godessalthena
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2019 11 February :: 8.34pm
told my boss I wanted a 12/15 this year
she basically told me to dream on...
it's fucking rigged and I know it is. my blood is boiling. what's the point? what's the fucking point.
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goodbye
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2019 10 February :: 8.09pm
Honestly I just feel like a waste of space, time, and energy, and know people would be better off without me. Maybe I should just leave.
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godessalthena
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2019 9 February :: 11.02pm
all the bars we go to play 90s
either youngsters come here to feel older than they are or cuz they are hipsters
and people in their 30$ are who are being pandered to.
growing up sucks
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godessalthena
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2019 6 February :: 11.26am
FUCK OSPEs
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goodbye
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2019 5 February :: 8.34pm
VIDEO
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spud
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2019 4 February :: 11.11pm
Recorded on 2.3.19
POD 9
Spoilers and sads, but don't worry, it's okay :)
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2019 1 February :: 7.24pm
:: Mood : FUNKY
:: Music : Marc Rebillet
recorded on 1.29.19
POD 8
got a little vulnerable for this one. probably oversharing. oh well. this is turning out to be good therapy for me.
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godessalthena
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2019 30 January :: 4.34pm
sweetie, all I want is for you to go out of your way to be sweet to me when my whole world feels like it's falling.
I just want to see you care. hearing it isn't enough. talk is cheap.
I just need extra sugar today.
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godessalthena
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2019 30 January :: 7.57am
https://youtu.be/LHCob76kigA
this song strikes a raw chord
I'm lost, no dreams of my own
everything is scary, so far out of reach
I'm lonely in my heart, and honestly....
I have abandoned hope it ever filling the gaping hole where my soul used to be
I am an empty husk. I turned 30 and after hoping all thru my twenties that 30 would magically make this better, I feel just as lost and empty as ever. I'm confused, I'm tired, I'm trying, I keep going, but why...
what's this all for anyway.. if you don't have kids you are lost to time, if you do you are lost in 1-2 generations, but what does any of that matter when humans are going to destroy this planet and go extinct just like everything else that fights the natural order as much as we do.
I just need to be held, I want to just feel less alone.
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godessalthena
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2019 29 January :: 7.34pm
can life just be over? I'm fucking sick of feeling.
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spud
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2019 28 January :: 11.59pm
Recorded on 1.27.19
Flying solo for the snow day!
POD 7
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godessalthena
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2019 27 January :: 1.21pm
remember: you can't hug your children with nuclear arms
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godessalthena
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2019 24 January :: 10.42am
this is just too much
everything is pressing down on me
I can't breathe
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spud
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2019 23 January :: 10.32pm
:: Music : papa vegas - gravity wars
recorded on 1.16.19
Featuring Brian and Lena!
We were all pretty tired, tbh. I was getting sick, but didn't know it yet.
POD 5
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godessalthena
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2019 23 January :: 8.07am
a boat toad
tattoo idea: TAX on right knuckles RICH on left knuckles THE on your forehead
alternatively: replace eyebrows with mono brow tattoo that says the same thing
last night I dreamt I cut all my hair off and went back to my typical hair... I was so sad :( I guess I'm not smoking enough weed. fucking dreams.
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