:: 2005 30 January :: 11.57 pm

I love Nick.

Very very much.

So much, in fact, that this is rather inadequate. Just as I feel at times.

I love you, Nick. Lots of oodles of lots.

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:: 2005 30 January :: 11.11 am

Good morning
I've got nothing better to do.

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I love you all.

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:: 2005 29 January :: 3.10 pm

Phosphorescent Julio
He's so cool.

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Julio is one hot little piece of technology. If my camera could, I bet it would be creaming its pants right now.

I love you all.

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:: 2005 29 January :: 1.58 pm

My birthday, hier and hier soir.
Yesterday, I turned 18.

From my family, I received 7 books: Phantom of the Opera, Pride and Prejudice, Persuasion, Sense and Sensibility, The Iliad, The Odyssey and Half Hours with the Best Poets. I also got the Amelie soundtrack and an iPod. My iPod, Phosphorescent Julio, rocks. I hooked it up to my stereo through my sister's cassette adapter last night. Oh, I got a $25 iTunes Music Store Card, too.

My little brother gave me a package of sour Skittles.

Katie gave me an awesome bag/purse made out of Hi-C pouches, a bracelet made of wire and pop tabs, bubbles, a drawing and a note.

Brigitte gave me a $10 gift certificate for Schuler's. Which is cool because I need to get a book for AP Lit and it's apparently on sale.

Nick and Ben (Ben had stayed home from school) both stopped by once school was over. Nick gave me a dozen roses, a vase and assorted chocolate candy bars. Ben says he made me a card. I don't have it yet.

Nick, Ben and I went to my house and sat around. I think both Ben and Nick were asleep at one point. Ben wasn't feeling well and went home. My parents took Nick and me out to Pietro's (Nick chose where we went to eat).

Around 10, Nick and I went to Ben's and hung out there for a while. We both fell asleep.

I came home around 11:30, l33t-rigged my iPod and fell asleep around 1.

It was a good day. Thanks everyone for the presents, hugs and birthday-wishes.

Oh and Ben helped me figure out how to fold that stupid shirt. It isn't as cool once you know how.

I love you all.

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:: 2005 27 January :: 9.27 pm

Know what? I give up. I cannot fold a shirt worth a Japanese person's toe.

The Japanese are just crazy, magic little gnomes who can magically fold this shirt that us Americans do in a lot more time and a lot more sloppily.

Stupid Japanese and their crazy origami skills.

You know what? I don't need you! I can fold my shirt my own, longer way!

Except I don't fold shirts in the first place.

Anyway. 9:25 tomorrow. Sadly that's during AP Lit. Goodness I hate that class.

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:: 2005 27 January :: 5.53 pm

My birthday is tomorrow!
Yeah, the Japanese?

CRAZY LITTLE NUTJOBS.

The sad thing is that I want to know how they do it. It's like magic!

I'm going to go grab a shirt and try it out. I'll tell you how it goes.

I love you all.

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:: 2005 26 January :: 11.17 pm

With your eyes closed, close your eyes.

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:: 2005 26 January :: 4.55 pm
:: Music: Oscillate Wildly by The Smiths

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:: 2005 25 January :: 2.55 pm

Today was the first day of the last semester of high school.

Thank goodness.

So my two new classes rock. My Government teacher, Mr. DeKuiper, is really awesome. He's hilarious. He says frick every other sentence and shouts everything.

Psych 2 looks to be a lot like Psych 1 except it feels different. I don't know why. Same teacher, same room, different people.

In Japanese class we watched the beginning of My Neighbor Totoro.

It was a good day but I am not looking forward to tomorrow.

My birthday is on Friday.

I love you all.

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:: 2005 25 January :: 6.21 am

At lunch yesterday, we mentioned hamsters.

Last night I had a dream that in French class we had to do a presentation on a weird thing.

Brett, Kyle (both who could suddenly speak French), Kelly and I did our presentation on Katamari Damashii.

The main character wasn't a prince though, he was a hamster.

I put little hamster ears on and went prancing around the room.

I guess even my dream self doesn't know the word for hamster because I said, "I am a party."

Which would be pretty cool if I was. Parties and hamsters are awesome.

Our music rocked.

And instead of Mrs. Dudka, we had Mrs. Sac for a teacher except she was nice and didn't talk as much.

I love you all.

P.S. Je suis une boum.

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:: 2005 24 January :: 8.39 pm

Rachel's biological clock says: Babies.


Someone marry me already so I can have my 46 children.

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:: 2005 23 January :: 11.12 pm
:: Mood: blah

I don't care how I feel anytime between now and Friday, there's no way in hell I'm going to be depressed on my birthday.

Happy almost your birthday, Brianna.

I love you all.

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:: 2005 22 January :: 12.10 pm

Soy un perdedor...
Today was Katie's day of birth. I went over to her house and we hung out.

Last night, Ben, Nick, Kelly, Katie and I went out to some Chinese place. It was my idea. I felt bad that Katie's parents were still in Chicago and she didn't have parents home when she turned 18. Plus she didn't get to go to Mongolian Barbecue and have a shindig like she usually does.

And she likes Chinese food.


My half brother just reminded me that once you're 18, you could find some lame 18-year-old clubs to go to. Bleh.



So I stayed home from school on Monday, we had school Tuesday, a snow day on Wednesday (our first day of exams) and exams on Thursday and Friday.

I had my French 4 and AP Lit exams on Thursday. This year, for the first time in my four-year French class career, my teacher (the same one I've had for four years) decided to give us a speaking part on the exam. My French accent = non-existent. Our AP Lit exam was 22 questions long and no one got less than 5 wrong.

On Friday, I had my last day of what became the stupidest math class ever after Mr. Hess left. The exam was easy. A-. Then I had my Physics Concepts exam. Mr. Nelligan is such a nutjob. About 15 or 20 of the questions we hadn't even covered and he said were extra credit.

So on Monday I have my Japanese 2 and Psych exams. I need to memorize 29 kanji and learn how to make macaroni and cheese, in Japanese, but my Psych exam will be easy.


On Tuesday, we'll start a new semester. My schedule will be so different, it will be terrifying. My previous third hour, Intro to Being an Idiot Who Can't Do Algebra 2, will then be Government. My sixth hour, Psychology, will become Psychology 2.

I can't wait! Sarcasm, sarcasm.

I love you all.

P. S.
Love of two is one
Here but now they're gone
Came the last night of sadness
And it was clear she couldn't go on
Then the door was open and the wind appeared
The candles blew and then disappeared
The curtains flew and then he appeared
Saying don't be afraid

Come on, baby
And she had no fear
And she ran to him
Then they started to fly
They looked backward and said goodbye
She had become like they are
She had taken his hand
She had become like they are

Come on baby
Don't fear the reaper

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:: 2005 20 January :: 11.11 pm

I'm so sick of everything.

I want out of high school. We still have almost an entire semester to go. I was tired of this in November when I got accepted to Aquinas.

This is the most horrible waste of time ever. I got accepted to the college I'm going to go to, I'm not going to learn anything new in any of my classes and I'm still stuck here until the end of May.

We're all stuck here.

I'm just so tired of everything.

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:: 2005 19 January :: 6.55 pm

I'm going to admit two things.
I don't like anime/manga anymore. Or at least, not obsessively like I used to and not as much as everyone around me likes it. Yeah, it's good but it's not that fantastic. This wouldn't be such "a big of a deal" if I wasn't the vice president of anime club and, for another month, the standing president.

I don't like DDR anymore. Again, at least not as much as I used to. I tried to pick it up a few months ago after not playing since the summer and I just didn't care anymore.

Everything I used to be totally obssesed with has just worn me out. I don't feel like wasting the energy on it anymore. I've grown out of it all.

Okay. I'm done. That was stupid.

I love you all.

P.S. Tracey, this was the first result when I googled the word standing. It was under the heading: A Woman's Guide on How to Pee Standing. I'm checking it out and it sounds like it'd take some practice but it'd be cool. I really want to be able to pee standing up. That's the only penis envy I've got, Freud!

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:: 2005 19 January :: 5.55 am

First day of exams and we don't have school.

Thank goodness because I'm tired.

I love snow.

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:: 2005 17 January :: 7.43 pm

Here's where I get to talk all mushy about how blessed and thankful I am
I am just recovering from a cold (I stayed home from school today).

On Friday, Jon gave me a ride home and explained why he swore at me earlier that week.

I walked in the door and the phone rang the minute I set foot inside.

I answered it and it was Nick. He said he left a present for me in my room. I told him I just walked inside. He just repeated what he said and hung up.

I took off my shoes, coat, backpack and things and went into my room.

I climbed over all the clothes lying on my floor (I need to do laundry) and looked all over my room for something that might resemble a "present".

Nick popped his head up from under my covers. He said he skipped sixth hour, hid is car in the garage and had been waiting for me to come home for over an hour. I told him the night before that I was feeling not too great and he came to make me feel better (and give my sister a ride over to her friend's house and make up for not being able to see me on our anniversary).

We hung around for a little bit, gave my sister a ride to her friend's house at four and came back home. Nick gave me a back massage then we went to lie down together in my room.

We ended up taking up a two-hour nap together. It was really sweet. Him showing up before I got home, hiding all evidence, giving me a back massage, then taking a nap together. It was the sweetest, most relaxing thing ever.

Oh and then he made me soup.

We went over to Ben's house and I fell asleep there too.

On Saturday, Ben and Nick came over after work. I was lonely (my brother and sister were both sleeping over at different friends' houses) and worried about Kittie Katie and her family. I was asleep when they arrived (I had been watching Pride and Prejudice, all four hours). Ben went out and got me some orange juice. Nick and I cuddled.

Oh and when they showed up, I wasn't wearing any pants.

So my weekend was fantastic.

Actually, my life is fantastic and don't you let me tell you otherwise. I have the best boyfriend in the universe. I'm so blessed and so thankful that I have the chance to spend over seven months with Nick. He is the best person in the world and I'm so very lucky to love him and be loved by him.

I apologize for not being at school today. My mommy said it'd be best if I stayed home and rested. I didn't complain. I'm feeling oodles of percentages better and I can't wait to go back to school and make up my Physics Concepts test.

I love you all.

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:: 2005 17 January :: 1.10 pm

The Intersection
Friday, April 8 - NEW FOUND GLORY wsg. Reggie and The Full Effect + Eisley
All ages welcome. $17.50 in advance. 6:30 pm doors, 7:30 pm show.

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:: 2005 13 January :: 9.15 pm

I know you don't care...but Penny Arcade says:
"So I guess G4-TechTV is dropping the TechTV part of their name. Apparently they thought it gave them undeserved credibility. They are also launching some new shows, one of which is called girls gone wired. I guess they have judges sit around and rate how hot pretend girls are. Here's a quote from their press release:

"Our audience interacts with digital girls as much as real girls and we're tapping into that fantasy," commented Laura Civiello, Vice President of Acquisitions and Development for G4. "'Girls Gone Wired' is the first pageant of its kind on television with contestants competing for titles like "Hottest Newcomer," "Sexiest Voice" and "Most Likely to Kick Enemy Ass."

I think that the idea of a television channel that focuses on videogames and technology is an exciting one. Obviously there is a lot of potential for some quality shows on a channel like that. I think that's why people dislike G4 so much. It's not just because the stuff they make is so bad. There are plenty of bad television shows on every channel. It's the fact that they are wasting all that potential, and that's what is so disappointing."

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:: 2005 12 January :: 11.19 pm

My parents left around 5 this morning. My brain, knowing this, woke me up at 5.

My alarm goes off at 5:50.

Today was fantastic. Nick was at school when we got out, I had anime club, which went smoothly, and my sister is still alive.

I know that I'm not going to be able to fall asleep before 2, it's impossible.

The house makes way too many noises and I can never sleep when my parents are gone.

And now I'm worried about my brother being at his friend's house until Friday night. Plus all my normal worries...

Nick stopped by after work. I didn't want him to leave, I felt so safe and relaxed with him here. I couldn't believe it was seven months...still can't.

I'll try to sleep sometime later. I know I won't be able to.

I love you all.

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