Dude, It's a hard life

:: 2003 16 November :: 3.09pm
:: Mood: hehe...whateva

God doesnt like Malibus...
Dude...what a day...started off with church...a group of us sang in church...wow we were bad...it was quite funny...then i had this choir practice after church and then a group of us were gunna go to lunch but mi familia decided we were gunna go out in the boat...sooo get home and go to get the boat out of the garage and took 20 min to get it out cause we almost kept hitting the wall...finally get it out take it to Lk. Dias get there and wait for some guy to back his stupid boat out...another 15 min...get the boat in the water and everyones on...umm try starting the boat up and decides that no...it doesnt want to work today... the motor would not turn over...ahhhhh so i jumped out in the 60 degree water and pulled it back ashore...and no one had jumper cables i offered to go ask some hicks sitting at the picnic tables with a 12 pack of beer if they had any but decided better not...i think fate didnt want us to go...oh well something else humerous...i open up the bulletin at church and under the offering for tonights service is my name for playing the piano...wouldnt it have been nice if they told me!!!! so i have to go learn a song for tonight..fun i wanna go watch jah-mez, scotty b. , and matt jam...it be funny..haha well i guess this ends another weekend...and starts another endless week of school...-Matthew 6: 19-24-
*Some people are meant not to be more than friends...*
One last piece of string of hope...still survives but the scissors are poised...ready to destroy it...

:: 2003 16 November :: 3.07pm
:: Mood: hehe

Your soul is bound to the White Rose: The
Pure.

"I've been waiting in the dark for a long
time, shining my beacon of hope through the
shadow. If you see me, don't you hide your
eyes from me."

The White Rose is associated with purity, honor,
and chastity. It is governed by the goddess
Artemis and its sign is The Cross, or Agape.

As a White Rose, you are a person of your word.
You may have a strong moral code, but
regardless of your virtue, you always stay true
to yourself. To you, love is the most pure of
emotional forms and it's just a matter of
waiting for it to bless you. Some people may
say you are too idealistic, but it's only
because you don't want to mess things up.

What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
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:: 2003 15 November :: 7.38pm
:: Mood: ecstatic
:: Music: Dogwood-Absolution

Smiling as big as a rhino's butt...
It's days like these...that remind me that life really isnt that bad and to enjoy every second of it...One of those days that makes getting up tomorrow, not seem all that bad...

:: 2003 14 November :: 4.04pm
:: Mood: giggly
:: Music: Something Corporate-Fall

Another week gone...
Survived another week of high school drama-dang but was it a stressful one or what...2 many essays and assignments due!! ahh! Well im defiently going to the county fair tonight..woop woop i wanna go to the WAEF and Runner Up concert 2...hmm Dude im learning binary and french fluently so i can understand these crazy text messages and locker notes i keep getting left :P Homework load isnt 2 insane this weekend...I'm goin to chill in the hammock...*I Love this weather*

so i fall
i don't wanna feel this small
you know i just can't handle this
handle this at all
and i'll just fall
i'll let my heartbeat drop
i falter as the music stops
and you watch me as stall
and wonder when i fall <3

:: 2003 12 November :: 10.08pm
:: Mood: umm...blessed?
:: Music: Can i get a revolution...woop woop

Getting it back on track...
dang we were singing this song at church tonight about you are the reason and Jeff kinda told us to just think about the times u thank God for all that he does...even for crappy days and i was like wo i dont really do that anymore...which i hate...i mean all those people who went on FITS came back u know all pumped up about Christ and we come back here to the real world and we all kinda forget about everything...i need that "high" that i had at FITS again...Jeff we are indeed in need of a road trip :) the question also came up...who has the biggest youth group...when u think about it...its satan...think of all the non-believers and people sinning everyday so in a way he does have the biggest...yea...
Short people freakin rock...lol
Mandy...hope u feel better hun!
*Wish i wasnt ticklish*

:: 2003 11 November :: 8.07pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Supertones

Screw tree huggers...?
FINALLLLLY finished my stupid friggin paper for dang history...it was like 1018 words...freakin 2 1/2 pages for the atheist tree hugger...thats a whole crap load of words that i didnt want to write... dude i got this mouthpiece/retainer thing today wow does it suck or what...i talk like an idiot with it in...
all of us that are failing english are gunna go see Macbeth at seabreeze...knowing mandy she'll find a way for us to get kicked out...haha JK!
*Elli's my favorite weightlifter...she shares her lil debbies :) <3
It's pretty bad when u try to skip keyboarding everyday cause ur afraid ur teacher will eat u...hahaha :O

:: 2003 10 November :: 9.38pm
:: Mood: stressed
:: Music: Something Corporate

Indeed...
I love this weather...thunderstorms are perfect sleeping weather...i want to go walk on the beach in the rain...isnt that picture perfect scene always of a couple walking hand in hand on the beach when it starts to rain and they look up at each other and stare deeply into each others eyes and share the most romantic kiss ever...okk way to much time spent thinking about things like that...they never happen like in the movies...darn...today was a better day...still stressed but thats what happens when ur an idiot butt...haha
Sleep and weekends are truly a blessing...
All u Riverbend guys...im coming to that all nighter thing again.. someone from there called to tell me about it...should be awesome again...yup
*I need you like, water like breath like rain*

:: 2003 9 November :: 5.38pm
:: Mood: moody
:: Music: Dashboard Confessional-Hands Down

Screw it...
AUrghghg...yea thats exactly what im feeling...do i need a crying shoulder...yea and maybe a wall to punch...
I'm so tired of homework and school...i think i say that in every jounal entry oh but how true it is...i need something else besides school to do...to focus my thoughts on and just forget about all the other dang stress...
i drove to my moms school today and while she was working i practiced parking...i hate driving now...cant wait to get my lisence because of the freedom...but still im a horrible driver lol i have to write a 2 pg paper from a muslims point of view now...grand
*What do you believe?*

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:: 2003 8 November :: 9.25am
:: Mood: groggy
:: Music: Five Iron Frenzy-Every New Day

2 Early...
Always in my eyes

Look into my eyes
And you will see
The udying love
that i have inside me
And all the hard times that i go through
I just close my eyes
and i see you
the blistering sun
shining down in its grace
And when i shield my eyes
i just see your face
And when im alone
its a pain i cant bear
But i always know
when i close my eyes, you will be there
-Scott Hughes

*So todays the big garage sale in Hunters Ridge... gunna go look around in a sec...babysitting tonight i guess...Gator game later...woop woop...*
*Remember even if we dont talk or hang out as much anymore...our paths have lead us different ways..im goin to be here always, ready to listen to u if u need a friend*

:: 2003 7 November :: 4.42pm
:: Mood: giddy

It's finally...
FRIDAY!!!! man do i live for the weekends or what...hehe i just made brownies...were all watching Finding Nemo tonight here and then going bowling..call if ud like to join us...so i have a crap load of hw to do this weekend...fun fun im willing to be a rebel and blow it off if u find me something exciting do...lol :) i fell asleep in history and english today...soo boring! around 3rd period i was sitting there and i all i wanted to do was go walk on the beach or go out in the boat anything other than school...its so un-rad lol later guys...<3!!!

*Do ur toes curl up when u kiss that special someone...?*

:: 2003 6 November :: 9.08pm
:: Mood: deep...

stole this...
wow i really liked this...the amazingly romantic Scotty Hughes wrote it...

Time tells a tale of passion
A fruit of exsistence spouts its seed
And gives birth to a new meaning in life
Setting off a chain reaction of love and lust
Breaking and rebuilding hearts on the way
Time will set the path
The road to walk
And the tale will tell

I was impressed...

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:: 2003 6 November :: 8.40pm
:: Mood: JuMpY...

wOoP WoOp
Wow what a night...Chels me and u definently gotta do that more often...goood times...walking through the parking lot they proabably thought we were drunk....oh well lol we're rebels...tehehe think that was one of the most exciting Thursdays night ive ever had...

*I miss...*
coloring at school, not having stress, being able to wear clothes that never matched, playing on the playground, not worrying about every stupid lil thing, life being simple, the way my self esteem soared when "he" would tell me i was beautiful, my Nana, being able to enjoy school, being in choir at church lol, not having emotional breakdowns and not having any hw...ok ok im done sounds like i miss everything in life...but i really dont...
straight chillin right now after a crazy night driving around with Chels and i have no hw so its pretty nice...going bowling tomorrow havent been in freakin forever...itll be great...

:: 2003 5 November :: 9.48pm
:: Mood: Havent decided yet...
:: Music: silence of my house

Forget it...
U ever considered crawling up in a ball throwing a paper bag over ur head and living ur whole life like that...ok maybe im crazy but i have... i mean it can be a cruel world...but u know u what its not worth it...life is indeed insane so many people shooting different signals at u...but if u hid under ur bag all ur life u would miss all the joys of life along with the annoyances...i mean ud miss all the laughter and joy with ur friends, the relationships, the broken hearts, the emotions, the stress, the way that one person looks at u, the smiles :)..alright u might be thinkin wow this girl is one cheesy dork haha i dont care...lol Life is just...going alright i guess in a crazzyy kinda way...yea done with that...had church tonight..wow we did nada...wish i could play the guitar real well watching those guys just sit there and bust out all these songs...it kills me...dude amanda i want my guitar back girl!! lol think im getting sick...urgh! Seabreeze's homecoming saturday...have fun guys...even if i could get snuck in i dont think id go...ehh ::shrugs:: who knows... *Sweet Dreams* What do u think...nothing makes sense anymore...its all jumbled and such...

:: 2003 4 November :: 9.48pm

Waterfall

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