playing it...yea whateva thought id just share that...

!~* is there something wrong with me...do i not say the right things...do i not look the way im supossed to...do u look at me different because of my beliefs...
its who i am...
as a new year starts i hope to improve somethings in my life...