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2004 19 March :: 1.28pm
ha ha ha ha ha
i'm so not at school right now. it's awesome to the max.
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ok...i was in band....
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sugarmouse0587
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2004 18 March :: 10.19pm
Spell your first name back wards: nehoC htuR haraS
Nicknames?: Beans, Sarar, Sera
The story behind your msn/yahoo name: It's lame and I'd change it, but that would mean I'd have to transfer my buddy list
Boyfriend/Girlfriend?: nuh.lame.messy.
4 words that sum you up: aloof, quiet, pensive, fickle
Wallet: it's blue and bulky and canvas and it has a magnetic snap and it's hard to get things in and out of my stepmom got it for me for christmas a long time ago and it has a matching wallet-like purse, and it's from american eagel
Hairbrush: i ended up getting three for christmas, so i have like eight brushes, but the one i like was 99 cents and it's made out of wood
Jewellery you wear daily: i was wearing some earrings then i was wearing a necklace, but i get tired of jewlery
Pillow cover: one is pink and one has flowers, we found it in the dead man's shack
Coffee cup: i like the deformed one
Shoes: i like the blue ones that diana gave me even though they hurt my feet and don't keep them dry either
CD in stereo right now: ben folds, lifehouse, and the second vonda shepard soundtrack
What you are wearing now: scrubs, hilltop sweatshirt
In my mouth: bad smells
In my head: vrrrrrrooooooommmmmm
Eating: i had two boxes of wendy's chicken nugets...yesssssss
Some of your favorite movies: i don't know...there are a lot that i really liked, like...the elf, school of rock, big fish, starsky and hutch, fried green tomatos, molin rouge, happy campers, the emporers new groove,
Something you're looking forward to: not going to school tomorrow and spring and working and aspen and school being over, and fifth hour and graduating and europe and my new house and my dad's new house and getting a good grade on my assesments and being done with the scarlet letter, and the fifth book in the georgia diaries and the sixth harry potter, and not feeling so crappy
The last thing you ate?: lemon ice
Something that you are deathly afraid of?: getting in a car accident...or probably any accident, but mostly the car type
Do you like candles: not really.
Do you believe in a thing called love: not
Do you believe in love at first sight: no
Do you believe in forgiveness: most of the time, but usually i forgive and have resentment
If you could have any animal for a pet: an invisible one that doesn't need my attention or food or to go outside or make noise or smells
What are 3 places you wouldn't mind relocating to?: colorado, not cedar springs, paris
What's something you wish you could understand better?: the bible and the history of the world
Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time?: no, seeing band campers once a year is probably enough for me, even though i like them and i saw sam last sunday so it hasn't been that long
In the last 24 hours, have you:
Cried: nope. i'm on a roll
Gotten sick: sort of
Sang: why, yes, i'm singing right now
Eaten: and how!
Felt stupid: i know i did something really really dumb, i just can't remember what it was
Hugged someone: yes, it made me feel sick inside
Wanted to tell someone you loved them: actually i wanted to tell a few people to get the hell away from me
Met someone new: yes, her name is tearny and she's from iowa and she's in eight grade and she's really cute
Talked to an ex: yes
Fought with your parents: no
Are you center of attention or the wallflower: super wallflower
What type of automobile do you drive: a dirty one
Would you rather be with friends or on a date: my friends
Do you attend church: yes, it's comforting if you don't really listen to what's being said, just let people be nice to you
Do you like being around people: not this week
Who have you known the longest: my mom, probably
Who do you argue the most with: dani and a-ron, and sometimes troy
Who do you always get along with: everyone else, i'm a lover not a fighter
Who has the coolest siblings: jessica benzer
Who is the smartest: spud, jess b or jess w
Who is your Hero: calvin coolidge and henry clay
3 can't stop the B.M. |
ok...i was in band....
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sugarmouse0587
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2004 17 March :: 7.11pm
It doesn't even give me a good feeling anymore.
2 can't stop the B.M. |
ok...i was in band....
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sugarmouse0587
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2004 16 March :: 8.56pm
:: Music: ben folds
so you want the freedom, but you know leaving the security is going to hurt really bad
but you also know that emotional rampages aren't normal and there's and oppressive akwardness that you can't get away from
and it's the little things...and that your whole relationship has been in the precarious situation for a long time because there isn't a firm foundation.
and you don't want to try because you're too tired of the problems.
but it's so scary.
ok...i was in band....
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sugarmouse0587
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2004 16 March :: 4.59pm
:: Mood: lazy
:: Music: ben folds
It's not that I'm unhappy. I would say this is my favorite year of high school. I just hate winter. And school.
School+winter+me=mrs. grump
And I hate all these conflicting feelings. Sometimes I think I shouldn't make decisions anymore because I change my mind so much. You can make most things sound like great ideas if you think about it hard and long enough.
ok...i was in band....
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sugarmouse0587
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2004 14 March :: 5.09pm
Rainy Sundays are the worst kind of days.
ok...i was in band....
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sugarmouse0587
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2004 12 March :: 11.32pm
I am way lost.
but I do know that you really have to sit back and figure out the real reason why you're upset.
ok...i was in band....
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sugarmouse0587
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2004 10 March :: 11.55pm
It's kind of funny how I manage to break my own heart.
I'm freaking Arthur Stupidsdale.
ok...i was in band....
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sugarmouse0587
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2004 10 March :: 11.44pm
:: Mood: uncomfortable
beautiful day
except for the angry part
ok...i was in band....
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sugarmouse0587
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2004 10 March :: 1.23pm
Hey...stop being a such a crappy person. You big meanie. I won't be used. Thanks.
And yay, I get to come home for real tomorrow.
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ok...i was in band....
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danibean
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2004 8 March :: 2.35pm
:: Mood: cranky
so...as i sit here eating a dannon light 'n fit blueberry flavored yogurt (0% fat) i wonder what i'm doing. i mean, i sat here till almost midnight last night. that's nuts...and i knew he wasn't coming back. i think back to honors band and i can still see him when he whispered into my ear and gave me the sweetest little grin when i wispered so sweetly into his. we could just make the cutest couple ever. he just has this indescribable innocence and radience about him that no one i've ever met has. we'll see if i talk to him this week, if he wants to meet for coffee on satruday.
i talked to mr. walker today about my schedule for my senior year. he reccommended dual enrolling. i agree. so i need to check out GVSU's website to see if they have their class offerings listed yet. that would be sooo sweet if i could get into college before i graduated. and CMU will most likely take my credits from grand valley. woo hoo. plus i'm taking a whole year of psycology.
so i'm leaving at 3:15 to go get the girls from school and babysitting then to who know's when tonight. no turbo kick because i forgot to call their mom to tell her. i'm trying to get my piano lesson rescheduled on wednesday because i want to go to districts. i totally forgot we have a half day so i could very well go after school. but i kind of want to go shopping.
well that's it for now.......
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESSICA WIBBLE!! THE BIG ONE SIX TODAY!!!!!! (16) :) LOVE YOU!!!
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danibean
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2004 7 March :: 10.38pm
:: Mood: contemplative
i realized when i write in here more, things seem to be more clear in my life. therefore, i think i'm going to have to devote some time to journaling more often. i have a quite thoughtful mind and i feel that my thoughts should be written out so i don't forget them. i've been waiting for him for like an hour and a half now. it's worth it. even if we only talk for 10 minutes, i'll be filled up with happiness. i think he's that great. i talked to ross today for the first time since we got together over swirl weekend. i kind of sorted out my un-feelings for him and i feel better about it. i think he's hurt, but he'll move on. i'm not that great. i have the week off of work so that'll give me some extra gym and practice time that is much needed. it'll feel good to get to the gym more. shoot...that's what i forgot to do...call karen and tell her i have to leave by 5:30 to make turbo kick!! ahhhh.....i hope she calls while i'm babysitting tomorrow so i can tell her i need to leave. oh well, turbo kick might have to be put on hold for a week :( well, i'm out for the night..... cya's.
ok...i was in band....
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sugarmouse0587
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2004 4 March :: 10.47pm
I should stop everything.
ok...i was in band....
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sugarmouse0587
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2004 29 February :: 9.33pm
:: Music: train
Now that I'm done being a frurk, I can move on and be happy again.
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ok...i was in band....
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