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2021 2 August :: 10.49am
things can't be perfect all the time, that I know.
I will not say one word, I'll just hang around... I won't annoy you at all. when you move out I'll stay until I'm thrown away . but then it won't matter.
sometimes we just have to let some things go.
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2021 2 August :: 6.43am
all my dreams are dead.
I'll never afford a nice house, or a yard.
I'll never have that high paying job that will grant me a lil financial independence.
I'll never achieve anything.
this world is beyond fucked, and everyone has their heads in the sand.
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2021 15 July :: 12.12pm
broke my first bone today... in my right foot. being a clumsy dumbass.
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2021 11 July :: 8.05am
when you can't shake the feeling that you're a stranger in your own body
unrecognizable feelings and ideas, who am I, what am I doing. in the immense weights and hopeless nights.
the absolute absurdity of life, emotions, memory... ultimately we are all forgotten, like we never existed.. consumes me every waking moment. I see all the colors, but I don't even know if I'm seeing them right
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2021 10 July :: 8.36am
it's been a year since his dad passed away.. time fucking flies and drags at the same time. this is going to be a rough day...
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2021 26 June :: 4.21pm
when your ex's oldest brother passed away before he's 35.... what do you even say?
my heart is broken.. fucking what the fuck
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2021 12 June :: 1.42am
I hate when a bunch of drunk assholes show up at 1am and start shouting in my home while I'm trying to sleep.
no I don't want to come out there and talk to drunk people who won't remember the convo tomorrow.
I went to bed TO FUCKING SLEEP
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2021 4 June :: 6.43am
"When it feels scary to jump, that's exactly when you jump. Otherwise you end up staying the same place your whole life. And that I can't do."
- j c chandor
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2021 21 May :: 8.47am
I hate that feeling of being needed, but taken for granted.
like y'all don't really need me despite how much I do for you.
and I'm left holding that short straw in our life dingy, the next to give my body for nourishment. and unlike the plane crash in the Andes, there is no gratitude. just more fucking trash.
I'm sinking to the bottom, and as I look up to the fading light, I can see the last starlight I'll ever see, into the crushing depths. to feed the bottom dwellers or maybe just feed some scavengers.
and just never be found or thought of again.
I am dead inside
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2021 20 May :: 7.22am
"you just seemed so honest, but sexy"
is honesty not normally a sexy trait...? oh craigslist you confuse the heck out of me haha
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2021 11 May :: 8.28am
this extreme tiredness doesn't seem to want to leave
but I'm so damn tired
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2021 6 May :: 9.35am
everyone I love seems to be drowning in alcohol
and they are too drunk to admit they need to change anything
and literally every serious topic is a joke
please just stop lying to me...
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2021 3 May :: 3.53pm
:: Mood: Seasonal
A staggering proportion of humans are allergic to the semen of plants.
A perennial reminder.
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2021 29 April :: 11.03pm
:: Music: Tauk - Sir Nebula
Jet Lag
I used to have arguments with my uncle about language. I insisted that there were grammatical structures and rules in place in order to keep the meaning of language consistent. If we are to communicate and exchange ideas, it is critical to have the same words and sounds mean the same thing to both parties, in order to successfully transmit all information in the idea accurately. I thought that the rules helped to keep those meanings from shifting.
His primary contention was that language was alive, constantly evolving and changing in meaning. Different languages cherry pick words and phrases from other languages, sometimes at random, sometimes by conquest. New words are constantly being born, while old words slowly die off and are forgotten. I think he viewed slang as some kind of nursery for future linquistic possibilities.
I have to admit, he may be right.
After all, they condensed an extremely specific phenomenon - in which one traverses the surface of the planet at such an incredible rate, that their biological rhythms have difficulty adapting to the dramatic change in diurnal cycle - into just two syllables.
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2021 17 April :: 9.46pm
had a really good birthday, just feeling pretty good about life when not looking at the parts I don't like.
it's going to be hard going back to work on Monday...
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