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:: 2016 24 September :: 12.28am

definitely not getting any sleep tonight

:: 2016 22 September :: 10.12pm

if i close my eyes and imagine laying in my favorite field of clover and sunlight with you, will you ease my pain?

if i hold out my hand in the dark will i find yours there next to me?

i wish i could cuddle with you again, in the early morning hours in your leather chair. could i forget all that's happened since then? can we sit in the golden montana sun and snore our lives away? i miss you so much. i wish i could have hugged you one last time.

why are things always so fucking painful? why are people so terrible? why does everything turn into a burning pile of charred ash and cinder..

i just want to sleep forever. i feel so dead inside.

:: 2016 22 September :: 8.24am
:: Music: FIDLAR bad habits

sometimes i really want to become a drug addict

1 prop | give me props

:: 2016 22 September :: 6.56am

the sun is no longer up when i go to work :(

labyrinth

:: 2016 22 September :: 4.11pm

Midwest
I have plans that may or may not happen, but I thought it through last night. I thought about it a lot, not just yesterday. In 5 years, I might go back to the states. But I want to go to another state. Maybe Minnesota because my friend lives there. I really really want to go to the midwest and I'm going to make it my goal. I have 5 years to prepare myself. Of course, I already have a college degree, so it's no problem.

If the Lord wants me to be there, I will know then, but if not, I will know also. The Lord God is the creator of this world. It doesn't matter where I go, he'll always be there.

:: 2016 21 September :: 9.17pm

a lil drunk

feelin pretty grood

not worried about too much besides my internet being a fucking bastard

y u no netflix & chill, vizio?

going to portugal. the man in november. bought everyone tickets for their birthdays. i love me some scorpios man.

what da fuq for halloween doe.. dayman and nightman? harambe and a banana? the fox and the little princess?

i don't know man. i just don't know.

:: 2016 16 September :: 2.11pm

gotta take a picture.

but first gotta find the damn thing.

still haven't unpacked from my move a year ago.

:: 2016 16 September :: 1.56pm

I never didn't care.

I need to be alot nicer than I have been. I haven't been thinking about how this will affect others or myself at all. My dumb mouth.

:: 2016 14 September :: 8.07pm

I don't like the way I'm feeling right now

my stomach sinking

all the blood rushing to my trunk

I just feel so frustrated that you won't talk time about anything.

:: 2016 13 September :: 12.04pm

this dead heart of mine is a heavy burden to carry.

I used to think maybe I wasn't meant to carry it alone

but every day that passes it seems more and more like a fact

I am not made to be happy. I am not made to love.

I am not made for anything. I am a tamed animal that's been left alone to waste away.

this hollowness I feel grows more every day. temporarily am I filled, but only to have it slip out of my cracked base.

i watch the wind through the trees and feel the brisk autumn air against my exposed flesh.

I feel nothing but meaningless inside.

:: 2016 13 September :: 7.52am

disappointment

why can't you be a little more responsible?

or why am I such a responsible old windbag?

:: 2016 12 September :: 11.38pm

The storm is far from passing. The rain beats down. The wind howls. The cold bites at exposed skin. The elements are unforgiving. My poncho blew away a long time ago.

All time low isn't just a band's name.

:: 2016 8 September :: 10.05pm

I can make it if I tired

I closed my eyes I kept on swimming

:: 2016 7 September :: 8.11pm

Kayla said that I was her best friend and could be her Maid of Honor.

I can't believe someone liked me that much to seek out a friendship with me and cultivate it. I feel so special.

:: 2016 7 September :: 4.41am

Can't sleep.
Awake at 4am. Mind got rolling on the idea of what I would tell people and do differently if I went back through my own timeline. Probably 4th grade is when I would start. I would tell my parents about the life events, the tragedies in the world, the stocks to buy. I would warn my friends of the dangers coming to them. I would avoid certain people and embrace others ahead of when I actually met them. I would tell Skyler and Jed not to kill himselves. I would tell Mike and my brother to get their health in order. I would gain more education, go to a better school, live a healthier life with more experiences. I wish.