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2005 29 September :: 4.20pm
I am so pissed right now.
Here I am, sitting alone.. once again.
Every day I either sleep or watch tv. What a fucking life.
Auditions went terrible. If I do get a part I don't even deserve it, even though I know for sure it'll be a small role with no lines, if I get one at all. I'm just not a good actress. Bah.
Anyway, you'd think after we don't talk for a day, and fight the ones before he'd want to spend time with me, but nooo. I'm not someone to miss. I'm just a bitch who's always pissed off. Someone he can't have fun with or be himself around. I just have to accept that I can't make him happy and let him be happy somewhere else.
I don't have a car, all my friends have jobs and lifes!
But do I? Of course not.
My whole family is STUPID. Seriously.. what I am dealing with at home right now is bullshit. Complete bullshit.
I know I've said this a million times and over and over, but..
I. Just. Want. To. Be. Happy.
Is that ever going to happen?
I doubt it.
Not here, not now.
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2005 29 September :: 6.21am
:: Music: Death Cab for Cutie
Perfect fit.
Holding on to your grudge.
Oh, it's so hard to have someone to love,
and keeping quiet is hard
'cause you can't keep a secret
if it never was a secret to start.
We're concentrating on falling apart.
We were contenders, now we're throwing the fights.
I just want to believe...I just want to believe..I just want to believe..in us.
You're holding on to your grudge,
Oh, it hurts to always have to be honest with the one that you love.
Brand New - Okay I Believe You, But My Tommy Gun Don't
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2005 28 September :: 9.09pm
I'm at Sam's house right now.
Practice was stupid since it was raining the whole time and then Elyse thought it would be hilarious to pance me in front of all the guys and I was wearing Brianna's shorts that are about 10 times too big so I'm pretty sure I don't like everyone seeing my ass lol but oh well.
So then after that we went to my house but I got into a fight with my mom so I left. It was the dumbest fight ever and someone went into my room and took my phone charger and then I yelled at everyone and their like "oh well we didn't take it". Nooo..they didn't take it, thats why last night and today I charged my phone in MY room next to MY bed where my phone charger always has been and then it just goes M.I.A. Yeah--okay someones magic around here. Right.
My mom was like "do you need lunch money?" and I was like "no, I'm going to starve" and I slammed the door and left with Sam. I don't know why but I flipped out on my family but I'm in a sucky mood tonight.
I'm soaking wet from practice so I should get going.
Ashley
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2005 28 September :: 3.33pm
I trust you, more than I ever have before and that's something that doesn't happen often. Somehow I actually believe you and I don't care what anyone says/thinks. I'm happy about how I feel.
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2005 28 September :: 6.42am
Give me one good day before I disappear.
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2005 27 September :: 5.45pm
haha omg that was the funniest thing I think I've ever read on woohu. Some people just crack me up.
I'm at Lisa's with Emily. We just went and chased her sheep. It was fun and we cornered them. How mean are we!?! I don't even know if I spelt that right but who cares.
But I was planning on writing more but we have to leave for practice.
Love Always,
Ashley
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2005 27 September :: 3.55pm
Why do I even fucking bother?
It's always about you.
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2005 27 September :: 6.45am
The past..
I'll be the first to admit..
I am so fucked up and ruined.
And it's not my fault.
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2005 26 September :: 10.00pm
Okay that was probably the most akward moment of my life....really it was.
And I don't even think I deserve you. I had my chance and I definately didn't take it and now I feel bad for what I did to you. I chose someone else over you, when I never should have and now I have to find some way of getting back what I lost.
And I better go before I say something that gives away too much info and before I say something I regret, which I often do.
Goodnight. Laguna Beach is calling my name.
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2005 26 September :: 6.18am
:: Music: Death Cab for Cutie
I have the most insane boyfriend in the world..
but, I love him.
I know he's made a lot of mistakes and I hope I can say there will be no more (big ones at least) and actually be right this time.
He has a huge heart and I need it to be mine.
We got our rings. They are nice and simple.
They simply signify we won't do anything to hurt one another in a big way.
Sorry, I'm just rambling about things none of you care to hear.
I hate school.
But, I love hot chocolate. Mmmm.
>>Edit
Oh, and if you're a BOB DYLAN fan like I and have been waiting pathetically the 'No Direction Home' movie is on tonight at 9pm on PBS.
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2005 24 September :: 12.05pm
I love these lyrics.
I cannot pretend that I felt any regret
Cause each broken heart will eventually mend
As the blood runs red down the needle and thread
Someday you will be loved
You'll be loved you'll be loved
Like you never have known
The memories of me
Will seem more like bad dreams
Just a series of blurs
Like I never occurred
Someday you will be loved
You may feel alone when you're falling asleep
And everytime tears roll down your cheeks
But I know your heart belongs to someone you've yet to meet
Someday you will be loved
Death Cab for Cutie - Someday You Will Be Loved
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2005 24 September :: 11.35am
I really can't stand you anymore.
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2005 24 September :: 10.31am
:: Music: Death Cab for Cutie
Most of you don't need to read this so fuck off.
Oh my God. The new Death Cab for Cutie CD is so amazing.
You were right Matt, it's very close to Transatlanticism. I don't know which is better. Never thought I'd say that..
New layout!
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2005 24 September :: 9.10am
Who is going to the pageant tonight?
I need to shower somewhere, haha. My dad is working on the shower and failed to tell me I can't take one until this morning. Laaaame.
Oh and Mishy..Tomato! Pickle! Apple! Let's play that little crackle!
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2005 23 September :: 6.25am
I'm sick.
I think I am allergic to school.. no wait ECON!
Burn in hell you bitch.
This sums it up..
So sick, so sick of being tired and oh, so tired of being sick.-TBS
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2005 22 September :: 5.51pm
MISHY:
Are you free tomorrow after school? I'd like to work on drama and glorify Hitler!
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2005 22 September :: 6.43am
I can't go to the pageant. I am very dissapointed about it. I like watching those kind've things. *sigh* Ah well, I hope someone at least records it.
Anyway, things were going good. Keep in mind were.
I don't understand it.
I don't like it.
And I really don't know what to do.
But, whatever. I guess I'm just not perfect enough.
Well, I better finish getting ready. Three weeks in and I all ready want the year to end.
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2005 21 September :: 10.53pm
October 14th @ 8pm IM ON SALE!!!
Morning Star bitches. its a man auction...like a bacholer thing but less dressy and so much hotter. so please ladies come bid on me or at least be there to make me feel like im hott...cause god knows ima need it. SO SERIOUSLY PELASE COME I WANT YOU TO BID ON THIS HOTT PIECE OF ASS HERE.
i really hope you guys show up. come on you know you want to.
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2005 20 September :: 5.30pm
Hey. I'm at Lisa's with Emily waiting so we can go to practice :S
We are watching Holiday In The Sun to prepare ourselves for the Bahamas since in the movie they are at Atlantis! We are going to watch it everyday for like a week straight before we go. It will be awesome.
Anyways I have to go get ready.
Love Always, <33
Ashley
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2005 20 September :: 6.34am
I know things get tough.. real tough.
But, I care about you more than you know. Even if I don't always say it or show it, just realize that I do.
You should be used to me by now.
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