:: 2003 30 October :: 10.05 am
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: breathe

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:: 2003 29 October :: 4.49 pm
:: Mood: ecstatic

HIM!!
Dude...he is awesome! I was talking to him on the phone and we got to know eachother soo damn well. It's great, seriously really great. He loves to write like me. He read me some of his poems that he wrote. Holy mother of pearl ! He's a lil shakespeare! lol. I'm soo glad I stayed at FMHS, he makes it more anjoyable expecially in 1st period...Cough, nudge, wink!!! lol. I can talk to him for hours....
He told me something that is soo damn sweet today when we had to go to 3rd period...sigh..it's great

Today I wanted to be a neato kind of gal that I can be, so I went to Economics to get Amanda and Anne outta class. I was just like I have to interview them for like 15 minutes... )(i have newspaper by the way and i get to go n e where)( So BAM they got outta class b/c of me. He came along too.... So we were just talking and stuff. Then Anne had to go to the bathroom to wash her hands and so we walked her to the girls bathrooms and he went in there too! Amanda and I were like ahhhh.... and he just said I do it all the time. lol. It was soo awkward for Anne I bet. I love him, he's soo TubULAR!
Maybe on friday we'll go to the movies at Coralwood. Woo! Finally it opened! It looks kind of cool inside but still korny looking.

Ok, I have to go and do spanish HW..O by the way I failed 2 tests today..o well!

AndI

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:: 2003 26 October :: 7.03 pm
:: Mood: Crazii!!!

Saturday_Sunday..my Weekend!!
..:*:..Saturday..:*:..
I woke up at 4:45 in the AM!!! Reason? I self-consiently )(however u spell it)( put on my alarm clock! eh...I went back to sleep till Brandan called me at 8 AM! The doosch! hehe. Well he called to make sure where he is gonna pick me up for homecoming and all that goods. I got up after that and got ready for drum lessons at 10:30 am. After that I went to House of Drums and set up my future lessons there in december. Then I got home around 12:30 and got ready to go the the hair style place. 2 hours it took to do my friggin hair. I looked like goldie locks i swear, but then I messed w/ it myself and changed it to look better....
I left my house and went to Carabba's. Awesome place. Brandan surprised me there. He bought me a corsage!! It was white roses. Well he met all my friends that were there. He was just like blonde 1, blonde 2, burnette 5..lol. Everyone loved him.
He's friend was w/ him too, Phil, our mascot!! lol . Amanda hit it off great w/ him. I teased her about Mike. I was like remember that Asian?? she was like No i don't recall. lol. Later me, her, phil and brandan went in brandan's car to harbor side. It was such a dandy ride. I wanted kelsy to hook up w/ him not amanda but o well...
When we got there we discovered that PHil can't dance for shizznet! lol. He was like a giant sea turtle. Brandan can dance thank goodness. Me and him grinded boy! woo-hoo! Amanda and I switched dance partners for a bit on a salsa dance. Yeah..Phil is hopless.
Brandan and I kept kissing and making out while we danced. great times!! He also like nibbled on my ear and did other stuff to it. Anne was right it does feel great. lol. Brandan and I can't be serious together, one of us always makes us crack up. He sang to me on a slow song..1..2..3..AWWWEE!!! lol.
He said sweet stuff to me at the end of the dance on that last 2 songs...I'm not gonna put in here what he said. ask me and i will tell...maybe..

I called my ma and told her that gaby's mom is gonna drive me home but actually Brandan was driving me and 5 of my friends home instead..shhh don't squeal on me. lol. It was soo fun on the ride home. Brandon got me pissed on the ride home and i wouldn't look at him, so he stopped on top of the CC bridge!!!! I'm like Brandan!!! He's like nope...So we kissed and we made up i guess and he went on.
After Gaby, Jordan, larrissa, and Jessica got dropped off and it was just anne, me and him. Me and him kept singing the songs on the rock stations and anne felt left out but it's all good. Then all of a sudden she was like "Michelle look at Brandan's uniform for work! DOn't u love guys in uniforms?" I was like " o yes!" lol. The she was like " I found his hat!" and Brandan yells, " It's a visor!" and she's like "sorry, a Visor!!". It was soo funny. Earlier Brandan kept choosing the wrong ways to go home and i'm like u make be choices. he's like well I choose u and i was like " like I said, u make bad choices". lol. sigh....I love that night. WHen we got to my house he kissed me good night...

Sunday
I went to church, the mall w/ Ginny, did homework and cleaned my room. It was an ok day. I realized that Levi and I are over, neither of us like eachother....

P.s
Amanda dind't stay w/ phil the whole night, she ditched him and she told him that she has a b/f.

AndI

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:: 2003 25 October :: 9.13 am
:: Mood: awake

Last night_Today
Ok yesturday I went across the street (that's Publix by the way) and I watched the Sk8rs sk8. I didn't bring my board b/c I was too tired to sk8brd. Later I found Jordan, Anne and richi. We hanged out together w/ Jared too. It was kinda fun. Anne left to go to the Carnivel w/ Amanda and Amber. Later I went home to go talk to my parents about what I was gonna do that night...
SO that night I went over Nick's house. It's sooo gorgeous and he lives in Cape Harbor. Holy mother of PEARL! Nick is soo sweet he's like MIchelle don't say n e thing. He doesn't like to show off that he has a big house or that their kinda rich. But basically their not rich. I guess they spend money on their house thta they have no money for themselves. Well n e ways, We watched Movies and cuddled..ooolalala! lol. Nick's friend was there too, devin, along w/ Jordan. Nick and he friend, who has nice abs by the way, jumped off the 2nd floor balcony into the pool. I wish I did that! But Nick didn't tell me to bring my swim suit! Stupid poopoo poo person! lol. Maybe next weekend eh?? I'm starting to like Nick more and more. I don't really wanna like him b/c he likes michelle. But it'l be alright. she doesn't wanna go out w/ him or no body for that matter.

Today
I have to go to Drum practice in the AM! How stupid! i can't sleep in! O well.
Later I'm getting my hair did. Hate doing hair, hate dresses, hate the heels...
I'm gonna go to Caraba's and meet Amanda and Anne and Kelsy there. Then at 7:00 Brandan is gonna meet me there and pick me up. I love that Kid too death. But u know...if u know how he is like I do, then u don't really wanna go out w/ him...poopoo poopoo poo on a sticky wicky! I have to skidaddle and get ready for drum practice later g!


AndI

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:: 2003 24 October :: 3.25 pm
:: Mood: bouncy

Another one from HIM! lol
Top Ten Signs That Your Mother Does Indeed Wishes To Kill You!
By: Brandon Lamb and Dave Johnson

1.) She mixes your chocolate milk with rat poison instead of Nesquik.
2.) Instead of making your sandwiches with lunchmeat, she throws rusty razor blades on your bread.
3.) You know for a fact that she spiked your peanut butter cookies with ammonia.
4.) Instead of Glades Plug-ins, you find random dead animal parts around your electrical sockets.
5.) Every time you go to take a bath, your tub is filled with pig blood.
6.) She sets your dog on fire for the fun of it.
7.) She keyed the message, “You don’t have long now, not too much time now…” on your car door.
8.) Instead of taking your tooth and replacing it with money, like any normal tooth fairy would, your mom took your tooth and made a shrine out of it, and left you her index finger.
9.) She gives you a tombstone describing in vivid detail the ways she would like to destroy you and your soul, for your birthday.
10.) Instead of tucking you in at night, she dumps buckets full of flesh eating insects into your bed at night.

Okay. Here's the thing about this, I don't know how acceptable this would be. You guys can make the call and whatever, it's just... I 'unno, it freaks me out, just a little.
I'm sure you understand... I hope.

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:: 2003 22 October :: 5.08 pm
:: Mood: realization

_My sister_(gone??)
I was on the bus today and I called me mom b/c I wanted to know if I can go tonight to FMHS for this thing w/ Nick. Well...my mom was like I dunno, I'm heading to the Emergancy room. Right then and there my heart sank and my eyes got big. I'm like why?? She said my sister got in a car accident. I'm ok..I didn't know what to think or ne thing. So i hanged up...hoping that everything is fine.

Later my mom finally came home w/ my sister...there was no other car to c except for my mom's car. I'm like where is her car? A dump truck ran into the front end of my sister's car. The whole front is totally smashed. It's totaled. She should of been dead. I'm still in shock. I'm shaky and everything that goes w/ it.

Word to everyone (from me to u): Every damn minute of ur life is a blessing, don't waste it at being mad at someone or being evil. Enjoy every friggin secound of it.

AndI

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:: 2003 19 October :: 12.32 am
:: Mood: peaceful (goddly like)
:: Music: Relient K

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:: 2003 17 October :: 3.34 pm
:: Mood: Sneeky )(kinda)(

..:*:..People..:*:..
"People are not always what they seem", that quote never applied to me nor did I pay attention to what it says. BIG mistake. I advise everyone in the universe to go by it and be very careful and particular of choosing friends.
Yeah, sure they seem nice and TubuLAR (my word g) but what do they act and say when your not around? If you trust them that's skippy, but that doesn't stop them from talking bad about you behind your back or dissing you.
I will admit to you all today, October 17, 2003 that I, AndI, were one of those ppl who talked crap about ne one's back. Key word: Were. I try not to do it ne more expecially if it's one of my friends who have done nuttin to me. I thought that was what some of my friends did too. Wrong! Dead Wrong! They talk behind my back and all that evil blue french (wee wee!) monkey's bum. I am angry for it. But hey I can't stop them.
I thought better of them, but they did talk behind some our friends back too, so why would they not talk behind my back too?
If you talk behinds someone's back and act like you like them to their face, your a friggin liar and you are leading them on. It's like the wussy way of it all.

I am ready to give up on some ppl and just move outta this dead town and forget everything and everyone!!!!!! But I love this Coma place. It's my home, I lived here my whole life...)(Sigh)(

Sooo screw everyone who I mean this too!

**You wanna know who I'm talking about then ask and maybe I will tell you..**

AndI

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:: 2003 16 October :: 6.53 pm
:: Mood: dorky
:: Music: stacie's mom

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:: 2003 13 October :: 9.09 pm
:: Mood: OPEN

Who I really am, or what I know about me...
I came to realization the other night that NO one knows the real me. But who can blame you? I don't even know the real me....But I would like to tell you the real me or at least what I know of myself at this moment b/c I'm still on the long dusty road of getting to know me b/c some of you know, I have lost myself over the summer.....

ONE thing I want you to all know is that I have a major desire and I am determined to be diffrent from everyone. Set myself apart from them. I actually wanna be that weird girl in the corner. I know I am picky about people having the same crap as me or saying teh stuff that i say. But dude(s) son't u understand? When I was little I wanted to take up sk8brding and drums just b/c not alot of girls do it. I wanna do and have stuff thta no one has. Impossible? Yes and NO. It's just my goal in life. I wanna feel and BE different. But a good different.I feel trapped and I cna't breathe when I can't be a different someone. So you want me to stop being a bitch about you or someone else talking and having the same stuff and doing the same crap? then DON'T do it. I would be very happy if you stop....

Another thing is I'm stubborn. If i think I'm right or have a strong point. I wont back down unless if i don't it'll lead to something bad. But it varies..

3rd thing I actually don't get mad or hate ppl unless they do the certain things that will get me that way. Like goin behind my back. That will really get me pissed and wanna choke you and hope to die. Another is being something your not. Whose worth working ur ass off for being something that's fake n e ways?? Another well.....i'm not gonna go there.

4th I believe in GOD. I try to be a good christian. There is really nuttin to live for on the Earth. I fall back to being a "bad christian" just b/c of my surrondings. But I try, but not my hardest. Right now I am heading to hell b/c I haven't been baptized. I did when I was lil but that actually doesn't count b/c it wasn't my choice. Hell....geez that's scary to me.

5th I don't get scared too easily. It's just all fun and games to me.

6th I like to do crazy stuff. But I may not do it if there will be a bad outcome.

7th I don't take a lot of things personal. Sorry to say but if I'm in a fight w/ someone and w/ their "evil" comments to me and them trying to get me pissed or feel bad I laugh. I just find it funny. I guess b/c I don't take it personal b/c it's all in an opinion. It what ppl think about me, but it's not what i think about me sometimes.

8th I do some-what care what ppl think about me to the extent. Just b/c i care doesn't mean I will change myself for them. I also don't think if i do this what will they think of me then?? They don't like it then w/evas.

9th I can say somethings that are mean to ppl w/out me knowing it. I just don't think ppl will take it in that way.

10th I hate ppl being immature, grow up!!! We're how old now? 2? It bugs me when ppl can't even go up and talk to a guy or a girl and make a big deal. That also falls into I hate drama queens. We don't need them in the world.

I if i have n e more of me's i'll let u know b/c I can't stand it when ppl don't get stuff about me but i don't even know some stuff about me...

AndI
p.s. A journal always has a first step.

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:: 2003 11 October :: 9.45 pm
:: Mood: good

Saturday night!!!
Dude i chilled w/ my hoe's hehe j/k. luv u! We went to down town CC. There is a neato cafe there. I think that should be our hang out for now on, seriously. N e ways, we hanged there for 2 hours and then walked the city or rather a city wanna-be that this town is. It was fun.
There was a korny parade. There was a car show. Woo! Amanda and I had our dream cars there or what is close to it.

We went into wallgreens to buy something. I bought the TGI Fridays chips ((yummy!!)) and a water. well I couldn't open the bag so amber and amanda tried. lol didn't work out. So Amber went in to ask the lady to cut it. Amanda and I laughed so hard b/c we could imagine over the intercom saying,"Blonde girl w/ pink hair aisle 1 ailse 1 step away from the bag" yeah so the cashier lady started laughing at amber when she left.
We hanged on the side of the store and played w/ the store carts. Sooo fun fun!! Amanda got in one and amber was pushing her around. A cop came by and Amanda was on the phone w/ her grandma b/c she called and Amanda yelled o shit cop! Amanda scrambles out still on the phone w/ grandma and gets the drinks and run....Woo! We went back and had races. A truck was backing out, so we went to the side to wait and he's like u gonna race or what? SO Amanda and I raced and he betted that i would win for 2 bucks. But amanda won b/c we wanted the money but u know, the doosh didn't pay. O well.
Then we walked around while scarfing on the chips. It was grand. I attacked the chicks w/ the chips (i rhymed) amber threatened me. I like it when she does that. She tried to have me spill my wa wa on me but w/ my neatoness that i have (ya right) she only got a lil on me. A car went by and slowed down to check us out and i yelled keep movin. So they did and then turned around to go back to us. We went back in the cafe to listen to the blues guy and to get away from the guys in car. Well later those guys came in the cafe. lol they left though.
Then Amber's pa picked us up and droped me off. It was all fun and games. Woo hoo!
I'm home alone now. It's all good though. Ok i'm gonna go. Ta Ta.

AndI

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:: 2003 10 October :: 4.05 pm
:: Mood: Smart??? maybe not...

another one!!
The Difference Between Knowledge and Intelligence
By: Brandon Lamb

Almost everyday, someone walks up to me and tells me that they feel stupid. This is not only annoying, but slightly depressing as well. The general populace of this school feels inferior to those select few with a 4.0 GPA or higher and then have absolutely no need to. The amount of knowledge that you hold has absolutely nothing to do with how smart you are. People who lord their knowledge over others should be beat with dirty shovels for their stupidity and consent to pathetic human nature.
Knowledge is what makes up the world around us. Knowledge is not something to obtain, the obtaining of knowledge is entirely voluntary and has nothing to do with your personal level of intellect. Nearly every human on Earth is born with an inherent amount of intelligence that will grow with age, not with knowledge of its use. Intelligence is what makes you and I human. It is not, however, what makes us better or worse than someone. All men are created equal, yet, more than likely, it takes us a length of time to realize this, as the past has clearly shown.
Some humans harness their intelligence to gain knowledge, knowledge of the world and "society" around them, and that is more than fine. Yes, it is more than fine until they try to abuse the knowledge they have. By using the word "abuse", I mean more than simply using their knowledge to make others feel inferior to them and their personal level of knowledge. Whether or not they do it consciously is not a question I would like to address because the possible answers imply nothing excellent about the human race as a whole.
Some humans, unlike those listed above look beyond the world around them and what it contains, they look further, and they look within. The true sign of intelligence is the non-use of it to gain knowledge about the world, for the world does not last and is fickle and childish more often than not. Yes, the true sign of intelligence is harnessing your intelligence to gain knowledge of yourself. Through the knowledge of oneself, you can learn more about our world, the universe, and those who survive in them, more so than you could ever without it. The knowledge of one's being cannot be found in any books or conversations; only through hard work and many severely relevant epiphanies can one learn the truth of one's self. Only fools say knowledge is power! Knowledge is as irrelevant as many lives are without what makes our fabric of humanity, truth. So the next time you feel stupid, don't come whining to me, simply search for comfort in the truth of yourself, because that is the only thing that will keep you warm in the frost of lies that makes up our world today.

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:: 2003 9 October :: 9.41 am
:: Mood: annoyed

Journals
Definition of Journals: To write your events, thoughts and feelings on matters....

Ok so referring to that, why do people put surveys and quizes in their journal?? I've always woundered. Don't get me wrong. I don't think it's bad or wrong. So yeah... I just think it shows immaturity. Don't ask me how it makes me think that, it just does.

Speaking of immaturity, I CAN'T stand immature people. They drive me NUTS!!! I've tried to not get annoyed my them or anything related to that but I can't help it. I don't mind people for being immature on somethings, b/c somethings call for immaturity.
Where ever I look there is immaturity in people 24/7. argh! I just wanna smack their heads together w/ coconuts. I have no idea why I said coconuts, but yeah...

I'm in Web design class right now and I have to go and do Fireworks. lata balla. Holla!

AndI

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:: 2003 7 October :: 9.38 pm
:: Mood: crazy

ello!
Holla balla! hehe. Ok so yeah.
Monday

My bed was my best friend that day. I slept it all away! Well then I went to go babysit. I let the 5 yr old and the 3 yr. old swing on the basketball hoop rim. Don't worry, they only got a scratch or 2 or 20, but don't get me started on the broken leg. It wasn't my fault i swear! I made some lil mulla. not much though.

Today

School..snooze! ok on a better subject, I had drum lessons today. woo! It was the best. I was outta there in 20 mintes! Fastest ever! I did really good in there for sizzle my nizzle!

____________________________________

I found out that there is a gay high school! The only gay school in Amarica. It's been around for 20 yrs and has only 2 classes. This year, yup, it's a official . It's a public school! It's named after a polition who got assaniatated for being gay. SO the name is dun dun dun....Harvey Milk High School! Woo! It allows gays, lez, and bi's and trans. Super dooper....

That's all I have to really tell about now. SO lata!

AndI (woo-wee-woo-wee-woo!)

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:: 2003 5 October :: 12.49 pm
:: Mood: Woo!

weekend
Hello.
Friday
I went to the movies with Jesse and my sis. We saw the rundown, neato movie. We hanged around there afterwards for a bit. Then we went home and hanged around there. Jesse stayed till 1 am.
Saturday
I slept in for a while. Then I cleaned the house all day, yearning to go to the mall and just chill the whole day. So the day sucked.
But at night I went to the movies again. This time I saw School of Rock. It was ok. I like the rundown better.
After the movie We sat by johnny rockets where we ate there earlier (yummy in my tummy). 3 guys came up to us and asked us what are ages are and asked if we would go out w/ their friend. Can u say gay? I'm like dude, how old are yeas? I swear they were 6th graders. I'm like your guys r retarded, go away. So they left.
Then later 2 guys that were 15 came up to us and talked to us. Then after them 3 juniors came up to us and one of the hotties asked,"Why are u sitting all alone? May we sit down?" I'm like that is lame but yeah u can. One of them is from chicago, the other is from texas and I forgot where the other one is from. They were so hot. They're here for baseball. I'm just like in awe when the texas guy talked. I love his lil acient. Love it! They were so nice and hot and nice and hot. Then they left b/c they have to get up early to play a game. poo! But it was soo fun. we never exchanged names though. lol.
I like sitting by johnny rocket's. I get guys just by sitting. lol.
O when I was eating at Johnny Rockets I saw Chalie and Jennifer (managers of Twisted Method). Jennifer is like Hi Michelle. I'm like O hey! It was nice. I was such a big dork though, o well.

AndI

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