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:: 2004 30 June :: 12.05pm
:: Mood: chipper
:: Music: Madonna

LaLaLaLa (lol so amanda)
Well here is my life....cooking cookies and baked goods by day and going to Summerfest and doing a lil partying at night. My cousin and i just went to see Flaw and Smile Empty Soul, they kicked ass! The only bad thing was that they had the crowd stand on like bleachers (all at the same height) so we couldnt be in a mosh pit but thats fine. My cousin Becky and i were standing in the Something Corporate crowd waiting for them to start and my mum called saying her plane was in early so we had to go before they started, but on the way we got to hear Drowning Pool a lil before we left! They were pretty fuckin good, too bad we didnt get to see the whole show! Anyway, as we were walking inbetween shows i ran into Heidi( one of two friends i have in WI) and it was fucking amazing! Summerfest is like a million ppl on a 2 week span of time and that was the only day she was going and we happened to be at the same concert! We chatted very quickly and unfortunatly got split up but thats ok, i can probably talk to her later. So we are going back on Friday to see either The Used, Trapt, or Dashboard Confessional. I think we are leaning towards Trapt and we will possibly go to Marron 5 before that. We will be w/ my uncle and aunt and you know what that means, free beer!!!! :-) And then we wil be there on the fourth of July, crazyist day by far, and see Three Days Grace. Anyway, hope the car wash works out.........and miss you guys alot! XoXoXoXo Mwah byes!

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:: 2004 28 June :: 12.51am
:: Mood: crushed
:: Music: Smile Empty Soul

End of an Era
Mark it down in your planners and journals, the "James" era is over. It has taken... 1..2..3..4..5..6..7..8..9.. months for someone very close and special to me(my best friend actually) to finally say "he is a scumbag/asshole and you deserve so much better, its time to cut your losses and get the hell out of the situation". well this time that person actaully made sence, so here i am, almost a year of my life....spent on something i have a dead feeling for now. it makes me contimplate all the movies ive watched saying "ive wasted years of my life on this person" and i can almost understand what they are talking about now. i never understood what they were speaking of, and now i do and i feel so terrible for all those pain-in-the-ass situations. this message isnt sent out for sympathy or empathy in some situations, its for all the people who begged me to move on months ago and said he wasnt anything special, and for all the people who had to hear ever inch of the story. thank you and im sorry i didnt listen a long time ago! i love you all and miss you guys ttyl xoxoxoxo bye

:: 2004 26 June :: 8.16pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: Summerfest music

Grandma's house
Ok made it to WI in one piece! Nothing TOO interesting is occuring....all things that include long stories that im not really willing to type. Sorry its been so long but yea know....messed up computers and all. I hope everyone is having fun in their individual places and I hope they get there safe! I love you all and can't wait to see ypu guys again, its been too long. Ill talk to you all individully later anyway. XoXoXo love you guys! byes!

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:: 2004 24 June :: 8.58pm
:: Mood: Tired

Past Week
So I'v been w/ the Srokas, Kyle, and Mike. It was fun. We went to the 2 theme parks in Orlando. We were there for about 5 days.

Kyle and Mike met 2 girls and then later 2 more girls. Lil pimp daddy's! woo! lol. yea. the fat one liked Kyle..lol.

Lets see we did this sling shot thing that took u up 365 feet in the air which was rad. we went lazor taging which was really fun. thats where Kyle and Mike met the 1st 2 girls. Then we went to City Walk and thats when they met the other 2.

Now I am leaving Saturday to go to the keys. Woo! On the road again. It will be fun I hope..sigh.

Happy B-day Richi!!!

+AndI+

:: 2004 17 June :: 6.45pm
:: Mood: crazy

i'm weak!!!
Ok so today was ok...I played nitendo w/ Davy and hung out w/ him and my sis for most of the day.

Then a knock came from the door. It was Blue. I was o hello you and i said bastard in my head. hehe. Me sneaky ! Anne knows my tricks! lol. Ok well he and i talked and kinda made up. I told him that I haven't been happy for 2 weeks and if his scheduale is going to continue like it is then I'm not sure how much longer I am gonna hang around. I kinda just left it like that. I am still kinda have a grudge against him. He's not gonna get away that easy.

But n e ways. Umm...we played nitendo (007 golden eye) and he beated my ass of course. Well ahhh...we made out and that was as far as we got w/ the sexual shit.

Let's see.....i'm more happy now. yay! But i wont get to c him for like another 2 or 3 weeks maybe? But this time its b/c of me. woo! My turn to destroy him. soo happy.

Ok i'm gonna go. I'm not gonna write anything in here for a while b/c I am gonna have a 3 day party down at the Ft. Myers Beach and then its off to Orlando w/ the Srokas and Mike. Then as soon as I get back I am going to the Keys w/ My sis, mom and grandma for a week. I only have one day in between to relax. lol. i hope i have enough energy! lol. Ok bye byes!

+AndI+
(do u like my new signature better than the other one?)

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:: 2004 14 June :: 5.22pm
:: Mood: Annoyed and Angry
:: Music: 3 days Grace: I hate everything about you

Learning some new things
I've come to relization just about a minute ago about something new about myself. i have always known about it u know, but I kinda dennied it even though I know deep down it was true. Its kinda like being gay and just dennieing it and keeping it locked in the closet (no offense to gay people).

well the thing I realized is that my general mood is controlled by my "love life". I mean its sad, i know it is. i shouldn't let it control me like that. If you know me you know that I am a stubborn and strong person, but at this one thing I am not. I hate it soooo much.

This one thing that I let it control really tears me up sometimes. If things are goin bad w/ me and my guy at the time then I'm angry and maybe depressed, depending on how bad it is. I may not show it, but i feel it.

I don't show my feelings if i'm depressed or w/evas b/c if i'm around happy ppl like Anne I don't want to bring them down or have their good times be ruined on the count of me.

If my relationship is great then damn i'm a very happy person and a really great thing to be around. lol. It totally sucks a bunchies though.

(sigh)

I guess i just have to learn over time on how to concour (sp?) this "love life" of mine that controls me.

[]AndI[]

:: 2004 11 June :: 8.50pm
:: Mood: Lil Happy

yaya
How do u like my new picture for my journal? Pretty nice huh? See, it is possible. lol. I have a naked one of that and its in color, but i thought i would save u the trouble of throwing up and just do that one. Interesting position though....hahaha

Ok so Blue called. He went to the lake for a week and didn't have his cell. We haven't really talked yet b/c he's in karate. He said he'll call me after, but i doubt it. I'm still mad, but not as mad as before.

Well I'm gonna go. I'll tpe some stuff later is i have n e thing interesting to tell.

[]AndI[]

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:: 2004 8 June :: 10.29pm
:: Mood: iiight

Past couple of days
Last couple of days I've been fighting w/ people and all that jazz, but we're over it. Well..except for me and Blue. We haven't finished our "fight" yet...

I went to the beach w/ Gaby, Sammy, and Anne. We got to take Anne's Dad's BMW. It was sooo much fun. Then after some fued w/ Ginny we cleaned his car.

Over the weekend I just hung low and did w/evas w/ my family. So Saturday totally sucked. I just cleaned and Sat. Jeremy was gonna come over, but didn't work out like I wanted. Sunday I went to church and then shopping w/ my sistas and ma. It was fun. i got a tube top, a dress (for a weddin), a tank top, and a skirt.

On Monday My mom had the day off, so off to the beach! It was kinda boring, I didn't want to be there. But it was all good. then I went to Beatniks w/ Amber, Ali, Rich, Anne and Ginny. We had a super time. We played cunt (cent). i love it! yea afterwards I slept over at the srokas. Rich and I watched porn and swam. We found the girls watching the porn when we came in his room. It was great...

today I went to sunsplash w/ richi, Mike and Kyle. It was ok. sometimes i felt like an outsider, but it wasn't too bad....the girls went to ali's. they had a great time as i heard. Well i went to drum lessons. It was ok..not the greatest.

i HATED the weather today. so mad. gr..O well.

ok byes!

[]AndI[]

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:: 2004 8 June :: 3.48pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: My whole frickin playlist

Ali's house
Ok...its been a long while since ive written....meaning my computer is very much broken therefore i must wait till i stay at ali's to get anything done! LoL anyway school is over obviously, alot of talking to close friends which is good. all problems are across the atlantic so......i wont have to think about them for 3 months (yay) anyways im trying to be a good girl and not get myself into too much trouble! i leave on the 26th or something and im only gone for 2 weeks so yuperz! ttyl mwah xoxoxoxo :-)

Cali

:: 2004 8 June :: 1.52am
:: Mood: FUCKING AWESOME!!!

CALI
Hey OMG! I am HOME!!! Yay!!! (LA i mean!) hehe! And ya and there is sooooo way too much to write...Like how when we had stoped in Las Cruces New Mexico Kels and I Hung out w/ an entire high school varsity basketball team and......HAD FUN!!! hehe details will come to you guys later lmao! And now we are here and WHEW i am sooo stoked to get out and do crap....we actually got here sunday night but ya! Ummmm..... OMG! My Aunt is working for a alcohol company now to promote their stuff and so she goes to parties and we get to go w/ her.... Ummm...oh and for her acting stuff! OMG! Her new partner to work w/ is RICK THORNE!!!!(in case you didn't know a major BMX dude!) HOLY ShIT MAN!!! I was about it fucking piss my pants we get to chill w/ him all the time now it is sooo weird we are gunna go to his house man!!!! OMG! I'm freakin! And we are gunna go to the berach alot too sooo yea i am just sooo not gunna wanna leave here! hehe! I think KEls is bored right now cause we haven't really been abole to do much yet cause ya we just got there but hell man i think she is gunna have a blast ok! well i'll ttyl ok! Luv ya's byes! I miss u guys!!!

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:: 2004 2 June :: 3.25pm
:: Mood: aggravated

It's annoying!!
OK someone's journal (tubularchick88, gimpy, or cali or maybe yellowchicki) is the big size. Like you know how it turns on yea and gets really wide and u have to move the screen to read it all? well someone has it and I HATE it. I can't read everyone's journal so well. It makes my "your friends" journal screen all coo-coo. So can u check and c what ur journal size is and reduce it to like 400 please?

[]AndI[]

:: 2004 31 May :: 11.16pm
:: Mood: crazy
:: Music: Run Forest!

_on the run_
well Here is what happened so far for my summer::

Sat:

I woke up and worked my bum bum off. I went jogging w/ wendy (my dog) for a while. It was fun. Wendy got really tired. Then I did these crunches stuff w/ my mom's big ball thingy for a half hour. then I went swiming for 3 hours. I got all that done by like 1 pm. O and I cleaned the house too...

At Night I went to the movies w/ Alan (my baby), Burny, Anne and Amanda. the guys were being dicks. Mainly Alan. I was being a tease to Alan to get back at him... it worked pretty well.

Sunday:

I went to church talked to Levi. Went to the beach again w/ my family and Davie. We went jet skiing. It was soooo rough out. OMG. It was fun though. Alan and Burny were there too! I was soo happy Alan was there. It was soo much fun. Nola (my lil cuz) played Mermaid w/ me ((a game i made up when i was lil) and Alan and Burny took her like beaner float (its what i call it) and tried to bady surf the waves. It was funny. I was still kinda being a bitch to Alan b/c I was still mad at him. I still kinda am mad at him still but for diff. reasons. I didn't get home till like 11 pm b/c we were having trouble w/ the Jet ski.

Monday: I went to the beach again!!! Woo! I didn't run into n e one I knew though..(tear). Instead I saw Heather boyed (boo!) and Nick H's friend (yay!) and Tina Tinch (boo!). Jesse came w/ us instead of Davie b/c Amanda (my sis) didn't come. I called Alan to c if he was down there too, but he wasn't. O well. So today wasn't as fun as yesturday. O wait I did run into Jay Givens..it was a lil awekward.

At Night

Kelsey, Anne, and I went to Ginny's cook out. It was ok. No one was there b/c it was like a private thing. we left that w/ Ginny and drove to CC and went to go visit Raymond. It was ok. the girls thought he was good looking. I dunno about hot though...I have to ask.

So that is my summer up to date. I've been having a great run so far, but i know there will be an ending sometime. so i shall seize the day w/ every day thrown at my feet by mother nature. so bring it on BITCH!

[]AndI[]

:: 2004 28 May :: 9.37pm
:: Mood: busy
:: Music: the whistle from Kill Bill

*-My First Day of Summer-*
So Last night I went to the movies and saw Shrek 2. It was a gooooood movie. I went w/ Ginny. We met up w/ Phil and Ryan. Ryan kept making comments about my tatas the whole night. It was soo funny about what he was saying about them though....

I slept over Ginny's. It was all good. O yea...when we were still w/ R and P. Phil called Blue and talked about how I was acting depressed and all b/c of him and w/evas...Blue never knew who was talking to him though. But so when I was in Ginny's room Blue called her cell. He doesn't have her number, so that means he had to get from someone! He tract me down! How sweet!? Ne ways he was asking questions like how am i feeling and w/evas. then he brought up about the person who called him. I was like acting like i knew nothing. i did a good job too! (pat on my back) sooo...we are good. Me and him are swell now! YAYA!...Well after that Ginny and I played a game and then we called Phil and Ryan and we talked and asked some questions that shall never be mentioned again...then Ginny and I went to bed...well sorta. I was too wound up. I couldn't sleep. I was rubbing my snott all over ginny to get her up and she was like get away!! I started to jump up and down on her bed b/c she still wasn't up, i mean she was awake but not up...so as a result i hit my head on her ceiling. it's surprisingly low u know. Soooo she just threw the phone at me and was like go ahead call one of ur friends and bug them! So I was thinking about calling Anne, but I didn't really wanted her pissed at me b/c it was like 1 am. and I know that most of my friends i can't call at that time,so it just left Blue! I called him and I was like r u still up and he said yes, but he was just getting ready to go to bed and i said well too bad, ur not. So cry and beg but ur not goin to sleep. I talked to him for only like 10 minutes and I told him about Anne's seat in her car and bla bla....so I decided to be nice and i hung up w/ him...

MORNING:

woke up and got ready to go to the beach! i went w/ my sis, the twins, ginny, and their friend anthony (who is really cute!!). Ginny and I were walkin and guess who we ran into??? Ryan and Phil! Go figure! So we hung out w/ them for most part of the day. When we were walking we found Brandon (phil's Brandon, not mine)! So we hung out w/ him and we skinned board w/ him. His bro is acutally ugly. I was told i was the 1st chick to say that. lol. Then we left Brandon and went back to our spot. Then later I went back to Brandon b/c he was more interesting then the ppl i was w/. His bro is stupid dude..and ugly. after all that fun I had, I went home and brought Phil and Ryan w/ me. Ginny went home. Then I dropped the guys off at Phil's and I swam a lil bit and then i cleaned my house and then I went over phils and we went sk8brding at publix and hung around there for a bit. Then...we went to Phil's and watched Kill Bill. Wow...good movie..disgusting, but good. Then I came home after that....so here i am.

I messed up on my macronni and it sucks b/c instead of waiting for 4 minutes i had to wait 12 minutes. Poo Poo...o well it's now in my tummy!! I have concored it!

[]AndI[]