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godessalthena

:: 2015 3 September :: 7.41am

Sometimes in the morning I am petrified and can't move
Awake but cannot open my eyes
And the weight is crushing down on my lungs I know I can't breathe
And hope someone will save me this time
And your mother's still calling you insane and high
Swearing it's different this time
And you tell her to give in to the demons that possess her
And that God never blessed her insides
Then you hang up the phone and feel badly for upsetting things
And crawl back into bed to dream of a time
When your heart was open wide and you loved things just because
Like the sick and the dying

And sometimes when you're on, you're really fucking on
And your friends they sing along and they love you
But the lows are so extreme that the good seems fucking cheap
And it teases you for weeks in it's absence
But you'll fight and you'll make it through
You'll fake it if you have to
And you'll show up for work with a smile
You'll be better you'll be smarter
And more grown up and a better daughter
Or son and a real good friend
You'll be awake and you'll be alert
You'll be positive though it hurts
And you'll laugh and embrace all your friends
You'll be a real good listener
You'll be honest, you'll be brave
You'll be handsome, you'll be beautiful
You'll be happy

Your ship may be coming in
You're weak but not giving in
To the cries and the wails of the valley below
Your ship may be coming in
You're weak but not giving in
And you'll fight it you'll go out fighting all of them...

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godessalthena

:: 2015 1 September :: 8.35pm

I am not sure who I want to be right now.

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godessalthena

:: 2015 29 August :: 3.27pm

I cleaned the shit out of that apartment. I better get my deposit back. that place was a dump when I moved in!

but damn I sure am going to miss it. it was my little slice of heaven. I'm eager for my home. I'm going to make a list of things I really want it to have.. like a good view.

I am so exhausted but pretty content. seeing the doctor Thursday to see about my insomnia. I'm dying. and I have been having it since I started cymbalta.. say 5 years ago? I just need to sleep.

it rained today. it filled me with delight. everything is so thirsty.

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godessalthena

:: 2015 26 August :: 11.47am
:: Mood: ecstatic

the man from the shopping spree finally responded to my missed connection!!! and the adventure begins!

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godessalthena

:: 2015 20 August :: 7.58am

I hope my baby dog will be ok :(

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godessalthena

:: 2015 19 August :: 12.28pm

I just want to touch someone again.

I want to explore and admire a body.

I want to be held and kissed tenderly.

I want to give someone a massage.

I want to feel human again.

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godessalthena

:: 2015 15 August :: 8.51am

fuck you, Sus. I finally got to say what I wanted. I finally stood up for myself and drove that dagger as deep as it would go into your crocodilian hyde.

sistas are doin it for themselves.

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godessalthena

:: 2015 14 August :: 7.08am

shal·low
ˈSHalō/
adjective
1.
of little depth.

i.e. when the only reason you stay with someone is because they are pretty.

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godessalthena

:: 2015 11 August :: 3.35pm

all time low
I want to be exanimate.

there really isn't a point to any of this.

I'm tired of pain and rejection. of not fitting in. of all the barriers I create to ensure these are the ends I come to.

I miss my grandpa.

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godessalthena

:: 2015 11 August :: 10.47am

everyone is falling in love.

I feel left out.

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godessalthena

:: 2015 8 August :: 1.03pm

it's such a beautiful day out. I've gotten a few things accomplished.

and as the dye soaks into my damaged hair I wonder if once it's done I'll feel it's childish and feel ashamed.

I hate getting older. this world is so oppressive.

will I let the rebel in me die?

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godessalthena

:: 2015 6 August :: 7.52pm

sometimes, it feel better to just give in.

I want to let the dark consume me. I want to cry.

I want to feel my soul crush under the weight of desolate isolation.

it was so comforting. I miss that.

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godessalthena

:: 2015 5 August :: 10.14am

Everything's so blurry
And everyone's so fake
And everybody's empty
And everything is so messed up
Preoccupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone
You could be my scene
You know that I'll protect you
From all of the obscene
I wonder what you're doing
Imagine where you are
There's oceans in between us
But that's not very far

Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
Well you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
Well you shoved it in my face

Everyone is changing
There's no one left that's real
So make up your own ending
And let me know just how you feel
Cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

And you could be my someone
You could be my scene
You know that I will save you
From all of the unclean
I wonder what you're doing
I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us
But that's not very far

Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
Well you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
Well you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me

Nobody told me what you thought
Nobody told me what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn
Told you when to run away
Nobody told you where to hide
Nobody told you what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn
Showed you when to run away

Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
Well you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
Well you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me

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godessalthena

:: 2015 4 August :: 9.53am

I love collecting secrets. it's one of those little joys in life.

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godessalthena

:: 2015 3 August :: 8.15pm

achievement unlocked: obtain a bachelor's degree.

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I can't stop crying buckets of tears

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