Once Upon A Dream

:: 2005 29 June :: 6.44pm

Stuff...skip down and look at the picture(s)!
I'm sick and lonely and my brother has been on the computer all day.

I finally got online, hopped on the messenger and what did I see?

Every single person that was actually online was "away". Minus Joe "cell phone" f0x0rz.

Sob.

Katie dyed her hair! It's sexy hot!

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Here's a random picture of Nick and Ben that ~~either~~ Katie ~~or I~~ took at Ben's house. This was before they killed us. My man is the cute frustrated one in the background who wants to be a ninja turtle. That other one is Ben. Ha. I less than three you, Ben.

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Yeah. That's it.

I love you all.

P.S. You know I'm sick when I don't use proper grammar or spell things correctly. And I don't care.

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:: 2005 28 June :: 1.42pm

My sister and I got these bears from IKEA when we were in Chicago.

Mine is blue.

Being the dorks that we are, we gave them very geeky names.

Mine is named Bjarni Herjolfsson.

Hannah's is named Ingvar after the guy who made IKEA.

Yeah, we rock.

:: 2005 27 June :: 10.53pm

I am sick.

I feel weak and am constantly out of it.

I have an uber sore throat.

It started Friday night.

Now my ear hurts. I want to cry, it hurts bad.

I'm trying sleep a lot so I can get better fast.

I hope none of you get sick.

I'm going to go get water and drugs.

I love you all.

:: 2005 26 June :: 11.03pm

And I quote:
"that is sex in a box thingie thing"

:: 2005 26 June :: 2.29pm

If my name was Kyle, I would seriously not explore this site.
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:: 2005 25 June :: 6.47pm
:: Mood: upset

I know it's hard to believe but I bombed the interview. I know you think I didn't and blah blah but you don't know.

Seriously. You don't know.

I did.

The first thing my mom said was "You shouldn't have told her about school." My dad said the same thing. I hate it. I know. I know. I'm sorry I told the truth. I messed up and I don't need you telling me.

At least when I cried in front of my mom, she didn't tell me to stop being a baby like my dad did.

I made the mistake of telling the truth. Unlike every other employee at Compulit, including Nick, I did not lie.

She wanted people who can work for longer than three months because those three months are training.

I told the truth. No, I can't work for at least three months. I have school in August and there's no way I can balance school and a full time job with mandatory overtime.

Oh, also, I don't have my driver's license. I can get to work but I don't have the ID you want.

I told the truth.

Why? I don't know. I could've just as easily lied to her face like everyone else working there at 9 something an hour but I didn't.

I hate lying and I felt guilty as hell.

She didn't want to take the risk. I didn't even get to fill out the application, much less go into the two hour long testing process.

Because I suck and I told the truth.

And I feel awful about it.

cowboy67

:: 2005 24 June :: 7.00pm

it's kind of like frankenstein having the cover of pride and prejudice.

what do you think?

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:: 2005 24 June :: 3.19pm

Bombed the interview because Catholic guilt kicked in and I told the truth.

:: 2005 24 June :: 11.11am

I have a job interview today at 1:30. I'm nervous.

It's at Compulit. Nick got a job there and his first day was last night.

Oh and I'd have to work third shift with Nick if I want a ride.

My mom says there's no reason I won't get the job. I'm an uber fast typist and I can maneuver on the computer fast enough that she has no idea what I'm doing.

Wish me luck.

cowboy67

:: 2005 22 June :: 12.59am

fine!
since the chicago tribune website is being a fool, here's the article i wanted you guys to see:

Billy Corgan wants his Pumpkins back

Published June 21, 2005

Fresh on the heels of the release of his first solo album, "TheFutureEmbrace," Chicago rocker Billy Corgan says he's breathing new life into an old dream: The Smashing Pumpkins.

In a full-page advertisement in today's Chicago Tribune marking the release of the new CD, Corgan says, "For a year now I have walked around with a secret, a secret I chose to keep. But now I want you to be among the first to know that I have made plans to renew and revive The Smashing Pumpkins. I want my band back, and my songs, and my dreams."

The Smashing Pumpkins broke up in 2000 after playing a final gig at The Metro. The band racked up record sales (more than 25 million, with 1995's "Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness" selling 4.7 million in the U.S.) and critical acclaim (two Grammys and several nominations) in a relatively short time; their debut album, "Gish," was released in 1991.

The Pumpkins have a tumultuous history. The band's lineup included drummer Jimmy Chamberlin, guitarist James Iha, bassist D'Arcy Wretzky and Corgan; Wretzky left after recording "Machina" in 2000, with former Hole bassist Melissa auf der Maur filling her spot in the tour, and Corgan has blamed Iha in postings on his Web site for breaking up the band.

After the breakup, Corgan and Chamberlin put together the rock quintet Zwan, which imploded in 2003 after only one album.

"TheFutureEmbrace" is set for release Tuesday.

:: 2005 19 June :: 5.32pm
:: Music: Jeremy Lister - Half of Me is Gone

The day before today and today
Yesterday, Nick showed up at my house at around 6 in the morning because he couldn't sleep and he was worried about me. He kept trying to get my attention by throwing stuff at my window and I can honestly say that I heard it but thought it was in my dream.

He finally got in when my dad left for work around 7:30 and woke me up. He brought me a rose and a bow. I love bows. We went to the living room and slept on the couch.

We woke up every once in a while, I finally got up at noon or 1ish and went on the computer. I let him sleep.

We went to Katie's open house around 4:30. It was pretty awesome.

At Katie's, Nick's sister called and asked if he and Ben wanted to play Risk. Ben had church in the morning so he wasn't really up to it. It was around midnight-thirty then.

Nick was just going to take me home but then his sister called again to see if he would just come. Maybe I said something or he did but either way I ended up calling my mom and asking if I could stay out later to go play Risk. She said it was alright.

I'd never played Risk before. I was really tired and had no idea what I was doing so everyone let me lose and I slept on Katti (Nick's sister) and Oliver (Nick's sister's man)'s couch for a bit while everyone else finished the game.

It was around 5 in the morning when the game was over.

Nick mentioned that he didn't feel like driving home and didn't want to wake up Ben by going to Ben's house. He asked jokingly if it'd be okay if he slept on the couch at my house.

So we went to my house, I went inside and asked Mom if it was alright if Nick slept on the couch. She said yes even before I launched into my excuse (he was exhausted and I was worried about him driving home being as tired as he was).

At 6, I finally went to sleep in my own comfy bed. Nick slept on the couch in the living room and apparently he slept well and didn't wake up at all. His explaination for this rare occurance was very cute.

We hung out for a little bit, ate breakfast, layed on the couch together and he left around 4 to see his parents.

I think my mom likes Nick. Which rocks because I was nervous about that. She even said that if he can't make rent at the place he's moving into and his parents won't take him in that she'll make room for him at our house.

I love you all.

:: 2005 17 June :: 5.42pm

Why don't people tell me these things?
I'm proud of the fact that I don't know anything about the people in the bands I listen to. I like that I don't know where they were born or what their favorite color is.

But I'd really like to know that they're alive, at least.

And apparently Elliott Smith is not. And has not been for a year and a half.

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:: 2005 17 June :: 2.39am

I made oodles of friends in WoW today.

OODLES.

I love it when people don't believe that you're a chick.

What? Girls playing a video/computer game? INCONCEIVABLE!

Except there's more drooling and stuttering.

Ha.

I love you all.

:: 2005 16 June :: 8.15pm

I love optical illusions
You have got to see this. Ignore that technical jazz on the side and just look at the plus sign in the middle. There's this empty patch that rotates to each purple dot and makes them disappear. After awhile, that patch will turn to a green dot as your eyes do some cool stuff.

THEN THE COOLEST PART HAPPENS!

The purple dots disappear and the green dot is the only thing left.

Seriously, it's smurfing sweet.

I love you all.